Another day......

[Sean]

Hello,

I can't sleep again. Energy way to high I think. So I'll tell you what happened today.

Well I was all sad so I went out driving and listening to music which I like to do. After a bit I felt a little better and then started looking around for this cord that I used to be able to feel that would connect to my heart from above. Didn't see it but I did pop out this angel thing that usualy pops out when I drive. I dont know what it is but its connected to me in some way. Its this huge angel that spins out twisting up to about 500 feet above me and pops out its wins and flies along up there above the trees. Its huge. It usualy dances and flows along with the music making energy flow around it. Its a nice sight to feel. Sometimes it does energy bombs, or fireworks. I can do this to. Lots of energy all buzed up, then drop it and BOOM! Its fun to do it really fast. Very clearing. So its up there above everything, flying around, sometimes I go up there too to see how things look from up there. So I start to ask if its a guy, or a girl? Seem's it just is... Whatever.. end of questions, I like it. Its fun. I don't question to much anymore...

So I'm on the way back now and I figure that if this thing is up there I should be able to get in touch with my archangles better. So I put out a call for them to come over and help me heal my body up. I'd really like that. Hum de dum... Uh oh, here we go again, I can feel something from my past forming, but I'm really happy about it. Strange. I'm sick of my past already heh... ok what is it?

An intracate box with a heart in it, and its snowing all around. I know this, this is when I was in public highshcool. Right before I dropped out of the world. When all my inner shiny things where falling away a little at a time and my pink stuff that would surround me was growing smaller. I started to see my heart in this box. It was like a Japanese house with doors opening on all sides connected to chains. Things were now directly hitting my heart. I knew it. I didn't know what to do. I started to close the doors as the snow came down harder. I knew it was important to keep the doors open for whatever reason. But I knew I was gettting hurt way beyond what I could do about it. So eventually I closed them. Pulled in the chains, and barred the doors. There was a blizzard outside.

I showed up today when they were almost shut. Called in some angels to back me up. And ran into myself almost right away. I explained things about the box and things, and how to open it above and below and draw in from that, not anyone around. Then I grabbed the box with my feelers and started to send it love and understanding and knowledge and ground it at the same time. Woooosh! Box is gone light is there. I can let it go. How'd I do that? I explained. I also had to explain about healing him then for me now. Then I got an exchange of info. I dont know what it was, but I learned something too. It was so quick I dont even remember it. But I knew something then that I forgot. Cool. I also remembered putting a piece of light away deep inside. The very last spark. So I could use it later when I knew more. Hmm, cool, I'll go find it later... I remembered telling myself that I would have to watch out now because things will effect me more than they used to. To be carefull. Which makes me think about me being super sensitive now... Mayby this is not my natural state? Anyways I was hanging out with me and doing a lot of remembering and learning. I knew a lot about this then but not what I really needed. Asked myself a lot of questions and it was getting confused heh. So I sent it all to Goddess and he left. That was pretty fun.

So when this was going on I felt my heart area start moving, when I got rid of the box and it all opened up again. My heart started to open up more and move inward towards my back, and from my shoulder blades to the bottom of my feet started to buzz with new powerfull energy. Its a cool new feeling. I can stand up really straight again now. With no real effort. I can feel a nice flow up and down. Every time I move to my back now I can feel this tasty energy there. Its a rush. When I go to my heart I start to see the incredible things, visions, feelings, just like before. Its a shock. But its so cool. Have to get used it again. Used to being pretty empty for a while. Now I'm all buzzed up. I keep looking into my heart and poping back out. I can't stay. Too many cool things to comprehend.

Oh, unrealated, but this is from a post made a month or 2 ago. Got it out and finished it. I'll have to do a better one when I can.

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Hehe..

Sean