Interesting experience with Retroactive Trauma Healing- I made it Proactive

[Svarah]

Hi one and all -

I had an experience with RTH (Retro Trauma Healing) technique I wanted to share.

One thing that happens with me and trauma- is I start to get VERY worried about things in the future and dwelling on it and till I work myself into a trauma response state:
tense gross feelings in solar plexus
repetitive thinking/images of what I imagine will come
repetitive images/thinking of how I will handle the situation
repetitive images/thinking of trying to prevent the thing from happening

Once I am in this state it is hard to get out of- I it is like I am possessed by negativity.

Yesterday I tried RTH with with some things from my past and got good results.

This morning I got into that state about something I am imagining/afraid will happen- and tried RTH- I did two rounds of it with no noticeable shift.

So I changed the words to "Please go forward in time" and made all the other words be about the future. In essence- asking Goddess/Guides/Higher Self to be with me IF that happened.

Also- during the surrender piece- I did 30 seconds or so of spontaneous calligraphy- an art form I have done on and off for years.

Two rounds of this and VIOLA- trauma response gone and I felt not only good- but GREAT.

Thank You Goddess and Thanks Mystress for bring this forth. In the past it could take hours to clear a trauma response.

[Svarah]

Hmmmm-

once I posted it said error- so I tried re-posting- not sure how to delete it.

[Svarah]

Here are the exact words (it came up again with this reply)

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[Gopi]

Hello Svarah,

Thank you for sharing your experiences.

“…it is like I am possessed by negativity.
Yesterday I tried RTH with with some things from my past and got good results.
This morning I got into that state about something I am imagining/afraid will happen- and tried RTH- I did two rounds of it with no noticeable shift.
So I changed the words to "Please go forward in time" and made all the other words be about the future. In essence- asking Goddess/Guides/Higher Self to be with me IF that happened.”

Interestingly, I did the same a few months ago and reported back to Mystress.
Mystress pointed out that I am giving energy to my fears by doing the future thing.
Fear about future is rooted in trauma of past - better to address root cause instead of symptom.
Going forward and trying to control the future based on fear is not surrender.
One of the things about trauma healing is that it happens in layers at a pace that is negotiated with each individual’s Higher Self.
Trauma related karma is stored in body and it takes time for body and neural patterns in brain to readjust.
Expecting drastic results is another form of wanting control about how the process should unfold.

Our dopamine addicted brain may want drastic and dramatic results but nature has Her own rhythm and tempo.
We follow Her rhythm; not the other way around.
Manifesting good things based on love and trusting life is good - Mystress taught me the phrase ‘Goddess has it handled!’
Manifesting things based on fear of future might provide immediate comfort to ego. But check with yourself - are you surrendering your fear of ‘IF that happened’ to Goddess?

Namaste!
Gopi

[Svarah]

Hello Svarah,

Thank you for sharing your experiences.

“…it is like I am possessed by negativity.
Yesterday I tried RTH with with some things from my past and got good results.
This morning I got into that state about something I am imagining/afraid will happen- and tried RTH- I did two rounds of it with no noticeable shift.
So I changed the words to "Please go forward in time" and made all the other words be about the future. In essence- asking Goddess/Guides/Higher Self to be with me IF that happened.”

Interestingly, I did the same a few months ago and reported back to Mystress.
Mystress pointed out that I am giving energy to my fears by doing the future thing.
Fear about future is rooted in trauma of past - better to address root cause instead of symptom.
Going forward and trying to control the future based on fear is not surrender.
One of the things about trauma healing is that it happens in layers at a pace that is negotiated with each individual’s Higher Self.
Trauma related karma is stored in body and it takes time for body and neural patterns in brain to readjust.
Expecting drastic results is another form of wanting control about how the process should unfold.

Our dopamine addicted brain may want drastic and dramatic results but nature has Her own rhythm and tempo.
We follow Her rhythm; not the other way around.
Manifesting good things based on love and trusting life is good - Mystress taught me the phrase ‘Goddess has it handled!’
Manifesting things based on fear of future might provide immediate comfort to ego. But check with yourself - are you surrendering your fear of ‘IF that happened’ to Goddess?

Namaste!
Gopi

Hi Gopi-

Thank you so much for your repones!

Some thoughts as I sat with your words:

I just re-skimmed the instructions on this technique and see that variation two addresses this situation- and I will try that in the future when I get another flashforward.

I am not sure if my language was so precise about what I did today- I didn't try to avert the thing I was afraid of- but invoke Goddess et al. to be there with me IF it happened.

Interestingly enough- for the rest of the day- what has been dawning is that this whole situation which I was thinking of as AWFUL is actually turning into a blessing.

You wrote:
>One of the things about trauma healing is that it happens in layers at a pace that is negotiated with each individual’s Higher Self.
Trauma related karma is stored in body and it takes time for body and neural patterns in brain to readjust.
Expecting drastic results is another form of wanting control about how the process should unfold.
Our dopamine addicted brain may want drastic and dramatic results but nature has Her own rhythm and tempo.



Thank you for the reminder- patience is not my forte- and a lot of my life has been me trying to do "get rich quick" (get healed quick) schemes with healing.

It has not worked out so well....

As I dive into this technique... these words are very meaningful as timely

Goddess Bliss n Bless

[Gopi]

Hello Svarah,

“I didn't try to avert the thing I was afraid of- but invoke Goddess et al. to be there with me IF it happened.
Interestingly enough- for the rest of the day- what has been dawning is that this whole situation which I was thinking of as AWFUL is actually turning into a blessing.
Thank you for the reminder- patience is not my forte- and a lot of my life has been me trying to do "get rich quick" (get healed quick) schemes with healing.
It has not worked out so well....
As I dive into this technique... these words are very meaningful as timely.”

Happy to help.
I got help and support from lovely people on Tearoom when I was going through my FST training.
So I am happy to pitch in and help other students.

Owning one’s own power means one has to be mindful about creative fears - whatever you give your energy and attention to will grow.
Free will is Goddess law.
Rational mind and old bodily fear-based habits can sometimes resist or drag feet when it is time for an update.
Keep practicing Retro and continue to share your experiences and insights because it will help with research.

Namaste!
Gopi

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I like to re-read the below quote when I tend to obsessively worry over what IF type of creative fears (I have shared this before on Tearoom).

“The whole world is in a condition of strife, conflict, between the forces of truth and light wanting to manifest and the opposition of all that does not want to change, which represents in the past what is fixed, hardened and refuses to go. Naturally, each individual feels his own difficulties and is faced by the same obstacles.

There is only one way for you. It is a total, complete and unconditional surrender. What I mean by that is the giving up not only of your actions, work, ambitions, but also of all your feelings, in the sense that all that you do, all that you are, is exclusively for the Divine. So, you feel above the surrounding human reactions--not only above them but protected from them by the wall of the Divine's Grace. Once you have no more desires, no more attachments, once you have given up all necessity of receiving a reward from human beings, whoever they are--knowing that the only reward that is worth getting is the one that comes from the Supreme and that never fails--once you give up the attachment to all exterior beings and things, you at once feel in your heart this Presence, this Force, this Grace that is always with you.

And there is no other remedy. It's the only remedy, for everybody without exception. To all those who suffer, it is the same thing that has to be said:all suffering is the sign that the surrender is not total.Then, when you feel in you a "bang", like that, instead of saying, "Oh, this is bad" or "This circumstance is difficult," you say, "My surrender is not perfect." Then it's all right. And then you feel the Grace that helps you and leads you, and you go on. And one day you emerge into that peace that nothing can trouble. You answer to all the contrary forces, the contrary movements, the attacks, the misunderstandings, the bad wills, with the same smile that comes from full confidence in the Divine Grace. And that is the only way out, there is no other.

The Divine Presence is in you. It is in you. You look for it outside; look inside. It is in you. The Presence is there. You want the appreciation of others to get strength--you will never get it. The strength is in you. If you want, you can aspire for what seems to you the supreme goal, supreme light, supreme knowledge, supreme love. But it is in you--otherwise you would never be able to contact it. If you go deep enough inside you, you will find it there, like a flame that is always burning straight up.

And don't believe that it is so difficult to do. It is because the look is always turned outside that you don't feel the Presence. But if, instead of looking outside for support, you concentrate and you pray--inside, to the supreme knowledge--to know at each moment what is to be done, the way to do it, and if you give all you are, all you do in order to acquire perfection, you will feel that the support is there, always guiding, showing the way. And if there is a difficulty, then instead of wanting to fight, you hand it over, hand it over to the supreme wisdom to deal with it--to deal with all the bad wills, all the misunderstandings, all the bad reactions. If you surrender completely, it is no more your concern: it's the concern of the Supreme who takes it up and knows better than anybody else what is to be done. The only way out, only way out.

~ (Collected Works of The Mother, Volume 15, pp. 419-423)”

[Mystress]

Here are the exact words (it came up again with this reply)

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[Mystress]

Gopi Wrote: "Going forward and trying to control the future based on fear is not surrender."

  Well said.
  Essentially, you are releasing karma to free yourself from the shackles of the past, so then putting shackles on your future self to limit their free will makes no sense.

  If you are k awakened, your life is not your own, you belong to Goddess. Surrender the karma of the past to become a transparent vessel, but what happens in the future will be As Goddess Wills... and that affirmation is the most powerful prayer.

  Thanks!

[Svarah]

Gopi Wrote: "Going forward and trying to control the future based on fear is not surrender."

  Well said.
  Essentially, you are releasing karma to free yourself from the shackles of the past, so then putting shackles on your future self to limit their free will makes no sense.

  If you are k awakened, your life is not your own, you belong to Goddess. Surrender the karma of the past to become a transparent vessel, but what happens in the future will be As Goddess Wills... and that affirmation is the most powerful prayer.

  Thanks!

Namaste Mystress.

And thank you for your input.

You wrote:
  Essentially, you are releasing karma to free yourself from the shackles of the past, so then putting shackles on your future self to limit their free will makes no sense.

However I misread it first time as:
  Essentially, you are releasing karma to free yourself from the shackles of the past, so you can have free will in the future!

Literally that is what I read the first time!

You wrote:
  If you are k awakened, your life is not your own, you belong to Goddess. Surrender the karma of the past to become a transparent vessel, but what happens in the future will be As Goddess Wills... and that affirmation is the most powerful prayer.

Beautiful- to become a transparent vessel.

And to be clear- the affirmation is:
the future will be As Goddess Wills?

Thank you and Goddess Bless

[Mystress]

"As Goddess Wills" applied to everything.