Sava's Journal

[Sava]

I decided to make a copy of my journal here on FST incase anything happens to my physical journal and for suggestions from other member and Mystress. I've only made a few entries in it so far so I'm going to copy them into here to create an online version of my experiences.

[Sava]

7/21/18

A few days ago, Mystress, Gopi and I had a chat, we discovered I'm not a vamp, I just never learned to use my own energy, instead of my parents.  Most people get weaned off during adolescence but I did not. I think it was from the trauma in middle and high school. Used her dump chi practice for the past two days and my energy levels are much better, I am learning to stay in my roots, to plant my feet in the ground and stay connected to the planet. Kids are all little vamps, they need attention. I am going to change this about myself, I am dumping chi energy into the Earth now so Goddess can transform it. I have noticed quite a change in my ability to cope with everyday life since using the practice and it is only day two. I now ask Goddess to let me use my own energy in social situations and throughout my whole day, even when I lay my head down to sleep. Goddess take this energy please do as you will with it.

[Sava]

7/23/18

Arrived in Fairfields last night to stay at Donny and Chloe's place, it is nice here, nice and hot! Managed to use my own energy in our social interactions last night even if there was some anxiety involved. Got a good nights sleep to get used to this place, I needed it. I may go to the skatepark today in Benicia, I think tomorrow will be the day I really explore. Feeling much more grounded this morning taking it easy

[Sava]

7/26/18 Did the grounding ritual this morning and felt my cup filling and emptying very strongly, a good feeling.

[Mystress]

7/21/18

A few days ago, Mystress, Gopi and I had a chat, we discovered I'm not a vamp, I just never learned to use my own energy, instead of my parents.  ...  Used her dump chi practice for the past two days and my energy levels are much better, I am learning to stay in my roots, to plant my feet in the ground and stay connected to the planet.

  Related post, re-read for edits.

[Sava]

Hm? I'm confused?

[Mystress]

I linked the threads together for continuity.

[Sava]

Missed much of the grounding rituals today I managed to get 4 or 5 rituals in today. It was Donovans birthday yesterday and we went out had a few drinks to celebrate. I don't drink often but it was a special occasion and I enjoyed it Donovan found out his wife is pregnant 2 days ago and they told me today. I had a feeling this morning that she may have been pregnant and when they told me at breakfast I said I knew it! Im happy for them but I wonder why I knew? I guess I am kind of intuitive and empathic but I have met people who are much more in tune with those abilities. Maybe it was only because I saw him rubbing her stomach this morning briefly? It felt deeper than that, like a feeling that I just knew somehow, a bit like precognition. Ive noticed this same feeling before in other occurrences. It is a good reminder of the interconnectedness of us all, separation is only an illusion that can be surpassed. I remember reading a buddhist text on the three separate Jhanas trances states? During one of them the yogi experiences a phenomena where his consciousness merges with the whole universe. I have not experienced that level of unity with self that I am certain but I aspire to experience these trance states of divine unity in the future. I am constantly reminded of how Mystress' lessons are relevant to my mundane life, the trance states remind me of the sieve being thrown into the ocean, where Goddess flows through it eternally without restriction. Very sublime. I have noticed that when I begin to express myself there is a small voice that says something like "Do it this way and they will accept/adorn you" and this is anxiety speaking. The need to get support and approval. I now ask Goddess to let me express myself without these limiting conditions. Goddess please take my worries, they are yours to transform, I know you love me unconditionally, thank you.
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[Sava]

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[Sava]

Okay well that didn't work... I'll have to learn how to do this correctly tomorrow

[Sava]

I don’t know why I’m moved to say I’m sorry? I feel like I wasn’t completely grounded when I posted here and am embarrassed about it and I feel like the quality of my journal post reflects my not so grounded state, next time I write in my journal and copy it to this Temple I will be grounded. I missed many of the rituals today but I will make sure to do more tomorrow a nice long one in the morning too, sets the tone for the day.

[Sava]

Hello, just received some good news from Mystress and a friend of mine here had confirmed it as well, I woke up, I spent quite a bit of time questioning what was really going on with me, I kept stumbling upon all this new information and wondering what it all really meant, doubting myself and others but I feel like I got some closure. It is nice to get some closure.

Anyways, here is a patch I got custom made to put on my ski jacket for this winter, I wanted to share it with you all. It is a yoga poster I found online with the seven main chakras, I found a fake Sanskrit font as well and added "kundalini" to the bottom, I'm really happy with how it turned out. The idea behind the patch came from a thought, "Maybe I can attract some like minded individuals with a Kundalini patch." I had someone comment on the henley I bought from the FST store and got a few comments on it, it is always nice to share some opinions. Thanks for looking.

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[Sava]

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I can't figure out how to post an image properly on this form, however, here is a link to an image of the patch which was supposed to be a part of the post above this one.

[Mystress]

Most FST students are motivated to sign up, at least partly  because of feeling my energy. Only awakened people can feel kundalini shakti, so most FST students are already awakened before registering.

[Sava]

Yeah I definitely know what it feels like now, felt it on my friend and myself as well.

[Sava]

The Snake Den

Okay well last night a friend and I smoked a bit of marijuana here in Colorado which is perfectly legal, I don't usually smoke too often but since I've been here and since I don't start work till the 15th I have had some free time to explore with the plant. I have noticed that if I smoke before bed I get some interesting closed eye visuals, yes, marijuana is classified as a hallucinogen so this is perfectly normal. However, it seemed like it was happening a lot and last night and it felt like it was amplifying my Kundalini symptoms, I can't be sure if last nights symptoms were pure Kundalini related or pure marijuana related so I would like to think it was a combination of the two.

It was around 12 am when I decided to lay down and sleep and the first phenomena that started occurring was it felt like my whole body had become a large snake with many heads protruding from my hands, feet and face. My body was in an exalted state I found myself on my back with this energy coursing through me and I was trying to surrender to it as much as possible. Then it felt like a single black snake was pushing through my main chakras along the central channel, it didn't seem to have much trouble getting through the root, then I started feeling my desires for the material world and accepting them as it pushed through the sex chakra, then when it reached the power chakra it bit this yellow orb which then started leaking this yellow fluid throughout the area, this lasted quite some time as I sit and try to surrender, it was quite blissful. I think the yellow liquid leaking out of my body was the most vibrant hallucination I experienced last night it felt very peaceful as I became aware of this chakras function in the world. Then it felt like my heart chakra was expanding.

I then became aware of Shiva and Shakti and in my mind I viewed Shiva as chi, a strong force that cuts through things like diamonds, very powerful force. I viewed Shakti as Kundalini energy from the Earth that demanded a deep respect and surrender. Shiva was blue and Shakti was different shades of purple. Then I remembered grounding so I did the visualization and it was very powerful.

Then I think I reached a plateau. I have done quite a bit of research on Kundalini even before FST and found an awakened man on youtube who shared some interesting knowledge. He described his own kundalini process as different objects "cleaning" his chi channels, he says there is a lot of "cold chi" in his body that kundalini clears out for him and she uses all different types of tools to do so like "christmas garlans" "turbo squids" all in effort to describe his chi being transformed or channels opening. I had a similar experience in some areas of my face and neck last night where it felt like the snakes were biting very specific areas to release tension, it attacked a certain area of my face for awhile and also some area in my third eye was feeling pressure. I cannot be sure that these are chi channels, nadis, meridians or whatever you would like to call them being opened up but from my knowledge it could have been.

It almost felt like a tester for what is to come as I continue down my path, kind of like Shakti is testing my surrender because I know as this process continues I will have experiences that make this night seem very low level on the transformation process.

It is good to understand surrender and trust in the beginning so things can go smoothly as the process gains speed.

I also felt like some of my karma was being cleared through my crown chakra and out of my body as I deliberately surrendered unsettling thoughts and fear so that Kundalini can move more freely.

I know these symptoms are benign but this is what my night consisted of and thought I would share.

[Sava]

Awakened Sex & Energy

Okay so I want to start this post by saying that I have felt Kundalini, or awakened energy, from others in the past. I met a man named Andrew in Yosemite that was a awake and we hung out quite a bit, he was a bit older than me, 32, So I believe he has more experiential knowledge when it comes to the awakening process. However, he was not fully enlightened, in my opinion, he was far from a state like that. It was a bit tough to find good friends out there but I managed to find him and another good friend from Scotland so I am content, thank you Goddess.

So Andrew has seizures, completely out of his control obviously, unfortunately, they would even happen at work. He was a night cleaner for one of the kitchens in Yosemite, he normally gets off work around 1 am but a seizure prevented him from completing his shift and a co worker had to transport him home safely. I was hanging out with his girlfriend waiting for him to get off work when suddenly he busts in the door obviously in pain. His presence really jolted me out of my relaxed state, his girlfriend and I we're talking for a few hours and she really brought me inside of my body. I was feeling my body very deeply while I was around her, we were even playing with our bodies together, performing some relaxing reflexology. Very peaceful. Then Andrew comes in and everyone seems to leave their body a bit, he begins to talk about some esoteric information which further brings his girlfriend and I out of our relaxed state. I feel energy in my spine very quickly at the top of my spine and I looked at Andrew and said "Oh my god, I felt that!" he said "Yes it was like a swirly snake going up" or something along those lines... my energy went way up after this. His girlfriend even said "How am I supposed to go to sleep now this conversation is so stimulating"

That was the first time I felt awakened energy from another in person and was able to identify it and even confirm with Andrew that in fact we did experience the same thing. This event was not very significant but I think a woman who I was sexually involved with for a week or so may have felt something similar to this feeling while we were together.

I met this woman, CJ, through a couple I have known for a long time who live in Denver, this couple, Evan and Jasmine, agreed to let me stay on their couch for a week so we could catch up before I started work in Keystone. I met CJ with them at a Alex Grey ball, we didn't really get to know each other until after. We all hangout on the couch, CJ, Evan, Jas and I till around 5 in the morning having a blast. It was quite obvious that CJ and I were really hitting it off, by the end of the night I found her wrapped in my arms, I let her go so she could catch a taxi back to her home. It was a great night.
two nights later CJ comes over again, wow she is gorgeous, we hangout and talk and she ends up driving me back to her place about 30 minutes away so I can spend the night. We make love. She is great, a mature 28 year old woman, I'm 22, I tell her I'm sick of all these little girls and Im happy to be around her instead. We laugh.

Anyways, I begin sleeping at her place instead, we spend a few days together getting close, spending a lot of time around each other. She says "Oh my gosh I like you so much it makes me nervous..."

It's hard for me to be in a relationship with someone so personally and not let them know what I am dealing with on a spiritual level, I tell her I am awakened. After we have sex I tell her that "having sex with me can cause you to wake up, just a warning" because I noticed that she said "wow I just felt energy in my spine" I felt her feel it as well, we were making love and when I exhaled on her sternum she felt energy rush up her spine. I asked her to explain it and she said it was hot and moving upwards.

So I haven't been the best at being able to tell when someone is awakened or not, I try to trust my intuition, sometimes I can feel shakti from others and I know they are awake, I don't remember feeling shakti from her presence. I do not think CJ is awake but she felt energy in her spine from me so maybe she is? Maybe this instance woke her up? I honestly don't know...

I told her that warning because not everyone is seeking enlightenment like I am and I am aware of that, I even can see how a path similar to mine may scare someone or make her "nervous" about being around me and my intense emotions. I guess I am just trying to come to terms with waking other people up, from my perspective it is more likely to happen in a sexual relationship, my other friends don't feel spine energy just from being around me. I did warn her though so I feel content.

Thank you Goddess, please speak through me.

[Mystress]

 I gave up granting shaktipat to awaken kundalini, around 2006. I retired from my roleplay work on 1996 when I realized my clients were becoming awakened. So  so what makes you feel you are qualified to know when someone is ready to awaken and to be God-dess for them like that?

  If you awaken someone's kundalini, you are being Goddess for them and their karma will flow to you for about a decade. If they go into psychosis or resistance, you will get that too. Will you be able to help someone in that condition? People all over the world, having a difficult awakening, think it is a curse. You are ok because you warned her you are awakened? That is about as useful as a fortune cookie for explaining all what she might have to go through including the loss of everything. That is not consent!

  I used to know some people who would grant shaktipat to anyone, and I say "used to" because they are dead now.  The sort of ego that wants to do that hero trip, is connected to a body that is not nearly transparent enough to handle the incoming karma without becoming toxic and breaking down. I see kids on youtube, newly awakened offering shaktipat to anyone and wonder if they will make it to their 40s.

  Has it occurred to you, that sometimes you cannot tell if someone is awakened because its none of your business?

  Direct your sexual energy toward your Divine Beloved.

[Sava]

felt the whack right when i opened the forum, zen canes no fun, you are right, sometimes we need whacks, i guess finding other awakened people is a good thing as well, at least share some common grounds. i will not wake people up like that anymore, i feel like to an extent granting shaktipat is a new term for me. I never really thought of granting it in that way, I always felt like it was more of a presence, or thought based, like having to grant something into existence, to change a substance to transform. Isn't that what tantra is? Transformation. Granting shaktipat seems foreign to me in other ways, I haven't even tried to grant it, I'm starting to notice a lot of things happen "subconsciously" but they are part of me as well.
I knew she wasn't awakened
I did ask for an awakening so you are right not everyone is, and I am aware of the pain it may cause.
I guess I will just have to be extra careful who I share energy with, some people are not ready for higher energies, understanding consent is essential.
I wouldn't want to commit astral rape, I stop it if it ever happens, automatically,
meeting my db would be great, i feel like goddess manifests more for me in some ways.
Ive been thinking about my body lately, and the diamond body and trying to attain it.
i feel far from that state.
i haven't even cleared my own karma,

[Gopi]

Sex before, during, and after K awakening are very different physically and emotionally.

Surrender is the big secret in all Tantra traditions. Before K awakening, our sexual desires and behaviors are primarily driven by ego - both lust and love. During K awakening, Goddess uses our desires and fears to show us what needs to be surrendered. Deep seated inhibitions, judgements, and unresolved pain bubbles up so that we can see our own fears and surrender them. After K awakening is actually a misnomer because K uncoils, unfolds, and evolves 'us' endlessly. When you're clear of your own karmic stuff through surrender to Goddess, then the life-long lesson of deepening your surrender and serving Her will continues - Thy will be done. In that state of surrender, sex (masturbation and with partner) is not driven by your own ego projections and desires but is an act of celebrating your amazing body that Goddess has given and sharing erotic joy with your partner. It is not need based sex but an overflowing of your own joy that is not dependent on the other person.

"That was the first time I felt awakened energy from another in person and was able to identify it and even confirm with Andrew that in fact we did experience the same thing"

Everything in Goddess' creation is unique. Every thought. Every dream. Every tiny little wave in the ocean. Language allows us to have shared understanding about common things but I would not characterize any two people's K experience to be the same thing. K resides in All that Is.

"I try to trust my intuition, sometimes I can feel shakti from others and I know they are awake"
Intuition can be misleading when you're overloaded with your own karma junk. Intuition can be led by ego based fears and desires if you're not in surrender. Goddess speaks through the body. When you're grounded, discernment can guide you if you listen. Feeling shakti from others does not automatically mean they are awake. Everyone is on their own journey and our paths cross. We all learn from and share with each other.

"I guess I am just trying to come to terms with waking other people up"
Mystress has already addressed this. 'I am waking other people' is 'doer' ego.

"I always felt like it was more of a presence, or thought based, like having to grant something into existence, to change a substance to transform. Isn't that what tantra is? Transformation."


Language translations can be tricky. Tantra is more akin to transmutation than transformation. If you want you can think about transformation as a necessary first step to tantric transmutation. Doing exercise, meditating, eating healthy, sleeping well, laughing with friends, etc... are all transformations you can make to improve your own life in a healthy manner. When you're in surrender and grounded, you physical, emotional, and spiritual self transmutes - becomes something else. There is no 'I' doing things but simply 'Thy will be done'. For instance, during K awakening, people experience various abilities like heightened empathy, clairvoyance, etc.. called 'siddhis'. Experiencing siddhis is a transformative because it challenges and changes your perception of the world and yourself. You can also see a lot of people who spend their entire lives convincing themselves and others that they are special because they have experienced some siddhis. Real tantra is not about attainment of siddhis. Real transmutation happens when you surrender everything so that She can make you as She sees fit for her service.

"Ive been thinking about my body lately"
Nice. Get back into your own body and care for it well. Turn your attention inwards towards your own growth and surrender. The best help we can offer to the universe is to be our authentic self as Goddess wills. Namaste!
Happy holidays!!

[Sava]

Thank you Gopi, you are right, sex is different after awakening. After Mystress whacked me and said to direct my sexual energy towards my DB, I met her that night. We made love. It reminded me of Yab Yum's Union with Self. It was a great experience, I can't wait to get to know her better, my third eye is not very open compared to some friends I know, I'm waiting for later in this course when we deliberately open it, then I believe my connection with my DB will become more stable. Happy Holidays to you too.

[WhimsicalZephyr]

You are ok because you warned her you are awakened? That is about as useful as a fortune cookie for explaining all what she might have to go through including the loss of everything. That is not consent!

Direct your sexual energy toward your Divine Beloved.

I find myself in a similar situation to sava. I recently started dating a lovely submissive man. Before we played, I warned him that play and sex with an awakened person can cause spiritual awakening. He wanted to know more about awakening, so I directed him to k-teacher and had him read the article on kundalini awakening. He did, but I'm not sure how much of it he understood.

Since then we've played several times and had sex, though not intercourse. I feel like I need to revisit this topic with him and emphasize the following words of Mystress:

Kundalini is considered the most powerful and potentially dangerous force in the universe. It's awakening can appear as madness, with visions, uncontrollable physical sensations and extravagant psychic phenomena.

It isn't something to be pushed, as premature awakening can be pure nightmare to a being that is not yet ready to handle the intense energies. Kundalini seeks to purify the soul, and resolve lifetimes of Karma in one lifetime.

This can be extremely traumatic, if you have not already done considerable work to prepare for the experience.

I plan to also link him to kundalini signs and symptoms on the k-gateway site. Is there anything else I should be doing or telling him? I certainly don't want to wake someone up who isn't ready, or who isn't aware of what it means to be kundalini awakened. I'm ok with taking on some karma from him when we play but I certainly don't feel up to being Goddess for him! How would you go about having that conversation?

Thanks.

WZ

[Sava]

Grounding with Universal Energy

So I have been working on grounding practically everyday now for the last 6 months or so and it has taken on some interesting transformations throughout this time period. Sometimes when I go to sleep I experience visions, I wouldn't call them dreams because I am lucid when they happen and it is more like I am being shown something by the universe to help me grow and transmute. A few nights ago I had one of these visions as I lay my head down to sleep.

It began with the light coming down through my crown which I envisioned as a bright thousand petaled lotus, then into my third eye, purple, my throat had some trouble letting light in so I had to clear my throat and jolt my body to allow energy to pass through, then my heart then my power chakra, sex chakra and root and down to the center of the Earth.

It began to rise up from the Earths kundalini chakra. I became aware that the sun and root chakras do not have any blockages in them so the energy I was receiving was pure and cleaning my channels. This energy rose up from the Earth and started ascending through all of my chakras. Now I can see myself as a very large naked being with vivid and defined features. I am sitting in full lotus position on the top of the Earth with my aura and the energy is making macrocosmic orbits from the Earth chakra to the Sun Chakra. Very powerful.

My divine beloved takes on a new form to greet me in this space, I can feel the energy coursing through me very strongly. She seems more stern this time, with a serious face and more defined features but still glowing in her radiant purple lights. She seems more akin to a teacher rather than a lover on this occasion. She seems strong with defined muscles and a very precise presence, she knows that she wants.

Then something more interesting happened, I thought well If I'm connecting with the Sun and Earth why not connect with the moon as well? I have read a small amount on "drawing down the moon" an ancient ritual to ask the moon Goddess to come into you and surrender to her power. The moon Goddess came down, a gray being with craters in her skin, beautiful but wrathful. She chokes me and energy pushes out of my crown as the result, I think she cleared some karma for me, very wrathful energy but not invasive. Im starting to realize that this wrathful energy that I am being exposed to is a lesson on the shadow, to learn to stay detached and not make projections about this or that. If I were to look at her and be scared that she was choking me then I would be projecting my own fears, everything is light anyway... so no need to label things good or bad, just acceptance.

This energy kept circulating for quite some time, I would say this was maybe a 3 hour ordeal. It gave me energy. It was very vivid and provided me with lots of energy. I tried to experiment with creating a microcosmic orbit with this energy and it felt less powerful so I just kept doing the macrocosmic orbit. I have not read much on the difference between these two orbits so Im not sure if I was doing it correctly, I will do some more research later, I have some training to do for work soon. I eventually descended back down in my body and went to sleep.
Thank you Goddess for these visions.

[WhimsicalZephyr]

Direct your sexual energy toward your Divine Beloved.

I find myself in a similar situation to sava. I recently started dating a lovely submissive man. Before we played, I warned him that play and sex with an awakened person can cause spiritual awakening. He wanted to know more about awakening, so I directed him to k-teacher and had him read the article on kundalini awakening. He did, but I'm not sure how much of it he understood.

Since then we've played several times and had sex, though not intercourse. I feel like I need to revisit this topic with him and emphasize the following words of Mystress:

I plan to also link him to kundalini signs and symptoms on the k-gateway site. Is there anything else I should be doing or telling him? I certainly don't want to wake someone up who isn't ready, or who isn't aware of what it means to be kundalini awakened. I'm ok with taking on some karma from him when we play but I certainly don't feel up to being Goddess for him! How would you go about having that conversation?

Well, it's a moot point now. I had the email written about k-awakening to send him, but the guy I was dating decided that an exclusive 5-hour distance relationship wasn't for him. I'm sad and disappointed but not heartbroken. I was wondering why I had a nagging feeling of worry and anxiety in the pit of my stomach all afternoon, no matter how often I grounded and surrendered. I guess it's back to just me and DB. DB has been serenading me with one of my favorite bands today, Queen. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g_1omWwSrFU

[Sava]

Himono the Faery

So last night something very interesting happened... I met a faerie named Himono. It started out as me banishing ghosts from my space, sending them into the light to never return to my space, moving past my fear of them and accepting them as a part of my process here. I even had to love it a bit to convince it to leave, which I was okay with, I watched it transform a bit from "scary" to "happy" when I loved it. It burned in the light. I also envisioned my house spell, in particular, the karmic cleaning mechanism installed into it. I envision my house spell quite frequently but I notice an extra vividness in the karmic clearing aspect of it this night and a general more clear third eye view than when I normally envision it. Then a faerie appears.

At first I was apprehensive because I sent one into the light before and it never returned, I figured it was not a worthy guide and moved on, so I had a feeling this one might be the same. This one feels kind of playful. The last one felt very "dark". I sent the new faery, into the light, it seems kind of mad or maybe wondering why I was doing this? He didn't look like he wanted to go so I gave clear instructions, more so than the last one I sent, "I am sending you to test you... [I swallow my pride of not needing a guide] I am sending you to test you as a potential guide." Now I was able to send he/she into the light. He came back. I sent again. He came back. I sent him many times. He did not seem like he cared at all, he even came back joyful the last couple of times.

My guards begin to fall. I ask what is your name? I receive impressionistic sounds before I can clearly make out 'Himono'. I am delighted. His sized changed, he shrunk, or rather he took 0n real form with precise dimensions in my space, he became clearer. Pale blue glowing skin, he looks like he could be a cold creature but rather okay with his internal temperature, all black cape with a V-neck cut transcribed in it, Tattered wings but sturdy, it is more like they have character from life rather then them being tattered because he is strong, his wings are strong, Preying mantis looking arms and legs, kind of spiky, kind of gnarly face, almost snarly and "dark" but also filled with lots of "light" and last but not least, jagged teeth!

He is now buzzing around. I wonder why are you attracted here Himono? I am starting to feel the bliss very strongly. Then I remembered my many succulents and how I've been feeding them, giving them to the light by my window and offering them as homes to faeries.

Himono and I share some precious moments together.
He is filled with a raw playfulness that is not human but utterly beautiful.
I trust him.
A worthy guide indeed.
I offer him my succulents as a home.
He flies over to greet my plants by the window.

I start to think of how I can benefit from Himono? I read somewhere that faeries can teach humans interesting magic and wonder if Himono can teach me some. I surrender my expectations of how our relationship will unfold and my egotistical desire of wanting to learn magic from a faery and instead accept whatever may come. Putting my ego aside.

I also offer him my karma to snack on and the karma that happens around my space, I offer him to follow me throughout the day to snack if he wishes. I wasn't too sure how to define our relationship so I was just drawing on my past experiences of what I have read about faeries to give this encounter some structure.
It feels like this vision is coming to an end.
I now leave the visionary state and enter into the sleep state.
When I woke up I put some honey in a bowl as an offering to him. Thank you Himono for this experience. Thank you Goddess for these visions and visitors.