I finished the aspects lesson and tried to move on to the next but was given the veil despite being there for two weeks. Is there a way to fix this?

Im on role play and responsibility but am a bit stuck.



I wrote in my journal about the relationship with my parents, and have let go of blaming them, what I wrote in my journal regarding my parents is more thorough but I'll just sum it up here, the things that have bothered me about them also taught me how not to be. And I am grateful for that lesson.



I'm just struggling to understand what the other part means "Begin to get a feel for the power exchange in your own life. Notice what power exchanges appear consensual, and which have a winner and a loser or victim."



Maybe there is a different way to explain this? Maybe something experiential so I can understand it better?

Update: day has progressed and I feel great, I don't feel tired like I haven't gotten enough sleep. I guess this might be the new normal for me, woohoo
Feeling grateful today

I've been having trouble sleeping more than 5-6 hours. I usually sleep 8-9. I have been making significant changes in my lifestyle though, I didn't drink much but recently I gave up alcohol altogether.

I've been energy dumping usually 3 times a day for a total of 7-8 minutes because in the past this definitely helped me sleep more.

I feel okay, maybe slightly under rested, I only slept 5 hours last night, then laid in bed awake for about an hour.

The internet says I should be getting more sleep, but I also know that folks often need less sleep after awakening. I've just never had that affect til now. Is this a cause for concern? Maybe I just need to energy dumping more?

Thank you Gopi for the insights and kind words as always. Also, the encouragement is much appreciated.

Im off to re reading the retro tech again so I can use it more effortlessly, it really is groundbreaking tech.

Happy New Year Sava!
Good to hear from you.

Expectations about linear time and progress don't make much sense when dealing with K.
Nature or Divine Feminine based way of living emphasizes cyclical nature of time - moon cycles, fertility cycles, seasonal cycles, crop cycles, etc.

As your heart chakra opens more, you will experience increased empathy with everything that you interact with. Anytime you feel something invasive or out of character:
* Pause and ground
* Ask your discernment whether what you are feeling is your own stuff? If you are grounded, you should get a clear bodily response.

Mystress taught me this. It is astonishing how much of the emotional content that flows through me is not mine (most of the time). If I identify with any of it, then I grow an ego around it.

Also, dumping overload helps manage empathy overload. I usually feel restless, anxious, and unable to focus when I am overloaded (unwanted empathic junk). That's my cue to dump overload.

I can relate to you when you say 'it is very hard'.
During my initial days of FST, I felt the same way and restarted lessons multiple times.
There were some very challenging lessons that I had to repeat many times.
I felt stuck at some lessons for several months because it took me that long to integrate the insights through life experience.
Mystress encouraged me to not give up... and honestly, a part of me knew I had to finish this course no matter how long it took.
After graduation, I can honestly say for myself that it was worth all the effort.
Several years after graduation, I re-read lessons and find new insights.

Take your time - your Higher Self and Goddess know what is best for you.
You can do this!

Namaste
Gopi

I'll admit I haven't made much progress since my awakening 7 years ago

But I think now I can see what has been holding me back

I've identified the cause and am committed to changing my ways

And things have gotten better



I'm hearing the cues from my body more easily

Sometimes the sensations/phenomena feel invasive but I am learning to go with it and not be scared when Goddess moves through me

It just requires a deeper surrender on my part



I'm on Roleplay and Responsibility now, I've been going slowly but that's ok, I'm not in a rush.



I will stay on this new path and not get distracted by the things that have thrown me off course in the past. If I can go 6 days without veering off, I can go 600. I can do this, it is very hard but with my will and help from Goddess I have faith I can restore balance and let this process unfold naturally. I've been fighting for a long time, but honestly I just feel like giving up, I know it will be worth it.