Sharing gives me comfort. The other day I was re-reading the lesson on what you resist persists. I noticed that my attempt to block out certain entities was closing my heart chakra a little. So, rather than try to block them, perhaps I could try giving them unconditional love? That night, while half asleep, this very idea popped into my mind. At that moment I was instantly attacked by a growling black mass that attached itself to my left side of my head and wrapped around my hip. My body immediately started going into Kriyas, especially the left side of my crown chakra and muscles around the top of my head. I wasn’t afraid though and decided to practice giving it unconditional love and felt it squirm. I surrendered it to Goddess, called in guardian angels etc. It didn’t quite lift though, I did the entity clearing, go into the light etc. Still nothing, instead my Shakti started to incinerate it and my body kept going into Kriyas for some time. I just kept giving it unconditional love. Then I drifted off a little, in my dream Mystress Higher Self (or someone that looked a lot like Her) came by and blessed me by brushing my left side with Her hand, I felt the love of Goddess enter me and floated away blissfully. Unfortunately the entity started moving around again and I was back to my body. I’m still feeling some tightness around the left side of my head and still have some clearing to do. Goddess, I surrender this entity and everything that belongs to it to you please take it from me and transmute it into light. Please place me under your unbrella of protection. Also, I offer my self to you (Goddess). Please claim me and make me yours Forever. I love you.

  Why do people keep trying to surrender entities? You cannot surrender entities because they are not yours to give, just like you cannot surrender other people. Cannot even surrender other peoples stuff if they will not let it go, thats why for karma vamp we do the internal alchemy.

  Aside from simply loving it, (and even then you loved it to make it go away) count how many ways you resisted the entity? You are still resisting it. Looks like it showed up to demonstrate the resistance lesson and you sort of missed the boat...

  You probably didn't actually have to do anything, your body responded with kriyas and surrendering to the kriyas would have been fine. What if you just did nothing and let the kriyas happen? Kriyas are karma releasing, if this thing triggered some karma to be released then thank it for that service.

  You already asked the Guardian angel for protection when you did entity clearing before, right? So you can trust if they let something through its there for you to learn and grow from, educational. Shadowy things are often part of oneself seeking integration, so surrender and eviction does not work then either.

  "Hello, creepy black growly thing. How's it going? Oh you want to hug me, thats nice... never been hugged by something like you before.   You are a very cuddly growly thing eh? Very interesting to meet you, can you tell me what you are?  Is there something you would like to show me?"


  No fear.

Thanks for your support. I didn't like all that heavy stuff coming into me at once. Sure I wanted to get rid of it. I prefer to love it from a distance. Its more than a simple demonstration though. Alot of my left side is filled with heavy karma that is the content of this entity. Wherever it came from it's now mine to deal with. I was pissed about it because of all the effort it took to purify my system (even to a minor degree) and now I have a whole new pile of stuff and blockages to deal with which doesnt want to lift. It's been coming out during upstream Kriya and expressing itself, not my cup of tea! I'm now learning to accept it as part of my system and accept the situation as well as the stuff since there is no other option. I would like to release it because it is not me. I can love anything from the window but when things invade my space and trash up my place, how can I not want it them to leave? 

   You quite missed the point eh?

   The entity came in response to the "what you resist, persists" lesson.. you are resisting and it is persisting... ! Guardian angel let it through because its for you to learn from.  Instead of examining your resistance you are finding reasons why you think it is right to resist this.

   Ask your discernment if the creepy shadow thing is giving you back your own stuff?
   Ask if it represents a hidden shadow aspect of you? You are All that Is.
   Did you count the number of ways you resisted it?

   Why do you act like clearing your karma is such a terrible chore? Personally I find it fascinating, rewarding, interesting, fun!  Feeling Goddess immediate response to surrender is a beautiful validation of how well you are loved, and every bit you let go brings you closer to Her. Finding more karma to clear is a reason to celebrate!
   
    Into every life a little rain must fall, your challenge to be at peace with what Is.

   If you get so upset at your energy getting a little muddy, how would you handle anything worse, like a new disability? I wish you do not have to find out.  Count your blessings to be young and strong and healthy and smart and privileged. They say youth is wasted on the young.. because when you are old you realize more how precious the bloom of youth that is so taken for granted by the young.

   Last night I was doing some clearing on myself and came across some old grief at the loss of hearing in my left ear... did some healing stuff on it, asked Goddess please give it back, I believe nerves can regenerate... but in the end I simply had to surrender to accept what Is.  Not without a stray hope for some future science breakthroughs, maybe stem cell research ... thoughts of the future take me out of the moment, so I had to surrender that too. 
 
    Shamans get the death gate energy, its powerful and dangerous so I keep it turned well inward. Once in long while I let someone feel a tiny bit of it for a minute... and then I take it all right back from them and they thank me! Even within a minute they can feel it creeping up their arm getting stronger. Seriously scary stuff!

  Shamans learn from early childhood to not not not resist the energy at all... I mean we have to let the energy do whatever it wants, lay flat like for a bear while it rips us to bits and chews on our bones. All the types of resistance you mention, even the stuff I teach you would make death gate energy worsen. Even benign resistance feeds it to grow stronger and it does not release karma, that is for the guides and the shaman to do, it just reflects it back magnified and multiplied. Its a tar baby, the more you struggle the more it sticks. A teaspoon of death gate energy would have a regular person freaking screaming paranoid in the hospital getting sedated for insane uncontrollable fear within 3 days.

   Critters like you got, I eat them. Suck them into my wide open loving heart and shoot them out my crown. I do not teach that because if your pipes aren't clean it can get stuck in you...

  Gratitude is the opposite of resistance, thank the critter for showing up to support your growing.  Ask your discernment if that is its purpose? To teach you about your resistance. I know it is.