Old symbols, heat, skin, dreams and limiting beliefs. (long post)

[Gustaf]

I have posted some before about skin eruptions and excess heat in the body, and after reading some of the posts on kundalini-teacher.com about reiki and reiki issues, I am pondering if some of this heat and friction I tend to experience could have something to do with this. Mystress remember some people developing problems after becoming awakened. My inner guidance gives me mixed reactions about this, and Mystress already had my reiki symbols removed. Still curious of why the whole idea came up in the first place though. Did I miss something?

Heart voice lights up clearer when I say "limiting beliefs", and lights up slightly when I say "stress"..  Stress may arise out of limiting beliefs, no doubt.

I am writing this here with the clear intention for Goddess to eat it all up, whatever is in it. I've discovered recently how incredibly minor a few pimples and heat in the body really is. Limiting beliefs about what is important. So much focus on things that in the long run are so insignificant, feeding them with energy. I feel I carry something inside me that is still causing some congestion. Have I missed something?

Just now before writing this line I went to the bathroom. I asked within. How to eat this stuff? Whether it is about limiting beliefs, or some old Reiki trace somewhere.  It was like a big wave inside me that said "Gustaf, meditate on the fire serpent"..   The fire serpent will eat it... It will eat me. I am going to put up a vision board (like the guy in The Secret) and put up the Fire Serpent there, right behind the monitors of my studio.

Dreams. Note that for some reason I am writing them in a opposite chronological order, so it starts with the most recent stuff first, and then moves backwards.

Dream:
I am fighting zombies/monsters, at one point a female "monster" appears, a grey/blue skinned woman with sharp teeth, blood dripping from them. Despite this appearance there is something very attractive about her. She pushes me down on the ground and straddles my hips, grinning at me with those bloody teeth. The question that comes naturally and spontaneously is. "You are going to eat me, aren't you?"  Calmly she nodded, as if it was the most natural thing in the world.  The dream shifted, and I found myself looking into a large mirror. There was a woman in it, sitting in a chair, her head in profile, she was dressed in a gown. The same "voice" as the eating woman, said inside me, "You will marry"

So Kali is eating me up and the woman in the mirror is my reflection, asking to be united?

Dream:
It's a very short dream, but due to the intense presence in it, it seems important. I walked past an outdoor cafe, where a teenage girl sits at a table, I approach her and ask her if she is ready to be free, to soar and be who she truly is, not worrying what other thinks of her. The questions arise from deep within, and the presence is so intense it is nearly impossible to describe. For each question, her own presence and joy grows, and I end up taking her hand and we lift off..

Dreams with presence
The dream with the girl and intense presence is only one in a series. I dissolved bullies through simply asking them questions, I faced very scarey looking shadow creatures, and dissolved the whole thing by... from deep within, simply ask questions. The one  "red thread" through all of these dreams is an incredible sense of being all inclusive. The teenage girl, the bullies and monsters were all completely and totally accepted in the dreams, there was no attempt to remove them, simply ask questions, come to a conclusion.

The 9/11 dream
This dream felt incredibly potent.  Describing it briefly, it began by visiting some sort of memorial of the twin towers, while at the same time being inside one of them. Not long after, I was transfered into a person, during the morning right before the first airplane. I was on a balcony of sorts right at the top of the building. The light in the distance was, I knew without any doubt, my impending destruction. Oddly enough there was no fear, no dread, and no panic. I had two choices.   Stay and get annihilated, jump and get annihilated.  I jumped...   With perfect and clear realization of what it meant. I hit the ground and died. (Clears up the old superstition that if you hit the ground in a falling dream, you die)  Still here!

The earlier rather dark scene was transformed into something much brighter, and I was able to float in the air. (The rest of the dream was more about conspiracy theories and warning construction workers, and floating in the air with camera-equipped japanese kids... )

Goddess please take all this!

Gustaf