Quote from: Nilay on Aug 28, 2024, 03:51:08 AMDoesn't just taking on negative karma harm energy vampires? Or how do they tolerate it? I guess when we offer karma we offer both positive and negative karma, right?

As Mystress has stated - there are ways to do it in a manner that is beneficial for everyone involved.
I would like to share my thoughts to your question.
I am FST lineage and have been personally trained by Mystress for more than a decade now!
Also, Mystress and I have been working on a book about 'Alchemy of empathy'.
So I am writing this out here as a way to reflect on my own experiences about transmuting karma and unwanted emotional energy.
Apologies if this feels a bit like a ramble.

Some people have the capacity to generate more life energy than they can possibly use for themselves and therefore have an imperative to give.
Some people have the capacity/need to consume and process more life energy than others and therefore have an imperative to take.
In vamp slang:
When the energy exchange is consensual, it is usually referred to as a donor-vampire relationship.
When the energy exchange is not consensual, it is usually referred to as a predator-victim relationship.

Donors shine brilliantly when their life energy is regularly dissipated in a healthy manner so they can release excess stale energy, regenerate, and replenish.
Give away excess and stale to make space for new sparkly life energy.
People who donate blood (in appropriate manner) tend to have better overall health and immunity because their body makes new blood cells after donating.
When donor's life energy is drained too much too fast, there is fatigue, risk of harm and even death.
When donor's life energy is drained too little, there is anxiety of excess stale energy, chaotic emotional noise, and restless boredom that often leads to escaping from living life by numbing.
When donor's life energy is drained in a balanced manner, then they can feel relieved of stress, unwanted emotional noise, relaxed, and rejuvenated.

Vampires shine brilliantly when they feed in a healthy manner regularly.
Take what others are happy to give away and transmute it - global garbage recycling - lol
When vamps feed too much or inappropriately, their digestive system will usually take bad hits.
When vamps feed too little, they can become miserable, disassociated, and mean.
When vampires feed in a balanced manner, their vamp senses become extra-ordinarily sharp, their energy body can do astonishing things, and their natural gifts blossom.

Vamps who do not know how to feed properly usually resort to playing manipulative power games to trigger emotional reaction from others.
Stealing other peoples stuff without consent (many times in the guise of hero-savior taking responsibility for other peoples lives) will hit the vamp bad.
Mystress uses the metaphor of 'fish hooks ripping your energy body' - that's what stolen energy does to a vamp.
If the owner did not consent, they will yank the energy cord every time they feel fear and the vamp's energy body will take hits - usually manifest as digestive issues and emotional distress.

To answer your question: vamps health is not affected by content of karma (negative or positive is judgment held by each individual). Energy is energy. Vamp's health depends on nature of feeding.
If a person consents and gives a vamp their grief, it is yummy nutritious energy for the vamp's vortex.
If a person do not consent and a vamp steals their positive energy, the vamp will have digestive issues and feel miserable when ever the owner reacts with fear.

As Mystress says, karma is emotional content held in your body.
Your shadow and DB decides what, when, and how to release your karma.
As a built in mercy and safety mechanism, you usually won't be able to release all your karma at once.
Because if you were able to do that, your entire ego would disintegrate (which would be cruelly intense for most) and a healthy notion of self is required for living everyday life.
On the other hand, when people cling to past and refuse to let go, it will create unwanted negative effects on your overall health and well-being.
At a fundamental level, every human has to have healthy elimination of what is not required anymore and healthy intake of what nourishes them.
When there is a disruption in elimination or intake, it will create problems in the individual and stunt their growth - this applies to both vamps and donors.

As Mystress hinted above, vamps can do mass-impersonal karma cleaning and individual-personal karma cleaning.
Every individual has different dietary needs.
Some vamps NEED to have a small percentage of individual-personal karma cleaning as a part of their everyday energy diet to stay sane and happy.
If I enter your home without permission and take your broken chair, that is theft.
If you leave your broken chair on the curb outside your home, I can take it and reuse it as I see fit.
If there is a death in a family, then the household grieves and puts out that energy.
A vamp can tune in to the grief energy of that home and do a general clean up without having to know details about anyone.

How much can a vamp eat?
LOL... A vamp's hunger is primal and not bound by reason.
A vamp's capacity to take and transmute is determined by the vamp's spiritual evolution.
Holding judgment against self or others will restrict vamp capacity and ability.
When we become judgmental, we fall out of surrender and disrupt the flow of energy.
Learning to trust the vamp vortex and cultivating the spiritual discipline to surrender all incoming energy traffic to vortex is crucial for the vamp's health, survival, and growth.
Just like a small child learns to eat and walk.. vamps can also learn how to feed in a way that is helpful and beneficial for all.

Hope some of this was helpful.
Please let me know your thoughts / questions if any.

Namaste!
Gopi

I wrote down the 2 phrases for Retro and put them in my wallet. An unpleasant emotion arose yesterday, I couldn't find the memory but I knew intuitively it was about social anxiety. I immediately pulled out the 2nd phrase and read it to myself. It did work well.

Later in the day, a traumatic memory emerged, one that I have thought about often, when I was bullied as a kid in Highschool, I read the 1st phrase this time. It worked.

I am excited to keep using Retro when needed. I think this will be a great tool to overcome my social anxiety and generalized anxiety

I'm starting Roleplay and Responsibility tomorrow.

Been making good progress with social anxiety. Had a few conversations today and didn't really feel the fight or flight response.

I quit smoking cigarettes which has helped my stress levels.

Also, I haven't drank alcohol (more than one beer) in a couple weeks. I'm going to try and keep it that way because once I start drinking, it gets out of control.

Been listening to my body a lot more. Life is easier when you look towards the body for the guidance you need/instead of the mind.

I think the steroids are wearing off and my ear pain is coming back... Idk I'll just take acetaminophen and ibuprofen combined if the pain is overwhelming. My health insurance through my employer kicks in Dec 1st, and its great coverage. I'll see about finding a new primary care physician who can see me.

I talked with an older gentleman today and he said acupuncture did wonders for his allergies. Maybe I'll give that a shot.

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Energetically, I'm doing great I tend to be hard on myself so it can be difficult to admit that I have been prioritizing myself, and I have been doing a good job. There is a lot going on that I'm not happy with regarding my physical health, but I can rest easy knowing I am trying my best. I'm getting a bit emotional now, karma being released I think. My nose is running a bit but I'm not crying. It's about over now. It has definitely been happening more often lately, tears of joy, tears of anger/frustration, I do my best to just stay detached while allowing them to come -- then go. Also, honesty has been on my mind lately. I don't want to lie to anyone anymore. I would often lie to protect my ego from getting hurt but that never works. I'm kind of an emotional man, and being a straight male the societal pressure has always been "be a manly man" and I've succumbed to that plenty of times and denied my true self.

I find journaling here in the TeaRoom extremely cathartic. I'm so grateful for this little community. And I am grateful for my new job. Thank you Goddess for this life I live <333

Grief.

It just seems like there's one problem after another keep going through fucking bullshit. I've got these ingrown toenails. I've been trying everything to make them better. I start snowboard and ski instruction in three weeks so hopefully I can get them better by then. It's not I'm just gonna have to push through the pain because I don't have any money and this is the only job that I Can see myself Doing for a long time. This will be my fifth season as a full-time instructor. Goddess Please help me fucking fix this shit. Thanks for the troubles. I guess I can only really laugh at myself. Life goes on ~~~~

I think you're probably right about the trauma response manifesting allergies. I'll meditate on it. TY

Well, I suppose that could be true, but I can tell you this much. My allergy symptoms are MUCH better now that I am not in Florida. And it's only been three days. Maybe my ear problem will be completely resolved in a matter of weeks, maybe months.

Doctor said it was an issue with my eustachian tube,  which is the small part of your ear that regulates pressure changes, hence why I can't fly airplanes anymore, He said my ear was visibly inflamed, and there was some fluid as well, he said it was due to severe allergies. He gave me a steroid shot in my arm and I felt better in 30 minutes. He says it'll last for three weeks so it should be wearing off sometime soon.

Looking at the issue from an energetic perspective, I certainly had the most traumatic experiences of my entire life in Florida and I developed the severe environmental allergies shortly there after. I got sick with mono and developed crippling chronic anxiety disorders about 10 years ago and that's when all the allergies started and I had to get surgery on my sinuses, which did help. Who knows...

In the meantime, I think I'll continue my immunotherapy treatments. And continue peeling away at my karma.

Yeah, that would be great. Maybe he would be interested in meeting me. I'll send you a personal message on Skype of my new email address. Or maybe I'll just update it on here.

I've made some good progress with upping the grounding to 4 times day, also, the energy dump overload as well. This morning I dumped overload for about 4 minutes, which felt great. I've been trying to hone in on listening to my body more, I notice it kind of speaks to me, sometimes I get a rush of energy and if I don't listen to my body and expel that energy then I don't feel great/ I feel backed up or restless if I don't expel that energy when it arises.
I caught a viral infection so I don't have much energy right now so I think that's it for this post.

I think I might experience with a Mantra of sorts. I feel like I rush myself, which brings my mindfulness down.

I know there is the whole, "Don't tell others your intentions or they won't come true." I think that statement doesn't apply in this particular scenario.

I think I'll write this on my bathroom mirror as a reminder in the morning.


Something like

Slow Down
Breathe
Be Gentle With You
And Others
Take Your Time
Rest If Needed
Be Purposeful
Be Mindful
Be Kind
Smile
Love