Intro and Qs from Newbie Leo

[Leo]

Dear Mystress and other friends,

Very pleased to be here in the community.

A brief introduction first: I was a skeptical and worked as a mainstream psychotherapist for 10 years in China, until 2016, when I was in a transpersonal breathwork workshop (Stan Grof), I experienced some strange phenomenon: the lower back heat, vibration, energy moving, body automatically doing ancient chanting, ritual to earth and yoga movements, mudra, etc. From 2016-2018 I searched about Kundalini and always doubted myself if it was true or hypnotic reaction, but after the first occurrence, my life and world view changed dramatically. I found Mystress’ website in the end of 2018 and resonate deeply with almost all the teachings (read 3 times, the most helpful material to understand my K process I ever found ), and realized how my life events were structured mystically around different topics at each time (from fear/nature/spirit, sex and relationship, to power and will, just like the 1st-3rd chakra), so I join the FST school hope to learn more and also to meet more peers since I feel very lonely because there is no one I could really talk about this around.

Another surprise is Mystress’ unique understanding about BDSM and Kundalini. I have a submissive sexual role since I could remember things, but I always felt weird and ashamed about it and kept it as a secret. But I am always puzzled why and try to understand how am I like this, which is the reason I studied psychology. Now I learned this tendency may have a relationship or help with Kundalini, I really want to learn about it, it may help me accept my sexuality more. I saw in the website, we may cover that in the 2nd or 3rd years of FST course, right?

Some questions:

1. After the awakening, all other symptoms are alright but two of them I mostly concerned: first, there are more and more itchy and agony rashes on my scalp, and I lost hair on these spots, it influenced my image a little while teaching, I went to see doctors and used the Nizoral Dandruff shampoo, but none of them seemed working. Another thing is eyesight change, my left became near-sighted and can not see far clearly, but my right eye can see far away more clearly. I don’t understand and don’t know what I could do to help with the process. Any suggestion?

2. In the early month of awakening, I was so confused, I went to Buddist Lama, Taoist master try to find a path. Also, 3 months before K-awakening, I also received reiki initiation. However, I found no resonance and didn’t practice or use any of them at all. Do I still need to do a removal of all that?

3. I would like to book the individual session with Mystress and Tummo initiation, I wonder if they are both recommended after I finished 20 classes or is it also appropriate for me to book one session to first discuss now? If my questions are better solved in realtime communication , I would love to ask for Mystress’ guidance in the individual session.

4. Is there people from China here in this community? I would also like to make some local K-friends.



Best,
Leo

[Gopi]

Welcome to FST Leo

Students are asked to finish the first 20 lessons (and 45 days of grounding 8 times a day) before requesting a Tummo initiation session.
Grounding regularly helps your body immensely as K fire rises up cleansing your vibrations.
It is prudent to build a strong foundation before raising walls.
Grounding regularly builds a strong foundation for further spiritual growth.

Reg. your eye sight - have you consulted an eye doctor recently?

[Leo]

Thank you for your reply Gopi, I understand the prerequisite of Tummo initiation, and doing the excise everyday now.

I consulted a top eye doctor in Shanghai when my eye sight started to drop, and he asked me to go through some very uncomfortable examination a few times, but could not find any certain problem, so he just ask me to relax more and sleep more, and go check regularly.

[Gopi]

Hello Leo,
Glad to hear that you're practicing grounding regularly.

FST is a body-first path.
This means we learn to listen and trust the body's own wisdom.
Patriarchal spiritual traditions are very distrustful of the human body and its desires.
FST teaches us to honor our body as gift from Goddess.

Mystress has written about diet, supplements, and blessing your food.
http://kundalini-teacher.com/symptoms/stomach.php

Wishing you restful sleep!

[Mystress]

 Hello, Leo.

Grof is very cool, would be amazing to meet him.  You need to stop doing any breathwork now that k is awakened. It is a form of control and resistance that can be psychosis producing. Stomach issues are often a sign of being in resistance.

  The assorted symptoms looks to me like k-fired stress. I do not require students to practice FST exclusively but it is a good idea.
I think the other stuff you are doing is triggering more than you can easily handle and since karma is all bits of fear, it is stressful to the body for it to linger and the effects of that stress, as a spiritual illness can be hard for medicine to track.

  Some slow hatha yoga stretches will help you release the excess tension and get more in touch with your body. I get the impression you spend a lot of time, in your head and the world of your mind is not the world. Be here now.

  There was a student from mainland china, about a decade ago. FST is not really known there and I know some of my sites are inaccessible to the far east. I do not know why, just some Indonesian people reported. A popular Indonesian teacher, was once a student. He dedicated his first book to me and I allowed him to include the grounding translated, so I am known there.

You read all of k teacher, 3x? Thats kind of impressive. Some content on a few lessons is repeated but the energy teaches and it is of a different order entirely, from the public site. Every visit shows new insights.

  A strong desire for submission to a superior fem is well aligned with the surrender aspects of kundalini, quite an enormous benefit.
  FST has been open for 19 years and in all that time I have not written levels 2&3 because of a tendency to add more content to level 1 instead. The other levels might never be written, as fetish folks make up a small percentage of FST members. What happens instead is that some students who are especially gifted, (Shamans and vampires) motivated, and devoted continue to train with me individually after graduation, and a few become qualified as FST Lineage. They hang around to help me out, as Gopi has been doing with you. (thanks, G!)

  Devotion matters because spending years training someone only to have them poof instead of giving back, is a no win for me.

  In the meantime, the FST chats I often share stuff that is not in FST. Some chats, only the lineage show up! So...
Time zones will be awkward for you but try to make it. Sessions, after 20 lessons.