Dear All,
I am now at the Heartchakra lesson and I tried to do the grounding and to see the colour of my heart. My whole Body seems to be covered into something black coloured. It feels like black tar. When I pray to goddess to see my light it is like short lightening and afterwards again black. Although I surrendered an eye in the middle of my heart but it is dirty red and very foggy. Still I have deep inside of me a Feeling of deep Grieve and I always have to cry. The crying is somehow a relief like something is allowed to go. But it does not swich on the light within me. So I am asking myself what do I have to do to Switch on the light?
Thank you for listening
Love
Nadja

   It is lovely to be shown your karma stuff so clearly in symbolic form. Thank your guidance for giving such clear images of what is to be surrendered, and the ongoing process of releasing it emotionally... the weeping is the tar coming off you.

  Releasing it emotionally isn't much fun but it does work, as you have felt. Surrendering it is smoother. Goddess has it handled.

The more you release, the more room there is for your life force to flow, the higher your body vibration gets, and the easier it is to hear the still small voice of the heart and be close to spirit while still embodied. Thats the process.

  People sometimes act like releasing karma is a terrible chore... instead delight in it. Surrender is easy, and Goddess showing you what is to be surrendered makes the path of enlightenment as easy as paint-by-numbers.
(Reference for those too young to remember   
http://americanhistory.si.edu/paint/rembrandt.html)

  I went through a phase of deliberately putting myself into situations that made me uncomfortable, just to find the karma triggers of the discomfort and surrender them, in my eagerness to locate and release every bit of karma from myself. 

  "Surrendering the ego self" lesson is a little ways off for you yet but look at the karma section on k teacher to get a preview.

http://kundalini-teacher.com/karma.php

Dear Mystress,
thanks a lot for your reply. It helps very much to understand things more clearly. The darkness has transformed to light grey clouds. The Ego still is very active within me. But I am working on it to calm it. ;-) The grounding is much easier now and I can feel the heart chakra more intens. There are still some blockades but now with the "working" grounding practice I am able to release it easier. I am really grateful for your clearing answers. Love Nadja