This is in response to Sean's Realizations.  In it you said that you had surrendered so completely that you had bones popping into place.  

I just want to share that since my K awakening I have learned to surrender completely to the energy that moves thru my body.  I sit in meditation for at least one hour daily.  I call it meditation, although it really is just the time I give up as completely as I can, control of my body.  Actually, I just let the energy take me over.  I don't do anything.

While the energy moves through me as it has for the past year it some times HURTS alot.  It has been like a liquid light moving through all parts of me.  I move in ways, I never thought I would be able to again.  Every muscle in my body has been stretched to the max.  My spine has been popped at each vertebrae. My head has been twisted it every direction.  The energy uses me as my own accupuncturist, yoga teacher, breath instructor.  At times the movements are beautiful.  I wish I were conscious enough to remember some of the movements.  I am simply along for the ride.  I feel the emotions, the pain, the bliss.  

I have learned to trust what ever takes place.  Sometimes I think for a moment " I could hurt myself here"  but I just trust and let it happen.  In fact if I try to go against what is happening, I can hurt myself.  But, most of the time the energy is holding me so strongly, I cannot move, even if I wanted to.

This has been a miracle in my life-this Divine Wisdom that has come into me to heal me. I lived in chronic pain for at least ten years.  I had tried everything to heal myself.  I had decided that I would just have to accept the fact that I was Never going to get any better and just had to learn to live with it.

I won't go into all the details of my long journey of living with pain and all the things I did to try to heal myself, but, I now know it has been one of my most profound teachers.  I had to let go, let go and let go until I came to a state of complete surrender and then the pain went away?  GO FIGURE.

It is no longer an option for me to spend my time on my meditation mat.  If I don't want to hurt, if I don't want to have my neck going out, I meditate.  

The gift of this miracle is beyond comprehension.  I am so grateful.

I just wanted to share this with you for what it is worth?  

Love, c-light

:I lived in chronic pain for at least ten years.  I had tried everything to heal myself.  I had decided that I would just have to accept the fact that I was Never going to get any better and just had to learn to live with it.

YES!!! That is surrender! That is what I have been trying to express to Sean, talking around it because it is a hard for a healthy person like me to tell him to give up hope. Better for you to tell him, you have been there and can speak for your own experiences.

Surrender means GIVE UP! Stop trying to change what Is. Accept what is, here and now. Make peace with the possibility that it may never change, and move on. Get on with your life, make the best of what you have.

 If healing from serious chronic illness is going to happen, it happens then. When you have decided not to let it get in the way of a fulfilling life.

Sometimes, it seems the whole point of the illness, is to learn that fundamental lesson of unconditional surrender.

 Wanting creates experiences of wanting, What you resist, persists.
 As I wrote in the non-duality essay,:

   Similarly, hope is a good thing to have in the lower chakra universe, but in the higher chakra universe it show its duality:  fear of the future, that takes you out of the Here and Now. You do not reach for hope unless you are worried about what is to come.
  In Dante, above the gates of hell it says "Abandon all hope, ye who enter here". Sounds awful, but it is really excellent advice, for the underworld traveller. Even the attachment/fear of hope will be a stuck
place that keeps you from getting through all the levels, circles to reach the teleportation portal to the light that is at the center of Hell.

Getting through Hell requires total unconditional surrender, projecting your desires into the future with hope will get you stuck.

 Thanks, SeeLight!

: I won't go into all the details of my long journey of living with pain and all the things I did to try to heal myself, but, I now know it has been one of my most profound teachers.  I had to let go, let go and let go until I came to a state of complete surrender and then the pain went away?  GO FIGURE.

Yup, yup, yup. Beautiful.

: It is no longer an option for me to spend my time on my meditation mat.  If I don't want to hurt, if I don't want to have my neck going out, I meditate.  

: The gift of this miracle is beyond comprehension.  I am so grateful.

: I just wanted to share this with you for what it is worth?  

It is priceless.
  Blessings!

: Love, c-light

 
Hello c-light,

Thank you for this post. It opened up another door for me. If you have anything else that you might want to share. I'd love to see it.

Take care,

Sean