So, I finally took a plunge and signed up for the Kundalini tantra course, and it feels like just the right timing. Right now I'm a bit overwhelmed in a good way with a sense that I'm not alone. There are so many ways that I'm "different" and so much of it seems connected to kundalini, whether the cause or effect or something else, I'm not sure!

I had my first kundalini experience around 2004, after doing a lot of painful work healing from a relationship trauma, during a meditation. And since then, I've changed so much -- I feel like it's kundalini that has changed me -- experienced mind-blowing synchronicity and energies that I don't understand; an experience of ego loss; fluidity in so many aspects of my life, including, more recently, with gender. I don't know how better to say it: Goddess is showing me deeper parts of myself and I never thought even a couple years ago that I would be known to all my friends as Lily. Goddess is simply making the feminine in me so poignant for whatever reason!

I don't know what this is, really. Sometimes I don't know what affect kundalini has really had on my life, but then other times, like now, I'm just in awe.

And then, there are other places I never would have gone, except that Goddess has continued to urge me there. Exploration of spiritual BDSM, for example. A few years ago, I may not have gotten this, but now, oh, a kundalini teacher / dominatrix, yes, it makes perfect sense. I can't explain these insights or why I am compelled in certain directions but I am delighted to see that I am not alone. Sometimes She just says, THIS IS WHAT YOU NEED, and there it is.

I hope to learn a lot here. It looks like the website hasn't been updated in a long time but I hope Mistress Angelique is still active and continuing to teach. My kundalini has so often been blocked. I shake a lot because I keep hitting these energy blocks. And I know there is so, so much more she has to teach me but I haven't known how to get there. I have been simply trying to surrender and learn.

Lily

Welcome Lily to this wonderful place 

Namaste

Hey, lilywolf.  Welcome to FST.   It's a nice day for something. 

Hi Lilywolf

Nice to see you, love your name 

Blessings,

Vinka