To introduce myself: my name is Paris. i am 52 years old. That was 14 I had a severe head injury that left me in a coma and awakened kundalini. About 10 years ago I took this course, but I didn't finish very well. Since then my life has changed quite a bit. I am going through a divorced. Though it is not yet final I have moved out of the house and am in an apartment by myself. The last few months I was a little bit in shock, but now finally starting to negotiate life on my own. Yesterday it hit me I should try this course again. I felt a very intense spiritual warmth in my chest. I think it is the right thing for me to do.

Welcome back, great helpful people here to relate to.

  Hello Paris!

   Lovely to see you back. Was thinking of you this week, writing about remote tummo activations. Wondered how you were doing.

  Sorry to hear of your divorce. How is your head these days? 

I'm in at lot less pain, but every now and then I would like to strangle a moose.  The doctor is prescribing lots of pain-killers, so that might be the reason the pain died down so much.

I do feel kundalini flowing all the way up my back.  Recently, I have started to feel it loping over my head and running down the front (I go by the Chinese model of the Microcosmic orbit).  I don't really know for sure what I should feel with the Tummo.  In the last few months I do get absolutely parched and can't get enough water.  I thought that might be my medication.  I have wonder if it might be Tummo, because that is exactly how I felt when I had the initiation done.

Grounding is a life saver to me.  Especially right now.  This with my (ex?) wife is turning out to be the greatest humiliation of my life.  And I've been through a lot already.

Anyway, here's to better times.

Paris

Quote from: Paris on Nov 21, 2012, 07:10:35 AM
I'm in at lot less pain, but every now and then I would like to strangle a moose.  The doctor is prescribing lots of pain-killers, so that might be the reason the pain died down so much.

  Hmm...  The brain itself does not have nerves to feel pain. Head pain is always more external, bones muscles etc. The disability coming from the brain injury make sense but the pain doesn't. To me it looks like the impact caused some of the skull fissures to get jammed so your skull does not flex at the seams like it is meant to.
  I remember previously suggesting craniosacral therapy.

  I ask Goddess to handle it.
  I will mention last time I asked Goddess to handle a locked up skull the guy ended up getting whacked in the forehead with a TV converter... it worked! A Goddess delivered precision thump unlocked the plates and the bruise healed fast, but I personally prefer healing to be gentler...

I do feel kundalini flowing all the way up my back.  Recently, I have started to feel it loping over my head and running down the front (I go by the Chinese model of the Microcosmic orbit).

  Don't do that. There are many good reasons why the microcosmic orbit is not part of FST!!  The Chinese stuff is all patriarchal, its about control, scarcity and manipulating energy.

Kundalini does not like to flow downwards, is why even dumping overload we send it down, back to the earth but out the hands not the feet so the flow up the spine is not reversed. Sending K downwards instead of surrendering to let it flow as Goddess wills, is just going to trigger a lot of muddy shadow crap resistance and make you feel worse.

Chinese K is about trying to control Goddess... Free will is Goddess law but under such constraints awakening does not attain full potential, instead there are odd power chakra distortions like "zen and the art of chopping peoples heads off" warrior crap.
 


I don't really know for sure what I should feel with the Tummo.  In the last few months I do get absolutely parched and can't get enough water.  I thought that might be my medication.  I have wonder if it might be Tummo, because that is exactly how I felt when I had the initiation done.

  Possibly.. this spring I was moved to remotely examine many years worth of tummo activations done by me or on my behalf, give some folks a tune up. Deep trances, do not remember the details but most of it was time travelled so ...

Grounding is a life saver to me.  Especially right now.  This with my (ex?) wife is turning out to be the greatest humiliation of my life.  And I've been through a lot already.

Anyway, here's to better times.

Paris

When things get hard, and you are feeling a lot of projections remember that you have wings, and wrap them around you.

Thank you for all that. By the Chinese model of the microcosmic orbit I meant only that I was taught about "The Strange Flows" and the energy seems to flow in those patterns.  But now that I think of it, the strange flows may be Japanese.

As for patriarchy and control, I believe more along the lines of Taoism (which is Chinese): "The sage does nothing, yet nothing is left undone." Action through non-action is really hard -- especially now-- but it seems to be working. Life seems to be taking care of itself. (Funny how lessons are repeated until you catch on.) Control is the ultimate illusion. (I got that one from Kung Fu Panda.)

I did go for craniosacral.  It was excruciating!  Maybe I'll have to do it some more.