I'm stuck on the Opening the Heart Chakra/Clearing Entities lessons, and I feel it's because I may have an entity of some tenacious sort clinging to the right side of my heart center.  From there, whatever it is branches out through the entire right side of my body.  It feels as if there is a distinct split down my central axis, the right side with very sore, tight muscles and clogged energy, and the left side much more clear, flowing, and pain-free.  Even inside my head I feel this division, the right side feeling like it has a think, dense outer layer of karma, or something, that is nearly ready to dissolve and clear away. 

This right side entity, if that is what it is, has been weakening and releasing little by little lately, but it is very stubborn and seems to creep back in at night as I sleep.

Anyway, when I listen for my heart voice, I do not get an answer.  The closest answer I get is a feeling that I need to come back (and readdress the heart voice), after this "entity" is gone.   I haven't gotten any definite response to the question, "Do you love me?"

Maybe it is harder for my ego to accept that unconditional love than I initially assumed...

If anyone has insights into these experience, I'd definitely appreciate hearing them.

Thank yous!

I sometimes also feel the right side of the body different than the left.
I think it might be because Im working with pc, mouse and so more intensely right handed.
But anyhow I think tenser feelings of the right side of the body should not necessary
be a hindrance towards hearing the heart voice. It is very important to be completely grounded,
tingling, being in here and now. And from that state listening to subtle inner voice
or signs it gives you as good feelings. And all other voices of criticism or some
that want to remove you from here and now gained by grounding to some other task especially to the future or showing if-then mentality should be just observed or cleaned as appropriate.
Sometimes the process can take some time it is best to stay grounded, observing inner states and do cleaning.

Thanks for replying, Duu.  Your reminder to make sure I'm grounded is well taken.   Like you said, it can take time, and my patience seems to have been renewed from hearing that from you. : )

It's funny - after posting this topic, I felt the "entity" break down and release a great deal more, even before I got any feedback here in the Tea Room.  It truly seemed like just the act of posting brought me some of the help for which I was looking.

I also have started to feel a sensation of heat in my chest and upper back now when I address my heart center.  I actually start to perspire in that area when I give this exercise all my focus, and feel the space in my chest inflate.  Signs of progress, I think. 

As far as the entity, I believe it is a deeply rooted thought-form from a decade ago at least.  Something that I am at least partially responsible for creating.  I gave it energy for a looong time, and I don't want to do that anymore.  I think that you make a good point, Duu, when you say it shouldn't hinder my ability to connect with my heart voice.

All Love,
Slapdash

hahaha yes! the act of posting always seems to work in that way.  its like goddess replies before anyone else. 

Quote from: John Wayne Black on Oct 12, 2011, 02:53:44 PM
hahaha yes! the act of posting always seems to work in that way.  its like goddess replies before anyone else. 

  Its true. She does. This forum is a temple.

Right side of the body represents will, ego.  Left side represents unconscious. Somtimes variable in left handed folks.  So its actually pretty normal to feel more tension stuff on the right than the left.

  I dont think you have an entity, you are feeling the tension ego creates in the body, and your persistence is making progress breaking it down to make room for Goddess.

  is all good. No worries.