tummo session

[Jennifer]

The tummo session was a very strong experience for me.  Mystress did a lot of work on all of my energy centers and I felt very free afterwards.  I feel hesitant to describe the experience piece by piece because it feels very personal to me, and also because I am having a hard time with a lot of emotions coming up.  it is okay and i can handle it, but it feels like a lot.  I feel especially sad about all the ways in which I tried to energetically armor and protect myself, just to get through life.  These things i did actually harmed me and made me hurt physically.  When mystress looked at my stuff she saw all this right away, and nobody else ever did.  I went to so many energy workers who said "oh all your chakras are fine and glowing (red blue whatever).... and your energy is great" that didn't match my internal experience at all but I couldn't see what was there either.  I feel kind of ripped off by those other people, what's the deal with that?  Why are they pretending to see  stuff they can't really see?  Or do they just think that they see truly but they are projecting?  Do they think that just because i have more chi floating around my body than the average person that means my energy is good?  how can my energy and chakras look good to one person and bound up to another?
I'm also feeling very sad about my relationship because I feel very alone and not seen and I thought my spouse shared my spiritual path, but I guess not. In fact I don't feel like we share anything anymore. I've been trying to just do my own thing and not ask anything of him, just co-exist, but i realize today that's not working for me at all.  I don't want to end the relationship but I also don't like how I feel being a part of this.  Today I have to admit to myself that I really am quite unhappy and i can't hide that from myself anymore.
anyway i really loved the tummo session and I'd be happy to answer any questions anyone has about that.  I did choose to get my reiki symbols removed ( I was previously  a reiki master) .  I don't know what else to say except that it was an incredible experience and i am very grateful to mystress and her trainees for doing this work on me.