Rambling about things..

[Sean]

Hello,

Pretty nervous here. But thought I'd toss some things out...

When I was in the hospital before, mental ward, hurrah for me.... Anyways I had this idea. I'm not sure what it could be used for, but it was a plan for people. Like me. Even though I didnt know what I was then. I just remembered this this morning.

You have a sort of hospital. And there are 3 sections to it. First is for the new arrivals. Confused and hurt. They want to break things and themselves. Dont understand. They learn to stop the hurting on whatever level it is on. Second section you can go to when you are ready too. This is the section that moves beyond knowing that all you do is hurt and that there are other things you can do. And after a bit you learn new things that help you move ahead to the 3rd stage. Once again when you feel ready. Say goodbye to everyone in 2nd and go learn the most advanced things and then you are good to go on your own again in the world because you already have all the teaching and knowledge of how to live again inside and you can get to it now.

Now these sections must be kept separate. Because people at the first level see how the 3rd or 2nd feels all the time. They will get mad because they cannot feel like this yet no matter what they do. The people at the higher levels should not be with the lower's because its easy to forget what it used to be like. And will most likely end up hurting them by telling them something they shouldn't.

Basic plan anyways.

Its hard being on the low level. When I was over there on the K-list. Some of those people that have been doing this for a long time and have this all worked out they would say things that were pretty much,

"Silly Sean, look at you and what you say about people. Dont you know we are all happy and one? We are all happy and nice, why can't you be too?"

or

"Why dont you just stop complaining about things..."

The only thing I can say is either they are enlightened and still lacking. Or they have just forgotten how hard it is at the bottom.

This drove me right to the edge. And to here... Which is much better for me. The right place. Hurrah!

So Percyval, I blew up when I saw that reply. And that was why. I thought your intention was to let me know again how I should be happy with everything right now. Something that I was running from before like the plague. I tried to let it go, but then did it as nice as I could. Thanks for explaining your intentions. Its all ok now.

It would be so great to have a hospital for us. Where we could go to or get sent to learn and rest and learn and grow? Imagine what the world would be like if we had lots and lots of people all getting out into the world with full knowledge of what they are? The exposure that could happen? The bend that would happen in this world?

I liked the X-Men movie because they had an estate where they would train people with super powers. It was great! I saw that and yelled, I want that! Its not all that different than what I've been learning. Super powers. But ours are real. But it was so cool. BTW Wolverine was the only one worth anything it seems.

I wonder what job oportunities are out there for us? When we get more exposure? It will be a big boost when people stop refering to our things as psychic too....

Deep sea diving company looking for empath to monitor divers in North Atlantic.

Nasa now hiring developed empaths for mission to mars..

Anything really.. Not for war though. I used to want to join the CIA because I know I could tell right away if somone was a spy or not... But thats not all that fun really... And its already been tried for wartime ops. The guy actually wrote a whole manual on it. Tons of research. But later gave it all up. He said that this really cant be used for this anyways hehe. I can just see the battle plan.

"Corporal! Whats our best plan of action?" Chewing on a cigar.

"Sir! We can call in airstrikes in on me over on that hill there, we can also flank around us and attack myself from that ridge. We will shoot all of myself together sir! Sir! Alpha Co. Empath reports they are victorious over themselves! A success sir!"

Chew's cigar around smiling, "Thats what I like to hear damnit!"

I'm really looking forward to all these things. A lot better than sitting by myself. Being afraid to tell people who I am. One day I'm going to be doing something big and important and that is going to reqire all my senses and then more. And be hired for it. And people will say, how do you do that? Are you one of those empaths? And I'll say,

"Your damn right I am"

.....cough......

Ok, I'll probably say,
"Ohh what a pretty dress!"
or
"Wow, your healthy! Stand over here."
or
"Or, ever been on a date with a real empath?"

I wonder if the girls will like that? LOL

Woooo!

Ok, later...

I feel better again. Thanks.

Sean

[Percyval]

:  So Percyval, I blew up when I saw that reply. And that was why. I thought your intention was to let me know again how I should be happy with everything right now. Something that I was running from before like the plague. I tried to let it go, but then did it as nice as I could. Thanks for explaining your intentions. Its all ok now.

hello Sean,

i'm glad you feel that things are ok between us... i don't think anyone is trying to tell you that you should be happy... people have been trying to tell you something else... something that is obvious to some wise people who love you... but you are running from it like the plague...

your previous post asking for people to cut you some slack (because you are in transition and so sensitive) is like calling calling out a "safeword"... that is a word (commonly used in BDSM play) that is used to tell people you are inteacting with that you do not consent to continuing with what's been going on... you have safe-worded me, so now i feel i must refrain from trying to tell you what you have not yet heard...

if i ddn't care about you, i would just let the matter drop and not write this message... but you safeworded me, so i must let it drop... still, i am sending this message to explain to you that i care... and also that i have something to teach you, that may not be easy for you to hear...

so, i will not go further with this unless/until such time as you may ask me to continue... it may not be easy for you or for me... but i will be there should you ever ask me to help you learn something important about yourself... that is because i like you, and care about you...

warmly,

percyval

[Mystress]

:  Hello,

:
:  Pretty nervous here. But thought I'd toss some things out...

Why are you nervous? What is the fear?

:  When I was in the hospital before, mental ward, hurrah for me.... Anyways I had this idea. I'm not sure what it could be used for, but it was a plan for people. Like me. Even though I didnt know what I was then. I just remembered this this morning.

:
:  You have a sort of hospital. And there are 3 sections to it. First is for the new arrivals.

A three degree system to a Mystery School. What you describe is something I have wanted to create, for many years. Not a hospital though, because empaths are not sick. A school/retreat center.  

:  Now these sections must be kept separate. Because people at the first level see how the 3rd or 2nd feels all the time. They will get mad because they cannot feel like this yet no matter what they do. The people at the higher levels should not be with the lower's because its easy to forget what it used to be like. And will most likely end up hurting them by telling them something they shouldn't.

Something that the people in the lower level judge that they shouldn't?

  So then Sean, should I give up teaching novices, so that I never have to tell people painful things that they do not want to hear?
 Sometimes the surgery is painful.. no help for that, but the patient thrives afterwards.  

:  Its hard being on the low level. When I was over there on the K-list. Some of those people that have been doing this for a long time and have this all worked out they would say things that were pretty much,

: "Silly Sean, look at you and what you say about people. Dont you know we are all happy and one? We are all happy and nice, why can't you be too?"

: or

: "Why dont you just stop complaining about things..."

:  The only thing I can say is either they are enlightened and still lacking. Or they have just forgotten how hard it is at the bottom.

Heh heh heh. No, we never forget. However, we do learn that the pain is self inflicted, it comes of resistance, and buying into the illusion serves no one.

 Sean, they were telling you that if you do not want to be miserable, you have a choice to stop projecting misery, focusing on misery, and giving your energy of creation/attention to a belief of misery and helplessness. THOU ART GOD. That is what I have been telling you too, and you know that it works.

 They were giving you your power back, but you did not want your power back, you wanted people to respect your choice of victimhood and misery, pat you on the back and agree with you... because you were conviced that you were helpless, and did not want to hear information otherwise, even though you kept asking for the exit.

You do not respect the choice of misery in other people, you wish they would be happy around you so you do not get spewed by their stuff... but it is a stuck fish loop. If you want happiness, choose happiness, persistently no matter what, and look supsiciously at your own illusions of victimhood, every time they occur. Look within, at your own choice to percieve.

BTW: What percyval will probably never tell you, because he is not one to complain... is that he is chronically ill with a dis-ease that gives him constant pain, and reduces his mobility to the point where he lives in a lounge chair and rarely leaves his home. Even the small effort to type a post to you in this tea room, is considerable.

Percyval is a huge inspiration to me, I doubt that I would be able to display his grace and compassion if our circumstances were reversed. I would probaly turn into a horrible cow nobody wants to know!
Yet at the same time, he is an amazing manifestation of the truth of what I teach. Happiness comes from within. It does not depend on external circumstances.
I love you, jP.

 I love you too, Sean. When you set up your defenses to try to keep the bad empathy out, you also anaestetised your ability to feel the good stuff. You are loved here, you are loved on K-list, but you cannot feel it. Why not let it in?

:
:  This drove me right to the edge. And to here... Which is much better for me. The right place. Hurrah!

It drove you to where you need to be... it served you. It was love.

:  I liked the X-Men movie because they had an estate where they would train people with super powers. It was great! I saw that and yelled, I want that!

Me too!! LOL!! Professor Mystresss with Cerebro the vidcam, calling all the mutants to join the K-men! ROTFLOL!! And here we are!

>Its not all that different than what I've been learning. Super powers. But ours are real. But it was so cool. BTW Wolverine was the only one worth anything it seems.

That is because he is the only Canadian X-man.. LOL!!

 Blessings...

:  I feel better again. Thanks.

:
:  Sean
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[Percyval]

well, Sean... i guess you don't need to ask me, because Mystress already said what i would've said, only more simply and eloquently than i could have...

thank you, Mystress... you saved me from a task that i wasn't looking forward to, as i have not developed the same degree of repoire and trust with Sean that you have...

Sean, it hurts to have point some of these difficult things out to folks who hurt when they hear them... but people who love you will do it anyway, just because they care enough to do it...

lovingly,

percyval

[Mystress]

  Yep.. and if they complain that it hurts and blame you for speaking, then it gets even harder to reach out with tough love compassion.

Nobody hurts you, Sean. Nobody can hurt you. You do it to yourself, by your choices to percieve.

The love is there, but you don't see it, you are too busy looking for reasons to take offense, and react from fear and ego. Then you spew blame at other people, and you give your power away. Make them be God for you, by making them responsible for what you feel. Everytime you do that, you are saying to Goddess than you like the illusion of suffering and victimhood better than being happy.

  Maybe it is time you asked yourself, what you are getting out of that choice?

 When I read percyval's response to your Mozart post, I felt the warm loving hug that it really was. That post you wrote about Mozart was beautiful in your joy in the music, and unfortunate in that your ego felt it needed to put you on a pedestal by stepping on other people's heads. Goddess gave you a little insight into how the nature of great art is in the transparency of the artist to their Muse... (which everybody knows, really) and your ego went to work on that simple thread, wove it into a macrame project about your specialness and Mozarts specialness, and the stupidity of everybody else.
 Mozart was a child prodigy, and talented... but aside from his talent, he was a drinking, imature womanizing liar who dislayed few, if any spiritual qualities. All the enlightement you project onto him, is really about you.  

 The joy in the music comes from Goddess. All the stuff you surrounded it with tho, all the judgments about the inferiority of other music and projections of how most people are too stupid to see the genius... that was all a big smelly load of ego crap. It is giving energy to that stuff, that makes the misery you say you want out of.

 It hurts, to see someone you love suffering. We care about you, we have sympathy with your suffering, and we also know that you are the only one who can change that. Free Will is Goddess Law. The best we can do, is offer some insights into how you create the suffering, so you can see it and make a different choice.

I understand, that for many years when you were cut off from source, your only way of sustaining yourself was to put yourself on a "specialness" pedestal by looking down on everyone.

 You were doing the best you could, at the time... EVERYONE ALWAYS IS!

 Now that you do have access to source, you have to break that old ego feeding habit. No good building up your ego with negative judgments and projections, when it is ego that cut you off from source in the first place. Of course, it is an old habit and not likely to change overnight. No problem, we are patient.

 We are trying to support you by reflecting the ego stuff back. It is love, Sean. We love you. Let the love in.

We know you are special, just for yourself. Not for what you know or what you can do. We know you are sensitive.. we are all sensitive. We are gentle with you... even though you are really not very gentle with yourself... or other people, sometimes. You are learning, and it is OK!
  Blessings!

: Sean, it hurts to have point some of these difficult things out to folks who hurt when they hear them... but people who love you will do it anyway, just because they care enough to do it...

: lovingly,

: percyval

[Sean]

Hello Mystress,

I tried to reply to all of this but its too much for me right now. I've really opened up a LOT and things are pretty overwhelming for me. Let go of a lot of that armoring. I cant even listen to any music that is very emotional. I'm just so sensitive to everything now. Its been going on since I came awake about my higher self..

So thanks for writing all of this for me. And saying those nice things about me. This opened up even more things about me. But its much too open now. So many things are visable. I need to just hang out a bit and not think so much about this advanced stuff. I'm very nervous about all of this. Its a lot.

So I'll have to talk about all of this when I can sometime later. Just wanted to let you know that I read it and I giggled. I dont get it all yet. But I giggled, thanks.

If I post anything else for a while, its not my intention of putting my ideas on anyone. Its about me saying.
"Lets talk about nice things for a bit."

Thanks

Sean

[Mystress]

 Hi Sean:

  I totally understand. There is a lot of stuff breaking loose and blowing away, and you just need to be kind to yourself and be around gentle people. Be choosy about what you give your attention to. Let Goddess handle it.

  It is funny, you know... I always thought enlightenment would make me bulletproof, invulnerable to the tides of the world. Instead is has made me more sensitive. I feel like a canary in a coal mine some days, and the only cure is to keep my nose in my navel and let it all go by.  
I listen to the birds and keep the TV turned off. I give my attention to soft and beautiful things that are easy to love. I remind myself that the willingness to be vulnerable, is the true strength... but that Goddess has no need to test us.  
   Blessings...
:
:  Hello Mystress,

:
:  I tried to reply to all of this but its too much for me right now. I've really opened up a LOT and things are pretty overwhelming for me. Let go of a lot of that armoring. I cant even listen to any music that is very emotional. I'm just so sensitive to everything now. Its been going on since I came awake about my higher self..

:  So thanks for writing all of this for me. And saying those nice things about me. This opened up even more things about me. But its much too open now. So many things are visable. I need to just hang out a bit and not think so much about this advanced stuff. I'm very nervous about all of this. Its a lot.

:
:  So I'll have to talk about all of this when I can sometime later. Just wanted to let you know that I read it and I giggled. I dont get it all yet. But I giggled, thanks.

:  If I post anything else for a while, its not my intention of putting my ideas on anyone. Its about me saying.
: "Lets talk about nice things for a bit."

:  Thanks

:
:  Sean