Not long ago, I had someone fly in astrally, when I layed down in my bed after I got tired and thought it was unwanted empathy my body wanted to clear. The astral self of this person felt so invasive, as if he wanted to merge with me. I did feel a lot of love too, but it felt really intrusive. My whole body screamed in a silent no, (my shadow in defence of my boundaries) and then he left. But then I've felt it as he has tried to get inside my head. Anybody have any comments or insight on this?

Thanks... Affirming that Goddess has it handled.

If you have asked Goddess/DB to filter out entities from your conciousness, but still seems to be bugged by them, it makes me think that maybe you are not experiening  entities, but that you are hallucinating and that it is a psychosis. If it's the latter, maybe a psychologist would be the right person to talk to it about.

Edward

I want to add that I am in no way competent to assess whether another person is actually experiencing entities or if it is a hallucination/psychosis.  Mystress and her lineage may be more suited to do that.


Edward

Quote from: edward on Apr 14, 2012, 06:34:23 AM
If you have asked Goddess/DB to filter out entities from your conciousness, but still seems to be bugged by them, it makes me think that maybe you are not experiening  entities, but that you are hallucinating and that it is a psychosis. If it's the latter, maybe a psychologist would be the right person to talk to it about.

Edward

This can be very hurtful to write something like this.  In my own experience, asking isn't enough, it is the faith that these things will be removed is what really does the work.  I am not lineage either, just stating my experience.

I am not offended. People get to believe whatever they want, and think whatever they do about me. I know that I am not hallucinating though. It was the astral self of a person. But what I gained from it, was feeling good, because I was able to defend my body's boundaries. Getting better at it... This happened before I suddenly got all these entities and stuff.

Edward’s suggestion is sound. There is a page on the k-teacher site on Doctors. http://kundalini-teacher.com/symptoms/doctors.php

Drawing on from all your posts both recent and from a few months back (because this seems to be a continuous pattern for you).

Have you considered the possibility that you crave attention?

You don’t enjoy it when things invade your personal space or violate your boundaries.  It’s obvious that you don’t like it because you complain about it. You play the victim and don't seem to acknowledge your self-responsibility.

However, you really do enjoy the phenomena and speaking about your experiences. It feeds your ego. You enjoy being able to perceive ghosts, have empathy, have all these ‘wonderful’ sensations and other things in your unfolding process. You also seem to have somehow experienced all the things other people describe themselves to have experienced (e.g. someone might say...I have experienced this... And you go...Oh yes, I have too!... Also, Mystress might have written about it (her experiences) and somehow you've experienced most of those experiences too. Who knows what is real and what is not... we only have what you share on here to go on). 

You seem to enjoy writing about your each and every experience.  You’re attached to it because it gives you a sense of ‘specialness’.  And you speak about your experiences because you’re after validation â€" validating your sense of self (specialness) because you hold a lot of insecurities. What would you be without these phenomena? How would you feel if all these experiences suddenly disappeared? You probably don’t want to change because changing means giving up (surrendering) all of the above. As Edward touched upon in your other topic â€" ‘Hanging with others who are different from me’ .

If someone offers you constructive criticism (you’ve received a lot from a lot of people here) you dismiss it or give excuses for your behaviour. You contradict yourself. You complain about something and ask for comments and insights. And when you do receive constructive criticism that does not align with what you (ego) want to hear you essentially say that it is wrong or ignore it outright. You avoid it and shut out the possibilities - you cling to your limited viewpoints/perceptions.

For example, in your other post you said you disliked attention and when offered constructive criticism you contradicted yourself and went on to say that you don’t mind the attention. If it was okay to begin with why are you posting for help/insight? When Mari validated your experiences and said she understood you... you ‘glowed’. Why? Because you got what you were craving for... attention. More validation for your ‘stories’.

Drawing from a post a few months back (in your Twindragon’s thread in the Temple section)... Mystress gave you a really insightful post into your issues which you rejected and gave excuses for. One issue she explored which I touched up on above was ‘specialness’...

You said in response to Mystress... “I am not trying to put myself above anyone. I am just sharing, my experiences. I am not special. I'm just me. I don't want to be special either, or seen of as special. Everyone is anyway. I am not looking for attention.

One of the main reasons I post in this tea room, is because I am redirected to Goddess in myself, and often get insights on the stuff as I write it. I am not really open or closed for comments... I just appreciate a place to post, where I am redirected to Goddess in myself, if I have been "off" track.”

If you’re re-directed to Goddess in yourself why do you ask for others input or insights in your postings? Also, if writing allows you to get insights you don’t necessarily have to do it here. Why do you do it here? You could easily buy a journal or open up Microsoft word and type your thoughts up in there. Goddess will respond to you in private, have faith. What does it truly mean to post in a public space? What do you get from it? When you choose to post here you’re essentially posting to an audience (airing your dirty laundry for all to see). What are your underlying/hidden motivations? It goes back to validation and craving attention (your insecurity issues).  People don’t do things unless there is some reward in it for them.  It’s vampiric. A bottom-less pit that is never satisfied no matter how much energy it gets. Why should people respond or give attention to that? Why should they feed you? I guess you can always entertain the illusion that they do 

You don’t have to do this (carry on and do as you wish), but I offer the suggestion to go back and re-read all your posts (and other people’s responses to you!). Look at it from the witness perspective. Examine your story and try to see if you can pick up key themes you’ve missed in your writings. See if you can see your 'Shadow'.  Re-read the Empathy and Solar Plexus pages on the K-teacher site because they do pertain to your issues - although you might not see it yet. Surrender everything that comes up.

And that's it from me

Blessings!

melodicvibrations,

Why do you think suggesting seeing a psychologist is hurtful?

If a person might benefit from seeing a psychologist due to past trauma, have  you considered that it might be hurtful for the person by not seeking medical intervention?

For many years I saw some of my reactions as just some spiritual stuff that could be solved spiritually. When I was advised to consider traditional psychology, and started seeing a psychologist,  I have gotten insight and awareness into my PTSD and bipolar patterns.

Wilhelm Reich stayed and taught in Norway for 5 years, and because of that the country is known for it's large Reichian thought based psychoanalytical community.


Edward

Quote from: melodicvibrations on Apr 14, 2012, 08:41:07 AM
[This can be very hurtful to write something like this.  In my own experience, asking isn't enough, it is the faith that these things will be removed is what really does the work.  I am not lineage either, just stating my experience.

I didn't say it was harmful, I said diagnosing someone over the internet is.  Blessings

melodicvibrations,

Who is diagnosing?


Edward

Hi,
TwinDragon
Remember that spirituality is a do it yourself process. You either do it or not do it, there is no must do there, so you can take it easy.

I offten question faith, really. If I wish that Godess has it handled, but in my soul, I dont belive so. Than I lie to myself, I try to fake it, Its no help, I see that.
Should I lie to myself? I tought so myself some time ago. For a Godess to demand from me to be a pretender and layer in exchange for assuring her protection, just smells like sulphurous clouds.

Ofcourse when it is demanded by a popular religion (or family) and you would be burned at stake or excluded from comunity and normal life then the smell becomes more agreable
by the minute. Until one doesnt notice it anymore.

It is better to say so, to admit so.  Yes Godess Im sorry, I know that I should belive that you have it handled. But I dont...
I should love you and adore you but I do truly feel, think ..... That you are a .....  Or just stare the facts straight into the eyes. Truth is scary and you knew inside all along.
But once you admit it. Ok. You are free, and free to ask: why do I think Godess doesent have it handled. And then it is just you and your karma, easy task.

Our situation in life is not a problem, our emotions at present are not a problem. But our effort to supress emotions, that is in entertainig way a problem.
No pretense needed, you are loved always and will be. There is not realy a call to please while hurting inside or to get punished. Demons or etc. are not the issue here, just good friends trying to point you to something.
So maybe an old tune is replaying some game of protection and survival. Try total honesty, you certantly would not be any less by throwing out a lot.

I also thought that maybe there is no need to put on the forum pleas and surrender to be heard as one would it put to a priest. We can serve the Godess within us.
And she does hear. And we can listen when she speaks or chose not to and just play it for fun.
So honesty and reexamining all that doesent fit, that is certanly a good step. External help without that internal part, sharp intent to find and let go is not realy usefull.

with love,
Duu

I want to appologize for the past posts here on this board. I have just been unable to surrender stuff, and there's a lot of stuff in my life I need to take care of. I am truly sorry if it has seemed like I have put myself above anyone here, it was never my intention to do so. And I know you are all Goddess, so why would I want to put myself above anyone here? I respect you. Besides you have all reflected something in me when responding, so thanks.

Love from Sara.

I am dreamwalker, the other Shaman that Mystress is training. I would like to apologize for the delay in responding to your post.
I was the one that Mystress  had sent to heal your narcissist well. I was the first to benefit from the narcissist well technique. The reason you felt my presence at all was because you were in a state of resistance. What you felt was my love shining through as I healed you. Because you were in a state of resistance, that feeling of love was seen as an unwelcome violation of your boundaries. Shadow does an amazing job at deceiving.

Mystress asked me because she felt I had the most experience in clearing narcissist wells. Your healing was a success on my side. Unfortunately, being in a state of resistance so you did not notice.The fruit of the healing is waiting for you. It sits in a package at your doorstep. All that needs to be done is your willingness to surrender your resistance.

We are all here to support you in surrendering this resistance. You must take the first step to resolving the state you are in. You have to want to help yourself , before we can help pull you out of the resistance hole you have dug.

First I would like to thank you for having worked on/with me. But what is a narcissist wall? Was this when I felt someone with me in my appartment and there was something I felt I encountered when I was looking into something, I felt a wall that sort of hit me. And I felt kind of weak because I didn't just let the energy flow right through me. And then I heared a lot of mentally harsh words coming at me towards my left side. Another time I started to think these words as if they were coming from myself, as if I was spewing something on someone/something, and then I thought what the h*** is going on here, and then I noticed someone to my left. It's all a bit confusing, I'm not going to look more into it, and create more confusion. Just letting the whole thing go. I am confused because I do not feel it was my wall, because it felt like I was encountering it, as I was curious about something, tuned in on something I shouldn't have. But if it was my own stuff, thanks for contributing to healing it... I am just not entirely sure it was my own stuff. Umm, I didn't feel your love as a violation of boundaries. I'm just not used to the exchange of love in duality (being sensitive to energy sometimes makes me want to block it all out, but I know I have a choice to filter.) I'm more used to and prefer the unconditional love from Goddess and DB direcly, and energy excanges beyond that tend to make me overwhelmed or confused. Right now I'm in a power chakra clearing process as well, entities and stuff... power games. Also, unrepressing aspects of myself that I've resisted since maybe 10th grade. I know I've written some stuff here that I realize I should have written in a different way, because it came out seeming like something I didn't mean. Apologies for that. Thanks to both you and Mystress, even though it's still a little confusing.