Hello,

Have to let some of this out here. Just gotta flow this out. Don't judge please.

I've been learning about all of the things that have been keeping me from being here on this planet. Finally. And I've been doing things that are at the edge of my brains understanding. I wish I could move it over sometimes.

I've seen what I think are some sort of fairy sprites. 3 of them so far. One gave me a wand. One was only interested in looking around me. The last one wanted to show me how to use the wand...

A friend gave me a rock, my eyes closed, and said, "feel this" and I knew it was from outer space, way out... And I saw the planet it was from. It was its core. A part of it. I knew I could know more about this planet, but I got scared and went out. He later told me the name of the planet and how the metiorite got here.... I was pretty proud of myself. Never did that before.

There is this woman who calls me a different name that has showed up in uh.. outer places... and knows me? Her name is Elienia...Elana... Something like this.. She comes to me. I don't go anywhere. She is very close to me... I dunno...

There was a voice in me that said, "I am the master of the 4th Ray" I get a little dizzy just typing that. I want to be a Pokeman master.

I write 14 pages a day sometimes in my journal. And all of it is clearing or learning. I don't get to write everything still.

I was wondering why my bedroom (where I do everything) felt like outer reaches/areas/?? till I looked up and I felt a portal of sorts above my bed.  I remember using this in a dream, but I put a safty on it to be "Safe"..cough.... I was ok with it till I got the bright idea to bring Home here.. And flipped it around... I got scared that something might come here that I might not be ready for. I gave it to Goddess... Now its a spinning spiral cloud formation that goes up to somewhere, with these angels of sorts flying around it, one tapped my shoulder and wanted to know if I wanted to go... "...Na, ...Later..." "Ok" Its very safe. Makes my bedroom feel nice though. Better than a straight gateway though.

I said I love the planet. Goddess said, "The planet loves you too" I saw the planet come into my heart. I loved it in my heart with all of me and my feelers too. Then we switched, the Earth took me into its heart and did the same for me. The earth is clear on the inside. I could see the surface from inside anywhere I looked. I could see people and trees and cities. Then the sun at the center. Very cool. I can do this now just driving along. I went there the second time when I asked Goddess to take me, but I was told that I'm not ready to be there yet. I was trying to learn from it.... Too much....

Trees have feelers too. Green? Sometimes they help with my heart.

My Empathic buddy has a real deal pipe. As in American Indian sacred Pipe. It pulls your Karma! Really quickly too. What a great thing! He told me all about the pipe, after his cerimony which I was giggling all the way through. Everyone all serious...sacred cerimony and all.. Profound sacred spirits! Me... Giggle giggle giggle... Hello Goddess...Giggle laugh Now I want a pipe too...

I have so many new tools to use. Goddess gave me a gold coat. Gold coat is Goddess and she is always around me. Did a lot of work to get that!

I have an unlimited supply of flowers that I can put anywere on/in my body to make it feel better. I got a nice array first time.

My feelers are uncontional love... or something similer.... I don't questiong anything, I say, "You tell me when your ready to."

"I" talk crazy beyond stuff when I'm about to fall asleep, like I'm talking to somone else, I notice it, but then I shut up when I wake up and listen.

When  Goddess was helping me through something I just learned, I was at the same time standing off to the side and talking to someone else and saying how smart I was to figure that all out.

I am healing my past, then I got things to heal that are not "My, me" past. Twice. Very confusing.

She fixed my second Chakra too. Its pretty wild. Right now its all glowing at these two girls here. Woo!

Goddess said She wants me to have a physical experience. I said. "OK"

Today a barber said he would call up the police on me because he would not believe that I would come back with the money. I told him to call the police, I figured it would be grounding experience. I got the money, but the Police came and left before I got back. I was disapointed that the police left before I got back and felt like if I went through all this trouble I should at least get police on the scene. Or get arrested..  I said, "I was at least entitled to some police" He didn't like my jokes. I left.  Realised what I did, freaked out. I am oposites. I was terrified. What the hell was I doing? I'm not meant for that stuff!

"Goddess is all that is and is me too" is the most grounding thing I can say. Actually today I was drawing out things and I got this.

"Everything is love, and you are love as well" ... Or something like this. I liked that.

My splinter knows everything. I know nothing, or at least not much. I hear that soon I'll be one though. Have to go through an order though. Just got through with the first step. I found a part of me walking in some clouds all sad before too.

Best thing is that She tells me all the time to know that it will all be ok, and everything will work out. She gives me a phrase to repete.

I have these rings too, rings are fun, angels help out sometimes. Rings work auto too.

I have lots more things too...

I am going to take a yoga class soon... Its very important that I get happy with my body. It likes me today because I did something very smart! Tell ya later.

Ok, whew... it was cool to just let that all out... I wish there was somone here local I could really tell about all of this. I'll work on that I think. Expressing myself fully here and now. I just feel so silly. People I used to know know me as somone who hates everything and god's and religion.. Now.. Goddess this, Goddess that...yada yada ya... I'm kinda shocked at what happens sometimes. "I did that?" But I think I had better get used to it

....so...whats going on with you all?

Somone tell me about there wings...

Later..

Sean

:  Hello,

Hellllo!   :0)

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:  Have to let some of this out here. Just gotta flow this out. Don't judge please.

:

*smiles*  A beautiful game, indeed.  *purrrs*  tell me a story. . . .?

:  I've been learning about all of the things that have been keeping me from being here on this planet. Finally. And I've been doing things that are at the edge of my brains understanding. I wish I could move it over sometimes.

Ghugh- -:0)  Now ain't that the truth?  *takes a breath and pauses*   I open my mouth to speak to you, and my words jump blissfully over the edge. . . .  *wrinkles nose*   They've escaped!!  ;0)   hm.   maybe another time.

:  I've seen what I think are some sort of fairy sprites. 3 of them so far. One gave me a wand. One was only interested in looking around me. The last one wanted to show me how to use the wand...

... *chuckles*  Once upon a time I was playing my flute outside in the sunlight, near what used to be my backyard woods.   Sparse setting of trees, but loverly, just the same.    

Now- -things Echo in the forest, so I figgered- -well, it could be cool to go play silvery-type tunes into the trees!  Wheee.

So I do- -and I'm playing. . and allllll the sudden.  *chuckles*  This irridecent purple little pixie comes buzzzin' on up out of the bushes, and hovers right up to me.  *smile*  Right in my face, and moves to the periphery of my sight.

I play a few more notes, caught up in a sort of - -haze- - before the whole experience registers.  Then I stop, and smile inside as I think; "So *there* you are!"..... and then the little pixy-thing flew away!  right over the roof of my house.

Heh!   Who knew?

:  A friend gave me a rock, my eyes closed, and said, "feel this" and I knew it was from outer space, way out... And I saw the planet it was from. It was its core. A part of it. I knew I could know more about this planet, but I got scared and went out. He later told me the name of the planet and how the metiorite got here.... I was pretty proud of myself. Never did that before.

*prrrrrrrrrow* ;0)  Psychiometry. . .Wheee.  Think I spelled that wrong. .?

:  There is this woman who calls me a different name that has showed up in uh.. outer places... and knows me? Her name is Elienia...Elana... Something like this.. She comes to me. I don't go anywhere. She is very close to me... I dunno...

:
:  There was a voice in me that said, "I am the master of the 4th Ray" I get a little dizzy just typing that. I want to be a Pokeman master.

:
:  I write 14 pages a day sometimes in my journal. And all of it is clearing or learning. I don't get to write everything still.

:  I was wondering why my bedroom (where I do everything) felt like outer reaches/areas/?? till I looked up and I felt a portal of sorts above my bed.  I remember using this in a dream, but I put a safty on it to be "Safe"..cough.... I was ok with it till I got the bright idea to bring Home here.. And flipped it around... I got scared that something might come here that I might not be ready for. I gave it to Goddess... Now its a spinning spiral cloud formation that goes up to somewhere, with these angels of sorts flying around it, one tapped my shoulder and wanted to know if I wanted to go... "...Na, ...Later..." "Ok" Its very safe. Makes my bedroom feel nice though. Better than a straight gateway though.

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I feel familiar with the writing process- -Though perhaps I never quite yet have done 14 pages in a day....  There was a period of time in Denmark when I was writing many pages, though. . *laughs*  And a lot of it became redundant, when I read through it. . . Hrrrrrm...   Good way to clear though, I think . :0)  Catharsis.

And your gate sounds quite intriguing, indeed.  :0)  but it is good that you let it go. . *laughs*  Goddess is taking you places. . . . . . . ;0)

:  I said I love the planet. Goddess said, "The planet loves you too" I saw the planet come into my heart. I loved it in my heart with all of me and my feelers too. Then we switched, the Earth took me into its heart and did the same for me. The earth is clear on the inside. I could see the surface from inside anywhere I looked. I could see people and trees and cities. Then the sun at the center. Very cool. I can do this now just driving along. I went there the second time when I asked Goddess to take me, but I was told that I'm not ready to be there yet. I was trying to learn from it.... Too much....

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Awwww  *chirrup*  What a beautiful experience!!  :0)  way to be.  *snug*

:  Trees have feelers too. Green? Sometimes they help with my heart.

- -Yes! :0)  Trees give Wonderful hugs.

:  My Empathic buddy has a real deal pipe. As in American Indian sacred Pipe. It pulls your Karma! Really quickly too. What a great thing! He told me all about the pipe, after his cerimony which I was giggling all the way through. Everyone all serious...sacred cerimony and all.. Profound sacred spirits! Me... Giggle giggle giggle... Hello Goddess...Giggle laugh Now I want a pipe too...

:  I have so many new tools to use. Goddess gave me a gold coat. Gold coat is Goddess and she is always around me. Did a lot of work to get that!

:  I have an unlimited supply of flowers that I can put anywere on/in my body to make it feel better. I got a nice array first time.

:  My feelers are uncontional love... or something similer.... I don't questiong anything, I say, "You tell me when your ready to."

My energy is runnnnnnnnning down a little as I type this. :0)  But trust me, when I say I'm smiling.

: ....so...whats going on with you all?

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   Bah!  ;0)  Life, I suppose.... But I'll probably end up rambling later, as well. . *chuckles*   Hey, man. . Thank you muchly for shareing along the way...   Gifted me with a smile or two, you have...  *laughs*  feel it??

whee.

:  Somone tell me about there wings...

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*more laughter*   freeeeeeedom.
infinity.  :0)  

Lots of Words, and No Words. . .
Flip me upside down and giggles will come out my feet.  ;0)

Have a nice day.

  Ah- - yes. . .*smiles*  And hello, every body else, on the List!  Nice to feel you!

Love,
  ____!

(no no, down here.  :0) yah.   Jason!)

*smiles big* Beautiful friends. Simply beautiful. Thanks for sharing! *hugs*

Keith