Hello all,
I had just returned from about a month long visit to Mystress at her beautiful home. Which is a kind of sanctuary. Not that it looks any different at a first glance but the difference is in energy. The energy was unassuming and casual at first but increasing with intensity as time went by.
I think depending on the amount of ones karma the energy can be gentle or strong up to frying the ant type of strong. Energy that tries force its way to wash trough all blocks.

And that was as it should be and one could expect that. However I wanted even more than that to be a nice guest and helpful. But apparently the priority was set quite clearly by the energy. So I ended up to be less helpful then I hoped. And oscillating between resisting and processing. And Mystress could indeed use a helping hand in many tiny things. I was eager to try some of the Mystress favorite relaxation techniques, as I knew I could need them but apparently the results were not so good on me. So I just had to do what I could. Luckily Mystress had a huge hitech fully programmable massage chair and that was a good option. Maybe my energy just waned for the stuff to be faced and dealt with and not avoided in any way, who knows.
Many hired housekeepers runned away or started to display strange obsessions. Well I now do not wonder a bit.

I came visiting to seek a respite from what Mystress calls in somewhat cool-headed way "orbit". Meaning that after a high hills there can be usually also deep valleys. Also its maybe reminder that if one seeks for growth it can be sometimes given in very unpalatable ways.
Could the cure be anything less then meeting my shadow front on? For some strange reason I thought so, in the beginning.

Mystress house is well placed in quiet suburb and instead of a backyard there is a ravine with huge cedar trees. And wild forest. At night one can hear honks of the huge cargo ships going trough to near by harbor. Mystress has a very cute dog named Chiquita, sweet with very relaxed with playful nature. There is also a snake and bearded dragon living in the house. House is spacious with a huge garage quite typical for Canadian family house. The house is filled with many old and sentient items with their own stories. And also special places for BDSM related items and one has to see and feel to know. I touched also feelings of the beauty and the exhilaration of the pioneers. As I saw the same exhilaration sometimes in the first kundalini list. As if things were simpler then, clearer. But also strength had to be much greater as there was no social acceptance at all. Now it is almost a fashion.
Mystress cooking is superb even if her own dietary needs are constricted and I learned some very good recipes. But in most evenings the cooking was done by druid. And I remember choice grilled steak grilled on the terrace grill that was excellent. Druid is also a captain of a yacht and we were sailing for nearly a week. And the gulf islands that we reached after 11 hours of sailing in high waves were wonderful. Im not much of a sailor myself, but the result was worth it. There one could expand and be whoever one wanted to. And nobody would care, as there was almost nobody there. One could easily stay there for a long time.
Bul one has to go back, to test out if one relay learned well ones lessons. Perhaps one is just thinking so.
Self deceptions seem always able to come in, as it seems to adjust to our strength and weaknesses.
Perhaps just so we know them and become more whole trough them.

Love
Duu

Lucky you, Duu, getting to spend such time with Mystress.  I'm glad the ups and downs were a success. 

  Best regards

I'm glad you got to have such a great experience visiting Angelique,  Duu. I also visited her home once for a couple of weeks. It has a very magical, almost fey vibe to me. I loved the tall cedar tree in the ravine, hugging it was such a grounding experience. Going to Wreck Beach on druid's yacht was one of the highlights of the visit as Angelique packs feasts, not lunches. The energy was intense for me too, to the frying an ant level, and it brought up a lot of things I wasn't ready to let go of, so Angelique asked me to leave as my resistance was affecting all of our health. I'm still so grateful for those two weeks because it got me established in Vancouver which was where I wanted to be back then.

Zephyr

  I had promised you could stay until you got your own place, and so it was.
  It was closer to a month. I shipped you out the day you got your own apartment. I hit a limit, when druid woke up feeling the same empathic stomach issues I had been getting for weeks... fortunately, your new place was available, that day.   

  For some reason, I had thought you were a graduate, maybe because you had been around for a while, but you had actually jumped ship at an early lesson and were not prepared for the high vibe space. You were still pretty young, you had just moved from the other side of the contienent on your own, you were scared, and the high vibe just kept pushing.

*nods* You were fair. It's all good now, anyway. Water under the bridge and all though I was miffed at the time.

Adding my experience to this thread.
I have visited Mystress at her lovely home twice.

The first time was for a few hours when I was in Vancouver for work. I felt very excited and a bit nervous to meet Mystress in person for the first time and had no idea what to expect. She gave me directions over phone and sent druid to pick me up from the nearest train station. At first, I was sort of really awestruck and dazed to be in Mystress' presence. I had planned on asking so many questions and when I was there, I couldn't remember any of them. And I distinctly remember feeling that I did not care about the answers to my questions or the fact that I could not remember them anymore.

Mystress fed me so many delicious things (amazing chocoloate and maple syrup  ) and showed me her collection of gemstones. She made me feel at ease and asked me what I wanted. At that time, I had started practicing grounding more regularly but also felt that it my grounding was not yet firm. So I requested her to help ground me better. And she did. She also patiently explained my doubts and pointed out what needs to be surrendered to Goddess. Then Mystress took druid and me out for a fantastic dinner (eye-poppingly expensive seafood but also oh-so-delicious) at an upscale restaurant. It was a few hours according to the clock but time really did not feel linear for those few hours.

After my first visit, I realized for myself that Mystress is a very wise person and that I can grow spiritually by sincerely paying attention to her lessons. So after that visit, my resolve and commitment towards FST as a student was more fueled and focused.

Mystress invited me to come stay with her for a month last year during Dec. I was very happy for receiving such a generous offer but also was hesitant. I have lived by myself for a long time now. So staying with another person for a whole month felt like a challenge. Am also a 'home-body' meaning I like to sleep in my own bed and cook in my kitchen, etc. I wanted to overcome my reluctance. Also, at that time, someone very close to me had passed away from cancer. So I was craving to get away from my daily life and wanted to do a one-month silent retreat. So when Mystress invited me, it felt like I was being guided to visit her.

Mystress and I agreed that I would help her with some house chores and in turn I can stay there for a month. She asked me what I wanted and I told her that I want to learn to be silent for a month. Mystress gave me lots of useful tips for active listening. She and druid took care of me with such kindness and warmth it felt like I was home. I chipped in some money for food but not nearly enough for what I had received there. druid prepares food with such love for Mystress and it was soul nourishing to be fed with love. Mystress gave me so many gifts that I lost count, shared her wisdom so generously, and allowed me to use her massage chair (that chair can do wonders!) Mystress also took me to my first Winter solstice celebration. Santa left tons of candy I fell in love with Miss Chiquita Thunder Fluff (Mystress' puppy) who taught me very valuable lessons about forgiveness and being playful.

We all laughed a lot, lazed around, ate fantastic food, and the month flew by. I practiced yoga while I was there. It was a very profound experience for me because my experience of silence went from 'lack of words' and fell into a 'open space' of possibilities. The deafening silence which used to feel uncomfortable, eerie, and scary now felt comforting and life affirming. It was so nice to feel completely taken care of by the universe without me having to prove anything.

Thank you Mystress!
Namaste!