Aloha Mystress: I sit hear with tears coming down my face, so many things i dont understand, yet i do know i am exactly where i am suppose to be. I just got back from a month journy to the mainland, (that is what we call the u.s. when you live on the hawaiian islands) I found myself with a young man i met this summer. Well i lost all I learned about staying centered with him and went into sexuall relems I didnt want to go to. why do i fualter so??? I must say i did get to give him some info. about running sexuall energy,that he new nothing about,,give thanks, and i suppose it didnt have anything to do with me at all, if i am in service to the goddess. something still hurt with in me and as i write this, once again tear come up...please help me. who is crying? I have this issue about bothering people with my stuff, and that makes me cry too.... I want to be apart of the tea room, and hope to be at the next tea party!  thank-you mystress for being apart of my healing and life,,you are truely a gift....blessing nica

aloha nica,

i really don't understand enough to offer you any advice on what happened, and what is happening with you... so i am just sending my love, and letting you know that you are heard...

things often move slowly here in the Tea Room... and sometimes posts are answered after a few days... but your post looked lonely sitting here by itself... so i am adding my non-answer...

i hope you feel better soon...

warmly,

percyval

: thank you for your love and light, as i continue on this journey and work, I realize more each day, and become grateful for the love that is everywhere and i miss it, becasue i was never taught what true love really was. Thanks again for your divineness. blessings nica
: aloha nica,

: i really don't understand enough to offer you any advice on what happened, and what is happening with you... so i am just sending my love, and letting you know that you are heard...

: things often move slowly here in the Tea Room... and sometimes posts are answered after a few days... but your post looked lonely sitting here by itself... so i am adding my non-answer...

: i hope you feel better soon...

:
: warmly,

: percyval

  Aloha, Nica:

  It what you did was Goddess work, then right away you can stop beating yourself up for not defending your boundaries.

  Here is what I learned, the hard way. Goddess has no boundaries, is infinite and when you are being Her for someone, as Priestess then you have no boundaries either. You are not aware enough of yourself to defend them, in any case... not till later, when you come back to a body that hurts and get a hangover of regrets and wonder at your apparent weakness.

   This vulnerability is strength, but you can be choosy about who to share it with. Let your heart and belly choose for you... the body knows.

 Because if the choice is yes and you go with it then that is the end of free will till Goddess is done with you. Rewarding work, amazing karma bonus points but hard on the body.

  Goddess does not judge and she does not say no, She just loves unconditionally and gives whatever is asked, in the moment if it will serve another growing into Spirit. You have to balance it by staying in the body, listening to the body gut feelings about people, and being true to yourself beyond the temptations of romantic stories. Centered.

 If it is Goddess work... as everything is... then She sought this experience for you, to shape you in your growing and healing process. Cradle the hurt place, breathe and allow the tears. Let them fall, and the karma they represent, will be shed. This too, will pass...

  Blessings...

: Aloha Mystress: I sit hear with tears coming down my face, so many things i dont understand, yet i do know i am exactly where i am suppose to be. I just got back from a month journy to the mainland, (that is what we call the u.s. when you live on the hawaiian islands) I found myself with a young man i met this summer. Well i lost all I learned about staying centered with him and went into sexuall relems I didnt want to go to. why do i fualter so??? I must say i did get to give him some info. about running sexuall energy,that he new nothing about,,give thanks, and i suppose it didnt have anything to do with me at all, if i am in service to the goddess. something still hurt with in me and as i write this, once again tear come up...please help me. who is crying? I have this issue about bothering people with my stuff, and that makes me cry too.... I want to be apart of the tea room, and hope to be at the next tea party!  thank-you mystress for being apart of my healing and life,,you are truely a gift....blessing nica