My Friends,
Yesterday I got motivated (during mediation) to post in Team Room and I like to share an episode on how Fire Serpent Tantra is changing my life.
Some weeks ago I went with my girls for swimming. I wanted to show them how to jump â€" and  I overestimated my skills and underestimated my mass - I hit the ground of the pool so hard that a bit of my front tooth broke and the lib started to bleed.
I came out of the pool and feelings of sadness and pain started â€" so I started to surrender them and I said Thank you Goddess for this (five times â€" I got this from the last chat â€" Thank you Mystress) and in the middle I realized  how lucky I was. I could I have ended up in the bottom of the pool and I was alone with the girls. â€" I felt deeply grateful and the pain was gone. Thank you Goddess. 

I am very grateful to be here â€" I am more relaxed as it is a great relieve for me to constantly surrender control to Goddess. I had no idea of how stressful it was before. 

I like to share this too.
Yesterday someone said something to me that really hurt me - My first reaction was to be provocative and ironic (seems a pattern that I developed as reaction) but then I started to surrender the feeling of being hurt and got more feelings (sadness and loneliness) - I surrendered that feelings too and I practised to be thankfull for this and I got more insights and found the root cause in my childhood. Processing my karma is like pealing an onion 

Thank you. 

  It is a delight watching you growing, Ernst.

  Your attitude to clearing stuff is right on. Gratitude and surrender, surrender and gratitude, stay grounded and the process lifts you up and carries you on a wave of joy.
 

Thank you and your linage - thanks to all who support FST. Thank you for teaching.
FST is so mysterious so magical (really like an iceberg most of it invisible) - all lessons seem to me linked to experiences you make right when you are in the lesson. I am now in the "Grounding in one breath" and I have the feeling it works on my power chakra.
Oh yes - you are so right by saying men mostly live in the power chakra (once in a SL Chat) - at least me - I was/am a control freak without really knowing it. I thought of myself as easy going and letting things go... yeah right only as far as I can control them... excessive planning for everthing - taking responsibility for peoples life - and the root cause is always fear.

PS: I can feel it when I got you attention like if you read a post/email from me. Wow what an energy.

My Friends,
It is interesting for me to see the posts from August and to be aware of the amazing experiences I made in-between with the lessons.  Funny how my expectations in this course are constantly not met . Like I would held up a little cup to expect a drink and I end up in the sea.

I wanted to be really sure it is not a unique experience, before I share it but it happens now more often. After the grounding (I do it every day) and if I have time to mediate (basically on weekends) on my Divine Beloved afterwards â€" light in me raises up from my root chakra in a very very sensual way. I am missing the words here but is like the sweetest essence of orgasmic love fills me in a way I would like to die of joy.  I am addicted to it and I want to have more of it but it comes only if she wants and I surrender (fem-dom tantra) .
I said last time when it happened “Thank you my unconscious I am loving you. “ out laud and after a view repetitions I could hardly speak anymore, so much filled with love and joy.   

Writing this fills me with deep gratitude - Thank you so much for Fire Serpent Tantra. Thank you all so much for your service.