Wyrd stuff I miss, before I *turned off* only to turn back on during my awakening...

more like temporarily changed the channel?

2 brothers who would come to my bed at night and bring me on adventures. One v christlike. Blonde. The other dark, handsome.  There was this big trust of the unfolding infinite I had when I'd adventure when I was younger. In the woods, at night, in my imagination. The dark-light luminosity of all of human experience. I was so in tune when I was a child. I get sad thinking about that girl and I want to hold her tonight.

The cycling thru of moving ptsd energy / trauma energy has me more in the cleansing mode and healing mode than the exploring mode but man I miss it. There's so many years of being gutted that it feels hard to remember that K can really be playful, and that there can be new avenues of creativity and wonder...renewal and grace...long hauls in the dark nights sometimes get me down.

It's important to stay clean mentally so it doesn't feed the demons / fears. Sober emotionally. I'm moving alot of energy rn and integrating my shadow - and all the repressed anger and vengefulness (i think i'll name her vicky, ha) is boring me. Like I'm going to live my life in a puppetry of duality? bork. my friend who I adore refers to it as a chew toy and it makes me laugh, because its true. Or a salt lick. Laughter truly is the best medicine.

I want to wake up in Beloved arms in a castle from the dream of this planet & have a psychedelic kiss that cures me whole again (lol, this maybe was the prayer for my awakening)

so grateful for tearoom
in gratitude

Great post Lelle! It is so interesting to read the different catalysts used to create an awakening. Wanting to wake from the dream of this world from your beloveds kiss is surely enough to spark an awakening. Especially, when this desire is honest.

I am not sure exactly what sparked mine but I am sure that I had intentions of waking up for years and they were honest. The phrase, "Be careful what you wish for because it just might come true." is more than relevant in my case! ha. Though, I am not troubled that my wishes were granted, instead I am delighted.

This course will help you meet and share extremely intimate moments with this Beloved you have discovered or are discovering. It is truly blissful. Welcome to FST