A few weeks ago I asked my heart voice if the kundalini energy had become awake in me, and got the answer "yes". I asked if it had started at time A, and got the answer that it was before that. I then enquired about a psychedelic experience I had a little over half a year earlier, and got the answer that that's when it became permanently active in me, but that it had also sparked during an earlier trip.
The trip when it became permanently awake in me was almost 3 years ago. It was a very very intense trip during which I totally lost all sense of self and forgot that I (usually) consider myself a person in a body! I was transported to a different dimension of beautiful beings who did not communicate with me, but kept showing me things. As I snapped out of that dimension I realized that I recognized the sight of my feet (it felt like a distant memory from childhood), and as I started to remember details about my normal life I roared with laughter thinking about how I usually considered that as more real than the spiritual dimension. I remembered that I normally consider myself a person, in a body! How strange! I remembered that this place was my residence, and that I studied something incredibly dry. I remembered that my body had an age, and that I have relationships with other people. I laughed and laughed - it all seemed like the most elaborate fantasy!
I've always seen energy visually (I have a memory of asking my dad about this when I was a little kid, and he looked deeply concerned.. after that I stopped mentioning it), but after that trip I saw it super strongly, everywhere, all the time. I started hearing more intricate music than my old musician self could ever compose. These things started decreasing in intensity after a few months. I might also add that after this experience I lost my interest in doing psychedelics, "when you get the message, hang up the phone".
(I was evaluated by two neurologists, who found nothing wrong with me.. of course)

Around 6 months later I had a horrible flu, but I still tried to meditate. On the day I thought was day before the "big event" I experienced the most profound mind silence I had experienced thus far, which sparked a strong feeling of bliss.
The day after I worked on some jealousy issues in my personal life, and when I started meditating I had a strange feeling of my consciousness residing in my heart. Then I felt a warm tingling at the base of my spine, and suddenly I had what I can best describe as a non-sexual orgasm. I felt the energy moving up my spine, and I started to shake rather violently in my torso. I let the movements roll as they pleased, and after I while it stopped. But the feeling of strong bliss remained, and I realized that I had been crying with joy.
After that experience, I tried researching what had happened to me and was continuously pointed towards kundalini and kriyas. After that I started experiencing kriyas on a daily basis, every time I tried to rest or meditate or go to sleep I would start having spontaneous movements, body locks and hand gestures. After 4-5 months I realized that I could communicate with the energy, and after that everything got a lot smoother - I made a deal with the goddess energy to allow it to move my body and release whatever it wanted at the end of each day, in exchange for not making a scene at inappropriate times. (I still do this)

Up until a few weeks ago I assumed that it was during this meditation experience the energy awoke in me, but my heart voice seems to disagree.

Does it seem plausible that the psychedelic trip I described was actually when the kundalini energy became permanently active in me, rather than the meditation experience? Or was I talking to an entry, or something else?

And one additional question - whenever I'm out and about, the energy sometimes appears to communicate with me through movement in whichever area it's working on, for example through a specific pattern of slight jolts in my abdomen or a sound in my ear following the same pattern, telling me "yes" or "you're on the right path". Could an entity do this, or can I trust that this is always goddess energy?

And one final question - I have occasionally received messages about things that will happen when I've just been thinking to myself without any attempt at asking goddess. And they've turned out to be correct! And they've been very specific things,, such as the specific day (months in advance) to the question "when will I get this piece of information from this person?"
Should I just be thankful for the information, or suspect that I'm dealing with beings who might not have my best interests in mind?

Thank you,
Much love!
/Althea

Hello Althea,
Every individual is born with the potential for K awakening and everyone's journey is different.
Kundalini can be understood as evolutionary process.
Kundalini is a Sanskrit word and is commonly translated as 'coiled snake'.
Like a spring coil that can bounce... Like a snake that can leap up...
Kundalini remains dormant and coiled till Goddess decides it is time to evolve.
As Mystress has pointed out, we live in a time when K awakenings are happening at an unprecedented level.
We are evolving

Because it is a process and not a destination, it does not make much sense to talk about K awakenings as yes/no externally.
We are all evolving all the time.
There will be definitive moments in your journey.
And each stage of the journey brings its own experiences and lessons.

Quote"Does it seem plausible that the psychedelic trip I described was actually when the kundalini energy became permanently active in me, rather than the meditation experience?''

Sure. That is plausible.
Is it plausible that your were meditating while you were tripping?

Quote"Or was I talking to an entry, or something else?"

I am assuming you are asking about entity.
Have you done entity clearing lesson?
FST is a DIY course.
It is better for students to learn to discern based on their own practice instead of relying on someone else.
So I would recommend that you revisit the entity clearing lesson.

I like reading old Tea room posts.
Here are a few quotes written by Mystress about heart voice.

Quote“I simply knew that some thoughts had a resonant feeling of truth. They were stated as simple fact, no persuasion required and I would *know* they were true...
the heart voice is of course egoless, nameless and infinite so... it gives us names to call it, that are a reflection of what we are, and generally those names are something like "Light, love, energy, truth.." A truth, not a flarrrery name or boasting…
It is a quiet voice, warm but neutral. Free Will is Goddess law, the heart voice does not tend to use persuasion. It states what Is, and sometimes asks if you really want to do what you are doing… the one voice you cannot clear, no matter how many times you try, that is a still small voice of love, is the Heart…
Your heart chakra itself is more than a portal, it has the whole universe inside it and Goddess too. You can go anywhere by going within, you need nothing that is outside of you…
Heart is a portal to .. a container of, the whole manifest and unmanifest universe. That is part of its normal function. Goddess lives there, and She is All. Don't try to understand it, it will turn your logical brain inside out. It just Is."

Also, there is an entire FST lesson on connecting to heart voice.
Super important lesson... and worth repeating a few times.

Quote"I have occasionally received messages about things that will happen when I've just been thinking to myself without any attempt at asking goddess. And they've turned out to be correct!"

Nice.
Goddess provides.
Give thanks when things go smooth.
There are lots of siddhis - attainments - that can happen in your journey.
For instance, I used to get a lot of timely help and uncanny guidance from birds and animals.
Be grateful for the experience but don't get attached.
Siddhis come and go as Goddess wills.
Relying on siddhis can grow new ego and slip into control games.
The only siddhi worth chasing after is total surrender to Goddess.

I hope I have not discouraged you from asking for help or sharing.
It can be useful to keep a journal of our own journey.
You can share it as you see fit but the journal is for you.

Namaste!
Gopi

What I'm hearing is that I should trust myself and Goddess and trust that I've been successful in trying to follow the instructions in the lessons I've done. I guess I just want someone to check my homework to make sure I'm not messing up, haha! Especially since it's something so very important...

Thank you, I'll try to do that!

Quote"What I'm hearing is that I should trust myself and Goddess and trust that I've been successful in trying to follow the instructions in the lessons I've done. "

A few years ago, I used to feel really annoyed that I don't have 100% trust.
I used to have small lingering doubts and judged myself for having those doubts.
Mystress pointed out to me doubt is useful for growth.
I took me a few years to realize that trust is something that you build slowly.
In human relationships, trust is earned and that's how it should be.
We teach little children not to accept food from strangers for their own good.

For spiritual growth, 100% blind trust is not always possible, necessary, or useful.
Our ego needs to be confronted about its own limitations atleast a few times before we learn the lesson that it is better to surrender.
Only when we have doubts, we are curious to know more.
Having doubts and yet pursuing our curiosity means we are fully alive and open to life.
There are also plenty of abuse stories from all corners of the world about spiritual teachers demanding 100% blind trust.

I guess my point is: trust is built slowly and deliberately and not a one-shot deal.
Sometimes taking a leap of faith is necessary but trusting yourself is mainly about being honest with yourself.
Being honest about your beliefs, assumptions, doubts, experiences, and expectations.
When you *know* what is true for you, then you lose interest in others' opinions.
Who else can know *you* better than your *self*?
Keeping a journal can be helpful to see how our trust shifts over time.

It is not always easy for seekers to go into full surrender mode.
That's when rituals are very helpful - it gives monkey mind something to do.
When you are in doubt, ask your guides to show you if you are missing anything.
Tantra is experiential learning and not theological.
Tantra practitioners use every single aspect of their life for spiritual growth.
That's why eating meat, consuming alcohol, sex, shit, death, and decay are not taboo for Tantra practitioners (all of these are considered inauspicious in traditional Hindu religion).
There is no external yardstick for internal growth.
You arrive at your insights through experience.

Of course, if you feel stuck or need more clarification on something, you should ask for help.
But... me (or anyone else) trying to convince you that you have not messed up your inner growth is umm... neither useful nor sustainable.
If you feel like you need more time with a lesson or feel unsure, then sit with the lesson and revisit it.
Please remember that 1 week per lesson is a guideline not a rule (and is there to remind people to go slow).
I have spent several months rereading some lessons because the insights take time to integrate into everyday life.
It is not about reading and understanding but about experiencing and integrating.
So it is absolutely OK for students to take as long as they want with each lesson.
No special prize at end for early finishers