Brainwaves (some kind of tension?)

[Vyana]

A few days ago my doctor told me my brain waves were somewhat special:

1. I am normally in a meditative state with brain waves about 20 (Alfa waves).

2. When I am asleep my brainwaves are too high; about 10 (still Alfa I suppose).

I don%rsquot know what to make of this. Recently I have seen a colleague who seems to have some problems with cooling down in the evening after working intensively. My problem is rather that, even if I normally fall asleep easily in the night, I wake up extremely early in the morning. I might fall asleep at 11 and then wake up at 3 or 4 or even at 1 o clock, and then I often feel really brisk and want go up. Than I also have some stomach problems. Still it makes sense to me that I might have a problem that is somehow similar to that of my colleague. There might be some kind of tension in my body or brain which is somehow the cause of both my stomach problem and my sleeping problems. But I don%rsquot know how to deal with it. Relaxation exercises don%rsquot seem to help. Rather they tend to make it more difficult for me to fall asleep. To fall asleep, I don%rsquot need extra relaxation but rather I need to be distracted, preferably by my own fantasies.

Any insights or advises appreciated!

[edward]

Vyana,

Is your doctor saying that you in waking state are having 20 cps waves or that you have alpha waves?

Waves 14 cps or higher are usually considered beta, so 20 cps in waking state is quite normal. So in waking state, if you're having 20 cps waves that should be normal and nothing to worry about.

If the doctor has said that you have alpha waves in waking state (and not mentioned 20 cps), I envy you! That's the goal of all traditonal meditiation, to alter the brain so that the alpha waves get dominant.

When it comes to sleeping, 10 cps is mid alpha-wave, and that is usually where you are dreaming or have light sleep (when sleeping).

I'm pretty sure that your brain lowers to both theta and delta waves during your sleep. There is a theory which says that in the delta waves we are in the spritual dimension.

A way to chek this would be sleeping while having an encephalograph measuring your brain waves.

A more easier way would be to do Yoga Nidra. You should find a longer version, like Swami Janakandas. In this Yoga Nidra, your brain waves lowers to both theta and delta waves during the excersise . In theta and especially delta waves, one is not usually concious. So, if can listen to the Yoga Nidra daily, and still notice from time to time that there are things on the CD/tape you have not noticed before, that should indicate that you have normal brain wave pattern during sleep.

I periods, I do the yoga nidra daily, and then I only need 3-4 hours of sleep a night.

40 minutes of Yoga Nidra is considered equal to 2-4 hours of quality sleep. Maybe, when you get up at night, feeling brisk and awake, you should do the Yoga Nidra.

Edward

[Vyana]

: Is your doctor saying that you in waking state are having 20 cps waves or that you have alpha waves?

: Waves 14 cps or higher are usually considered beta, so 20 cps in waking state is quite normal. So in waking state, if you're having 20 cps waves that should be normal and nothing to worry about.

- Actually, I noticed that right after I posted and sent him a mail.

: If the doctor has said that you have alpha waves in waking state (and not mentioned 20 cps), I envy you! That's the goal of all traditonal meditiation, to alter the brain so that the alpha waves get dominant.

- This is what he said (but he also mentioned 20 cps, if my memory does not fail). I have been meditating most of my days since 1973, so it is possible.

: When it comes to sleeping, 10 cps is mid alpha-wave, and that is usually where you are dreaming or have light sleep (when sleeping).

- Yes, he says that is why I wake up so early. I don%rsquot go deep enough when sleeping.

: I'm pretty sure that your brain lowers to both theta and delta waves during your sleep. There is a theory which says that in the delta waves we are in the spritual dimension.

- I am certainly there now and then.

: A way to chek this would be sleeping while having an encephalograph measuring your brain waves.

: A more easier way would be to do Yoga Nidra. You should find a longer version, like Swami Janakandas. In this Yoga Nidra, your brain waves lowers to both theta and delta waves during the excersise . In theta and especially delta waves, one is not usually concious. So, if can listen to the Yoga Nidra daily, and still notice from time to time that there are things on the CD/tape you have not noticed before, that should indicate that you have normal brain wave pattern during sleep.

- Actually, I have done the Yoga Nidra by Swami Janakananda for many years. The experience differs. Sometimes I get really low and don%rsquot notice anything I listen to, sometimes I stay really awake instead.

: I periods, I do the yoga nidra daily, and then I only need 3-4 hours of sleep a night.

- I never noticed that yoga nidra influence my need for sleep. It I only need 4-6 hours of sleep that could of course be an explanation for why I am waking up that early. But still, I feel tired in daytime. Sometimes I sleep for an hour or so in the afternoon.

: 40 minutes of Yoga Nidra is considered equal to 2-4 hours of quality sleep. Maybe, when you get up at night, feeling brisk and awake, you should do the Yoga Nidra.

- Thank you for the advice! I will try it! I have done it before, but only occasionally.

[Vyana]

I am writing this additional comment at 03:50 in the early morning. I woke up at about 03.00 and then I had already been awake twice to go to the toilet (I am having some stomach problems, maybe from some bad food, and am drinking a lot). I have noticed my brain is extremely creative and running wild with ideas, creating a really tough answer to a letter with crazy information I received a few days ago. And I feel as if my whole body is involved in the process.

My brain hardly ever goes on like this in daytime. Actually, it%rsquos most often quiet when I don%rsquot order it to be creative. Nowadays, I am actually most often too tired to be creative. (This is not good, as I recently got a lot of work to do.) And when I am creative, I feel more in control of the process. My brain just comes up with the ideas. But I suppose a great part of the creative process has always been going on in the background. I use to think of a problem, and if I don%rsquot feel like I understand all aspects of it or if my brain does not come up with the solution right away, I just let it be and return to it in a day or two. Then I normally have the answer fixed and ready. So, it%rsquos possible that this creative process has always been going on while I have been asleep, or in my subconscious. By why does it have to wake me up? I have the same problem when my brain is restructuring after a session with Mystress; my brain is working at high speed, I see a lot of pictures etc passing by at extremely high speed and I hardly get any sleep. My brain has not normally been waking me up like that.

My doctor suggested that waking up at 3 or 4 might have something to do with the liver, but he also suggested that in my case, the stomach was maybe the problem instead. Now it is 04.15 I will go and practice the yoga nidra.

Please Goddess take all issues connected to my sleep problems. They are all yours! Thank you very much!

[Mystress]

I think you are experiencing the karmic feedback effect of the healing you did on your workspace.

 I get that kind of restless, hyper creative energy from processing other people's karma with unconditional love. The only way to release it is to put it into a creative act of some sort... I do all kinds of crafts, art, performance, writing, etc... I have to, it keeps me sane and peaceful.  

 The stomach problems come from loud power chakra signals that some of the karma you ate is not "food"... the owner is resisting and Free Will is Goddess law.

Goddess won't take stolen property, so it is like bad food that sits in your stomach rotting and poisoning your system (liver started to ache, yet?) instead of being digested. You don't start to get better until you barf it up- give it back.

 You get a punch in the gut when you behave in ways that are not respectful of other people's boundaries.

 I know, doesn't seem fair... on the higher level it felt automatic, "as Goddess wills" but it ripples down... and the body tells the truth of it.
 The thing is, "As Goddess wills" sometimes is karma unfolding. Being led into a situation in order to learn not to go there again...  

 Yes, you can fly off on the intensity of the power rush of being God for people and it is juicy, a yummy addiction and Shakti will let you do it, but unless it is strictly consensual the body has to deal with the hangover... using Shakti to project your judgments of "needs to be fixed" onto other people is stealing their power to be God of their own lives. Energy is energy- karma is also personal power, once transformed into insights and it is theirs to unwrap the gift in it.  

 Yours, to unwrap your own insights from this experience... that is the other part of the key to release.  What is stuck, is stuck on the issues in you. Passive surrender "Goddess take it" doesn't work with this, She won't take stolen property.  

 Look inward, at the part of you that refuses to see perfection in what Is... you think something is broken and needs to be fixed, and that is the root of your power chakra knot.

 On the level of the physical there are some folks who prefer to be caged and resist anyone taking away the bars that they lovingly hand carved in childhood.

 It is like when I have done bondage performance art for relatively vanilla groups. There are always people who want to set the bound person free, and they just don't get that the subject enjoys being tied up and doesn't want the fetters released.

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: I am writing this additional comment at 03:50 in the early morning. I woke up at about 03.00 and then I had already been awake twice to go to the toilet (I am having some stomach problems, maybe from some bad food, and am drinking a lot). I have noticed my brain is extremely creative and running wild with ideas, creating a really tough answer to a letter with crazy information I received a few days ago. And I feel as if my whole body is involved in the process.

: My brain hardly ever goes on like this in daytime. Actually, it%rsquos most often quiet when I don%rsquot order it to be creative. Nowadays, I am actually most often too tired to be creative. (This is not good, as I recently got a lot of work to do.) And when I am creative, I feel more in control of the process. My brain just comes up with the ideas. But I suppose a great part of the creative process has always been going on in the background. I use to think of a problem, and if I don%rsquot feel like I understand all aspects of it or if my brain does not come up with the solution right away, I just let it be and return to it in a day or two. Then I normally have the answer fixed and ready. So, it%rsquos possible that this creative process has always been going on while I have been asleep, or in my subconscious. By why does it have to wake me up? I have the same problem when my brain is restructuring after a session with Mystress; my brain is working at high speed, I see a lot of pictures etc passing by at extremely high speed and I hardly get any sleep. My brain has not normally been waking me up like that.

: My doctor suggested that waking up at 3 or 4 might have something to do with the liver, but he also suggested that in my case, the stomach was maybe the problem instead. Now it is 04.15 I will go and practice the yoga nidra.

: Please Goddess take all issues connected to my sleep problems. They are all yours! Thank you very much!

[Vyana]

:   I think you are experiencing the karmic feedback effect of the healing you did on your workspace.

Thank you! I can se that now! I already suspected it, I suppose, as I asked Goddess to take the karmic stuff that belonged to somebody else and give it back to them, the way you thought at the workshop. It actually seemed to work, at least I feel better since Sunday (we had some people coming for a lunch party and I had to decide whether to risk eating the food and sweets and drink the wine; I did and surprisingly I felt much better afterwards). My liver doesn%rsquot ache right now, but I think it did a few years ago, when I had really severe stomach problems. For me, creativity is mostly in writing and telling stories (I have a gift with my language), planning courses and giving lectures and also in carpenter work on my houses. I tried to paint pictures once a few years ago, but it just didn%rsquot work for me (I was somewhat better at it in my late teens, not that I have any talent though). Maybe I will try some theatre course %ndash I have always wanted to, but never got the time.

One funny thing is, the people at my workplace seem to like feeding on my energy. When I am in bliss, it seems to transform the whole atmosphere in a room. But when I feel bad, they tend to be disappointed and project judgements based on their own upcoming emotions on me; such as judgements of me being angry and them being afraid of me. I suppose this might be at the root of what I perceive as the main problem of the workplace. People are dependent on other people%rsquos energy to feel good. To be able to feel good they depend on other people to more or less continuously keep them in a good mood. That is one important reason why they don%rsquot attract and hire competent people, but more often less competent people who they perceive as %ldquonice%rdquo instead.

When thinking of it, it seems that I have intuitively realised that almost from the start, and when they have tried to feed too much on my energy, I have just turned off the supply, leaving them confused, disappointed and sometimes even angry. I suppose I instinctively thought they should act as grown-ups and not depend so much on others%rsquo energy. Actually, they often left me confused over how adults and even old people could be so immature. But that is a mirror too; to some degree I have always fed on others%rsquo energy myself, only that it has more often been energy from close friends and from books and other kinds of remote communication. Then, as an empath, I have fed on the energy available in the room (and suffered accordingly).

Kegels work better now. I do most of the kegels that are part of the physical kundalini-yoga exercises I practice almost every day right now. That is about five to ten a day, which is a lot for me. Sometimes I do get a lot of energy, but it is most often very gentle to my body. It is as if it runs freely all through it without being stopped by any of the blockages. I suppose it might add to my sleeping problems, but at least they do not seem to get worse; rather I am sleeping somewhat better. My doctor also detected a lack of magnesium, which might have added to the sleeping problems too, so now I am taking additional magnesium pills.

The %ldquoknot%rdquo I had for several years in my solar plexus area, and which made it difficult to speak (I felt a pressure at that area, and got dizzy, almost as from hyperventilation, and the muscles contracted until I could hardly move them to speak; if I still did, the pressure and dizziness got extreme), seems to have disappeared from that area (touch wood!). But the other day, while lecturing, I got similar feelings of contractions in the middle of my head instead (third eye chakra). I got so dizzy I had to sit down, but I was still able to continue talking. The dizziness seems to be related to my eyes too.

The last few weeks, I have also had increased energy activity in my head and on top of it. This might partly be a result of constantly focusing on the eye brow centre during the physical kundalini-yoga exercises. I have also got spontaneous head movements, eye movements and lately also movements in my eyes, eyelids and the areas around my eyes and even in my lips. Since I was a kid I have had an eye problem. First both my eyes faced outwards. That problem grew away, but when I was 13 or 14 I got very tired and it was detected that my eyes had a tendency to face inwards, which has since then mostly been un-manifested. I suppose the energy work in my head is partly related to that.

Please Goddess take all issues related to this post. They are all yours. Thank you very much!

And if I have taken on some karma that belongs to somebody else, please take it and give it back to them. Thank you very much!