I have always been very scared of the dark, being alone at night and mirrors, well at least since i was ten or eleven years old. I have better strategies to deal with it now but I still can get terrifyed in rare situations. In the house we now live in there is a room which i am so afraid of, it is my daughters room. I am very careful not to tell her I am afraid of it but she has frequent nightmares and I just feel it has something to do with my fear of the room (she is twelve). It started I think because there were rats in the wall and there are small doors on the walls to get into spaces in the roof and I had a feeling the doors world OpenGL. I am so scared that my intense fear can manifest something bað so I just avoid it, try to fill my mind with love when I go in there.

I have tried many times to conquer this fear, to just ride it through but it just gets worse until I feel I am going crazy and just terrified like I am going to die. It just feels like there are nasty beings in the room, I have tried to welcome them, send into the light, bless the room, it has worked a little bit but I just can't stay grounded enough to do it.

Should i just go in there and let them do whatever they want do do with me, well I would need someone to lock me in there because there is no way I could stay there otherwise. The thought makes me sick but if I can be free of this fear it is worth it.

So what do you think?

Vinka

Hi,
Well fear is not a pleasant feeling to live in. Opposite of fear is feeling of love.
But fear of dark or of mirrors can symbolically point at a lack of self love.
We have been taught to love others more than ourselves. Or to sacrifice our needs for others.
We feel also inside, unconsciously that that is wrong. But we are afraid that other would reject as as unloving or selfish when we love ourselves first and foremost. And therefore we cant look at us. To face the conflict within us. Hiding in the dark, deep down.
Could fear of daughters room mean symbolically that you sacrificed for her too much. And now is time to focus back to loving yourself and you are facing that in a certain fear?
Maybe translating fear into a new language will help. If you feel fear think ah body is telling me I  can love myself more at this moment. Thank you body. Cool.

If nothing else self love brings you to place of power where you can have clear discretion of deeper causes. Or it will empower you to boot entities out in a split second. Focusing on fear reaffirms its reality and it will take center stage as the problem. While it is only a cover up emotion leading us away from facing certain issues, while at the same time pointing their urgency.

Love,
Duu

Thank you Duu for taking the time to answer my post. I am working on self love. I feel better now, the fear is less right now. I said to the creatures of my mind that I wont lét them control me any more and invited them to do their worst. Well nothing has happened, but i feel kind of sad. I don't really trust that the fear is gone but it is so good to get a break. Thank you, Vinka

Vinka:

 Did you do your house spell? Do not try to force yourself past your fear, it will only make more trauma.

 I would do this sort of work at night because my magic is a bit more active then but you may want to do it at noon and make the memory of rooms lit by sunshine become part of the house spell.

 Take time when you are alone and can focus, light some candles if you want, a ritual focus.  Expand out wards from center and when it starts to expand through your daughters room imagine the beings pushed out or transmuted. You have a sacred right to safe space.