Hello everyone,

I'm writing this as a statement of my intentions, to set objectives/goals, and to make sure my heart and mind are in the right place.

My main objective is self-mastery. I believe it's the only "mastery" worth having. I want to increase my consciousness to become a being primarily of causes and not effects. I've opened myself up into the greater world of energy and spirits, but I'm lacking the knowledge and skills to deal with it. With few peers, teachers, or just people to talk to and share experiences with, the school of hard knocks has been guiding my lessons for the past few years. A system of teachings, a teacher, and a community would make this much easier.

My strategic goals:
I want to be guided by my heart and to hear its voice more loudly. I've experienced what it was like to love everyone and everything, and to be guided by my heart to truth. However, I've become highly rational and my emotions suppressed, with very little joy or excitement in life. I can still enjoy the quietude of a thoughtless mind, but to think nothing and feel nothing is a profound emptiness. I want to open my heart to feel and express love once more.

I want to understand the mechanics of energy and how to deal with associated problems. I've opened myself to the experience of energy, kundalini or otherwise. My goal in doing this was to experience a greater reality, and to an extent I've succeeded. However, I've come to realize expanded energetics is an expansion of responsibility. Energy has created more problems than it has solved so far, and I'd like to know the why's and how's and what can be done to remedy the situations. So far I've learned that energy work can be overdone, and overdoing it creates marked physical imbalances and problems. However if this is true, then energy can also improve one's life and health. This is something I intend to do.

I want to learn and apply protective and cleansing measures against entities, intruders, etc. and to set up proper boundaries for my energy. Currently I feel an extreme constricting force on my inner energy. It's choking me from the inside, hurting my breathing and causing brain fog. I'm fairly certain this is an energetic parasite. I've had this sort of thing "removed" before by "healers," and know what it's like for it to be gone, but these things always seem to come back. It's clear I can't just rely on outside help for these things, and there must be some reason these things come back. I'd like to know how to get rid of them, how to protect myself from them, and what I must change from within to ensure this does not happen again. After this part of the hierarchy has been worked on, then I'll have built the proper foundation to begin wider exploration.

I do want to develop psychically. I feel I'm being affected by many things without knowing how I affect them. This is like stumbling through a maze blindfolded. I want to make informed decisions so I can avoid suffering or causing others to suffer. I have faith for sure as that's what brought me here, but I realize I also need appropriate action. I'd love to know and experience the mechanisms behind it all, both out of genuine desire to grow and expand, but also for the sake of my own safety and others.

I look forward to learning and applying the material of the FST course. This is a rare opportunity and I'm grateful for it. Thank you.

Welcome aboard, Leos.  There's lots to chew on here. 

      Blessings

Welcome Leos!
Good to have you here.

Leos wrote: "However, I've come to realize expanded energetics is an expansion of responsibility. Energy has created more problems than it has solved so far, and I'd like to know the why's and how's and what can be done to remedy the situations. So far I've learned that energy work can be overdone, and overdoing it creates marked physical imbalances and problems. However if this is true, then energy can also improve one's life and health. This is something I intend to do."
Power = responsibility
If you direct your intentions and energy outwardly at others trying to fix or save others (what Mystress calls 'hero trip' for ego), then you will experience problems.
If I walk around thinking that everyone else needs my help, then my energy aura is poking others in a non-consensual way and they will react.
People who feel increased empathy often struggle with this kind of issue if they do not maintain proper personal boundaries.
Becoming slimed with other peoples moods, emotions, and karma is not fun.
You may find yourself feeling cranky for no good reason.
Projecting needs onto others is a manipulative power game that is a symptom of low self esteem - power chakra issues.

As human beings, we all want and need purpose.
It is noble to want to help others.
FST is a self-realization path.
The most lovely gift you can give to the world is to be your true self and live your life as Goddess wills.
There is a lot of wisdom in the saying - change the world by changing yourself.
If energy transfer is consensual, it can be uplifting and healing.
When we poke others by projecting need onto them, then we are going to experience issues.
Empaths and energy healers who do not respect other peoples personal boundaries will start experiencing a lot of physical, emotional, and mental health problems.
- Muscle cramps in specific places
- Loss of appetite and sleep
- Feeling irritated and unable to enjoy simple things
- Emotionally burnt out and numb (when ignored this becomes full blown depression)
- Feeling unappreciated, bitter, and cynical about others

Sometimes people do not see or ignore what they see because they are very invested in their own ego identity as healer and savior of humanity.
There is also lots of twisted notions of martyrdom associated with spiritual growth in patriarchal traditions - the more you suffer, the holier you are!
So people invest into their own suffering as proof that they are sent here to save others.
If your body is telling you to slow down and you continue to ignore your body, then things will get more serious over a period of time.
We do not feed fears here at FST but warnings about real dangers are necessary.

Leos wrote: "I want to learn and apply protective and cleansing measures against entities, intruders, etc. and to set up proper boundaries for my energy. Currently I feel an extreme constricting force on my inner energy. It's choking me from the inside, hurting my breathing and causing brain fog. I'm fairly certain this is an energetic parasite. I've had this sort of thing "removed" before by "healers," and know what it's like for it to be gone, but these things always seem to come back. It's clear I can't just rely on outside help for these things, and there must be some reason these things come back. I'd like to know how to get rid of them, how to protect myself from them, and what I must change from within to ensure this does not happen again. "
Your crown is constricted with fear.
You are giving energy to your fears and the more you focus on your fears, the bigger they grow.
Practice grounding 8 times a day.
There is a lesson about clearing entities that is included in FST and that will give you a lot of information that you are looking for.
Till you get to that lesson, continue to practice grounding regularly.

Grounding is a simple but powerful exercise.
The more you ground, the stronger your own energy flow.
Not just strong but stable and peaceful where other peoples actions and moods don't influence you.
So focus on building your grounding practice instead of giving energy to your fears.
Do one lesson per week, reread each lesson three times at least, and keep a journal of your own thoughts.
You are welcome to ask doubts and share experiences relevant to your spiritual growth or FST lessons on Tearoom.

Namaste!
Gopi

Hi Leo. Excellent response, Gopi.


Gopi wrote: There is a lesson about clearing entities that is included in FST and that will give you a lot of information that you are looking for.

  Yeah with most entities it will. Some internal presences are not entities. The effect of entities is not as powerful as this:

Leo Wrote: It's choking me from the inside, hurting my breathing and causing brain fog. I'm fairly certain this is an energetic parasite. I've had this sort of thing "removed" before by "healers," and know what it's like for it to be gone, but these things always seem to come back.

  All tied in with your power chakra, right, Leo?

  What if it is not a parasite, but the true genetic reason for your motivation? A guide who is messing with you because you are not listening? Ever try talking to it, finding out what it wants?

QuoteAll tied in with your power chakra, right, Leo?

I feel absolutely nothing in that chakra now except constriction. I can't even get energy to move into that area properly, it seems like the energy tends to move around it. I can't feel the heart chakra right now, with some rare instances. My mind isn't nearly as fast as it used to be. My eyes are red and having vision issues related to this. My entire body feels like it's burning hot, and I fatigue much easier. It doesn't feel right at all. It seems to get worse depending on how much sexual energy I currently have stored up, and yet I need to have it stored up else I'll feel weak, powerless, and skittish. It feels painful and gross compared to the Christlike constant "love and light" feeling I used to have all the time, which was physically, emotionally, and mentally invigorating. I haven't found any physical reason for this despite multiple doctors and tests, just symptoms.

QuoteWhat if it is not a parasite, but the true genetic reason for your motivation? A guide who is messing with you because you are not listening? Ever try talking to it, finding out what it wants?

I'm sure there's some genetic component to this given the stories I've heard about my family history. I'm not sure what I'd like to believe, that some evil spirit is messing me up or that I have the sort of guide that thinks beating me up is the right way to get me to pay attention. I've heard so many different theories from different people - an evil thoughtform put into me by a jealous teacher from a past life, some dark entity, ascension growing pains... I don't get it.

I want more than anything to have clear guidance. I don't feel hatred for whatever is going, and not really any fear directed at whatever it is. My only fear is that I won't learn what it is in time to stop it, and that the damage will be irreversible.

  It was never really gone, it cannot be removed nor can it cause you any lasting damage, quite the opposite. Its whole focus is your mental, physical and emotional well being, and helping you fulfill your destiny.

  All the healers really did is send it into hiding and clear the stuff around it... and that stuff is actually from your own errors, the hero trip.  FST is an inward process, no hero tripping. Set it aside for now. Stone from your own eye first, and all that.

  Yes it is genetic. Goddess and guide brought you here because I am literally the only teacher on the planet who understands your talent and how to bring it to full flowering. Not a joke or a boast. That is why you felt you had no choice about registering. There is no one else. Feels strange for me to say it but it is true.

  Start with asking the entity to resolve, heal the power chakra pain and constriction. Invite it to do as it knows best to sort out your energy, and thank it. Start feeding it gratitude.

   I am asking a leap of faith, I know... but nothing else has worked eh?

  Your guide/entity is so happy to have an opportunity to heal you, it did a happy dance then hugged me! These guides are so fun! 

  Funny the two most recent members are Leo and Leopard... "everybody wants to pass as cats."

   Soon you will meet your new best friend for life, here is its theme song. 

   Mr. Jones.

   Keep grounding!

Welcome Leo! Enjoy the plethora of information and energy here :-)