Hello,

Things are forming, taking shape. Some neat things happened to me in two days. I learned a lot.

Some WW2 aircraft flew in to our local airport yesterday. I was pretty surprised to find a TBM Avenger sitting out there.

This is what they look like.. They are big!
http://www-micrel.deis.unibo.it/~michele/aircrafts/tbm.jpg

Cool. Was walking around touching all the planes practicing on being just me among everyone. Something turned on in me when I was looking at the TBM. Something I had not felt in a very long time. Met the pilot of the TBM and he was this really nice guy, pretty similer to myself in a lot of ways. Everyone would come up and say silly things and he would just let it slide with a comment. Not getting involved in any way. I can learn from this guy! So I start asking obscure questions about the aircraft's history and he picks up right away that I'm not there to tell him about my uncle or something, but here to hang out. We talk about little known Luftwaffe aicraft from late '45, composite design, all sorts of fun stuff. This guys energy is great, he knows something that I dont... He tells me how he got into aviation. He doesn't really know, he wanted to fly, he didn't know where he would get the money, but he just did it. And he then went to fly bigger and bigger planes till he could fly this monster torpedo bomber because, he just really wanted to, and worked at it. He loves it. He has a great life on top of this too. I got the impression that this guy was in touch with inner guidence even though he doesn't know it. He knows what to do without questioning it. So he goes, never stopped to think. And he gets what he wants out of life. He is in tune with the plan. I know he was working on feelings and instinct.

So were talking and he starts looking at people getting to close to his plane. He starts getting this complaint tone to his voice. I thought this was the beginning of the emotion dump that usualy comes in at this point. Get ready to duck out.. And he just tells me he can't understand why people do not respect private property and are always climbing on the wings and opening the cockpit, and how he would like to punch all of them. This was the worst he had. I thought this was great! Every once in a while he would have to go and chase someone off that was trying to walk all over his plane. But we talked some more about everything. So I learned this.

Lesson 1. Find new people to hang out with that have little or no karma, they dont hurt, and have lessons for me about life. Never dump on me. They do exist!

We talk vintage fighters and how they are raced now. How they crash a lot because of this and are lost to history because of stuped people. I start to get mad at this injustice to everything. He just says, "Well thats there plane, they bought it, not me, they can paint it pink for all I care and fly it in circles and crash it if they want." And thats it. He moved on. No more thoughts on it. Huh? How did he do that?! This is a major issue here that can get me hung up, and he just brushed it away no problem.

He knew it would be a hang up, and totaly dismissed it without even thinking about it. Because he cant change it. He takes care of what he has and puts energy there. Nothing wasted on useless thoughts. I need to use this..

Lesson 2. People all own there lives. They own it. Not me. They can paint themselves pink and run around in circles on fire for all I care.  I take care of what I have. Thats me. Thats it. End of thoughts.

So then he starts telling me that its not to late to start flying. And that if I wanted to I could fly planes like this. Just go do it. He said he started late too in this but look what he flies! He was really confident in me. I felt things awaken in me more.

Since I was little I've always wanted to fly planes. Number one goal in life was to be a fighter pilot. I know "a lot" about different aircraft types and combat tactics. This was all I wanted to do. But things went crazy in me before I could go to college. So this number one goal for me had been buried. Along with my sense of the future, my goals, my dreams, my happyness. Everything was lost to me. He woke these things up again and told me not to give up working on it because I can do it. I looked at his story and his plane and said... "Yes... I can!" And feeling I got inside was "Yes!" Things turned on.

It was really cool because I felt something return inside. Something that was me, and was now filling me up again. And there was more of me than I have felt in a long long time. And there was less room for anything or anyone else but me and my thoughts, and what I wanted to do. First new thought was...

"I'm going to fly this."

Not.  How will I ever? I dont think I could... I wonder what it would be like... I dont think I have the money..Just...

"I'm going to do this and a lot of other things to."

Confident. End of discussion. Done.

Then.. "I really want to fly this. I'm going to stop doing all of this spiritual stuff and become a pilot! Now.. How much money do I have in my pocket for lessons?."

But then I realised that could not happen. Since the day before something absolutely incredible happened. No denying. I even tried lol! I was trying to forget the bad past in one big push right then in about 5 seconds. So then after thinking about it for a bit with my new understanding of myself and my problems with making anything that I do fail...

"I'll ask Goddess to set me up with lessons and a chance to fly these planes."

Done. Finished. Complete.

Then I thought... What is this in me thats me? I like it! Its great.. People can't get into me hardly at all, my thoughts are with myself a lot!  I thought about it... and then..

HAHAHAHA! It must be my ego! I wanted to do everything. I wanted to shut out everything and just move in one direction right then. I thought this was so funny because I see all the time about ego smashing and letting go and giving it to Godess and all of that...  And here I am with Godess giving me one back! Hahahahah! This has been going on for a while now. I'm getting built up again inside, but I didnt know what it was all really about. I actually tried to resist it because of all this ego is bad talk.. But I just said.. ok, come on in.. This is what the plan must be. And I felt so much better about everything. So myself. My thoughts with me only. I feel my sense of a future come back. My sense of self importance, self reliance. Like I know what is going on inside now. Confidant. I can do whatever I want. But what was important was I know about all of this stuff that I've been learning here. I blended the two together. It feels really good..

I mean I had NOTHING inside of me before... Nothing. Not even me. Suddenly I'm solid again! And I can't waste my time on anyone else thinking about them blowing my good energy. I've got me to get going.

I felt threads connecting me to things fall away that I no longer care about, because they are useless to me, and not worth thinking about. Felt a ton better. I looked at the threads again. Not many now. One to here, the tea room. One to another person that helps me. Thats it. Done. I dont need them anymore. I'm not worried at all about it either. This is correct. Energy redirected to the future, and only where I need it.

Lesson 3. Good people can turn on what others have turned off. People that I can relate to actually do exist in this existance!

So that ended day 1.

Day 2:

I walk around. People that would normaly get to me. Dont. I make sure I stay in the pillar, and let everyone be. Its good. How do I feel today? Strange.. I'm unsure how to act as myself.... I'm bigger.

The TBM would not start for the parade. It was cool, we tried everything. Pushed it around and spun the prop, checked the fuel.. Nothing was working. Battery went out. He charged it up and went inside to wait. Thus giving the locals a chance to talk to him where he could not move away. Of course people started telling him all about there problems,(he was similer to me after all!) something of a state pastime for some people here I think. But he would just sorta ignore them and they would stop. Or have a good saying to dissmiss them. I almost started to laugh and yell out,

"Welcome to hell!.. I mean New Hampshire!"

So this one guy that was doing this to everyone there comes up and says 1 thing about planes and starts telling him about all the horrable things that was done to him or something. I find this pretty funny, I can see what usually hits me go to someone else for once. I was going to break in and save him. But held back. I wanted to see his responce to this treatment so I could do the same.... Total time waiting... 5 minutes... Guy went on for 1 more minute while the pilot was using remarks that were not working. So what did he do? Didnt even think. A switch was hit.

He jumped right up. "I think its all ready to go. Lets start it up." And walked out to his plane. They closed the gate behind them too. Didnt do that before. It started up amaizingly, but the fuel pump was not working right. Tried a few other things. They parked it and covered it up. They'll come back for it tomorrow... He goes inside again.. I wait outside... He comes back in 5 minutes like I had thought he would looking pretty determined. Another run in with a local I bet. He's not staying here. He pulls off the cover and jumps in. Fires it up. Tells his friend to get in. Guns down the runway and takes off. No flyby, no wagging wings. Gone.

Lesson 4. I'm not the only one that thinks like I do about this. You can defeat the emotion dumps by flying away in a torpedo bomber to a better land  If your instincts tell you to leave. Leave. Let your guidence flow without thought. They know where you should be.

Thanks for reading all of this. I know it was a lot. But I mean so many things all came together that I've been learning here all at once.

New things are happening..

Sean

   This post made me laugh and applaud! Now I am thinking, and touched with wonder.

  Did you find out the pilots name? What did he look like?

  I am filled with wonder, because it sounds like you met my Guru... or rather, the one person on the planet who is as close as I ever came to having one. Wow. Really...
  Richard Bach... he travels airshows, often using a pseudonym, he can fly anything... and always flies away from crowds when they get to be too much.  

   His books have been my bibles since I was 12 years old. If I were to name one person, one author who has had the most profound effect on my spiritual path, it would be him.

   I too, always wanted to fly... and will, in a few years when some of my own books are written.

  Thank you for sharing this, Sean...

:    Richard Bach... he travels airshows, often using a pseudonym, he can fly anything... and always flies away from crowds when they get to be too much.  

I was traveling to Gatlinburg, TN...this was 13 years ago.  Going down 75 and i saw 2 biplanes just sort of idling over the highway.  I was overwhelmed.  Even told my companion i was *sure* one of them was Don Shimoda....

Peace,
carla

  Heh heh... and it doesn't really matter if objectively it was true, or not... yeah, I was thinking of that too... what matters, is how the belief makes me feel!

  I am walking around with a little smile on my face, and I cannot really explain why... I've never met Richard Bach in person, and to spend some time hanging out with him is one desire I could not release. If I did meet him I'd probably get all starstruck and act like a goof.
  It is like a piece of me found completion, through Sean's experience. Sweet. Thanks, Sean.

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: :    Richard Bach... he travels airshows, often using a pseudonym, he can fly anything... and always flies away from crowds when they get to be too much.  

: I was traveling to Gatlinburg, TN...this was 13 years ago.  Going down 75 and i saw 2 biplanes just sort of idling over the highway.  I was overwhelmed.  Even told my companion i was *sure* one of them was Don Shimoda....

: Peace,
: carla

:   I am walking around with a little smile on my face, and I cannot really explain why... I've never met Richard Bach in person, and to spend some time hanging out with him is one desire I could not release. If I did meet him I'd probably get all starstruck and act like a goof.

I, too, really enjoyed Sean's post. This is a blast from the past... I read all of Bach's books years ago. Great stuff. Reading these posts makes me want to go to the library to do a few re-reads. I think I shall .

Hello Mystress,

I never got the guys name. He was really tall. Taller than me. Short blondish hair. 30 something years. He flies for the Colins Group. They resore vintage aircraft in Mass.

I'm going to go and get some of Mr. Bach's books today. Sounds like something I can relate to. Cool. Thanks.

And its neat to see that you to want to fly, and got something out of my story to make you smile  Great.  I'm pretty happy with all of this as well. Have to get some sort of flight patch with a motto or something, here are some examples..

"Enlightenment from above."
"You cant get me up here"
"Karma Attack Group"

heh...

Anyways this Sudden Personality Change or, S.P.C. Puts me to sleep heh. So I'm either going out to do a LOT of things today... or just going  back to bed...

Take care..

Sean

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:  Hello Mystress,

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:  I never got the guys name. He was really tall. Taller than me. Short blondish hair. 30 something years. He flies for the Colins Group. They resore vintage aircraft in Mass.

Younger than RB, but otherwise similar. Probably one of his fans.

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:  I'm going to go and get some of Mr. Bach's books today. Sounds like something I can relate to. Cool. Thanks.

Enjoy!

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:  And its neat to see that you to want to fly, and got something out of my story to make you smile

It did... it was somehow very fulfilling.
I don't mind not having a pilots licence.  I gave up my goal of becoming a pilot for a career in high school when I discovered that 20/20 vision is a requirement. Since then I learned to fly, in other ways. Flying for me was a metaphor for spiritual freedom.

  Still, my plan is to move farther North and having a bush plane would be a useful thing. So, pilot school is on the agenda, but I have some books to write, first.

: Great.  I'm pretty happy with all of this as well. Have to get some sort of flight patch with a motto or something, here are some examples..

: "Enlightenment from above."
: "You cant get me up here"
: "Karma Attack Group"

:  heh...

Sounds pretty aggressive. Are you sure you want that for a prayer?
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:  Anyways this Sudden Personality Change or, S.P.C. Puts me to sleep heh. So I'm either going out to do a LOT of things today... or just going  back to bed...

Yup, growing makes ya sleep like a baby. I had some additional thoughts to your post... here they are:

:  Lesson 1. Find new people to hang out with that have little or no karma, they dont hurt, and have lessons for me about life. Never dump on me. They do exist!

They do, and as your vibration increases, you start to find each other more easily.

:  He knew it would be a hang up, and totally dismissed it without even thinking about it. Because he cant change it. He takes care of what he has and puts energy there. Nothing wasted on useless thoughts. I need to use this..

Mindfulness. It just takes practice. These are the very moments of your life passing away. When a moment passes, you can never get it back. They are precious, and become ever more precious if you value them enough to spend them wisely. "Follow your Bliss".
Richard Bach would say, "If your happiness depends on what someone else does, then you do have a problem."

:  Lesson 2. People all own there lives. They own it. Not me. They can paint themselves pink and run around in circles on fire for all I care.  I take care of what I have. Thats me. Thats it. End of thoughts.

(Big Buddha belly laughter of truth, and applause!!!)  Yes. You got it! Yaaaaay!!  You got your wings!!

   Free Will is Goddess Law. You cannot make anyone happy or unhappy, except yourself. Focus on what makes you happy, because that is Goddess Will for you... and people will be happy around you. It is nice to be around genuinely happy, fulfilled people.

 Love yourself, and you will be love.  Let Goddess handle what everybody else does. She does not need you to play Savior.
  She does not need me to play Savior either... It is my choice, to do the work because it is so beautiful to watch people finding their wings and learning to fly!
  The first Richard Bach book I ever read, age 12 was about a misfit seagull who spent his life outcast then ascended, and chose to come back to teach other misfits about enlightenment via advanced flight training. I was an outcast misfit when I read it, and it gave me a powerful K. experience that I still have not much memory of.  

:So this number one goal for me had been buried. Along with my sense of the future, my goals, my dreams, my happyness. Everything was lost to me.

Yeah, that's what happens to people. They fall into a pattern of "should" and forget the dreams that set them on fire when they were children, forget themselves, and lose their soul. They forget that the world never stopped being a miraculous wide open field of possibilities. The world becomes a small dark box we call ego, and the soul is too big to fit in there. It ends up on the outside of the box.

 You never lost it, Sean... but you gave it away, when you gave your power away to despair. What you have found, is your soul. You broke out of the box and your higher self has come down into your body to take it's proper place, running the show. This is what we healers call a "soul retrieval".
 In the presence of someone who is whole, you experienced wholeness. Sometimes, it is nice to be an empath, eh? Receptive to gifts.  

:He woke these things up again and told me not to give up working on it because I can do it. I looked at his story and his plane and said... "Yes... I can!" And feeling I got inside was "Yes!" Things turned on.

It is the resonance, when Goddess says yes! When your soul sings its truth. When your higher self confirms your path.

:  "I'm going to fly this."

Yup. Why ever not? Who told you to give up your dreams? Nobody did, nobody can. You did it, then you undid it again.

:   Not.  How will I ever? I dont think I could... I wonder what it would be like... I dont think I have the money..Just...

Heh heh... THAT STUFF is the voice of your ego. The voice of fear and limitation that you have been giving your power away to and letting run the show.

:  "I'm going to do this and a lot of other things too."

:  Confident. End of discussion. Done.

Amen. So mote it be. Thank you Goddess. Then let it go, in faith that Goddess provides.

This is prayer: Thought + feeling + emotion, in the now. Then let it go.

On Friday I looked out my front door at the lawn needing raking. I had a thought, Goddess can and will bring someone nice to rake them for a few $$. Pleased me. Done.
 24 hours later, a nice man with a 7 year old boy rang my doorbell and offered to do it for $15. I asked them to bag the litter and put the leaves into the compost bin, and gave them $20. Thank you Goddess.

 The universe sees no difference in scale, or effort between sending me a lawn guy and giving me a million dollars. It is me that thinks one is a bigger deal. That is my own scarcity stuff.

:  But then I realised that could not happen. Since the day before something absolutely incredible happened. No denying. I even tried lol! I was trying to forget the bad past in one big push right then in about 5 seconds. So then after thinking about it for a bit with my new understanding of myself and my problems with making anything that I do fail...

Anything your ego tried to do.... crashed.

: "I'll ask Goddess to set me up with lessons and a chance to fly these planes."

:  Done. Finished. Complete.

You got it. You have learned to let the smarter, infinite part of you handle your life... fly on faith and not give energy to fear.  The monkey is no longer at the controls of the space shuttle, and "Ground control" will smoothly carry you to follow your bliss.
 Learning mindfullness to practice this in all areas of your life may take some time... but you have all those years of misery to motivate you. They will come in handy, for that.

:  Then I thought... What is this in me thats me? I like it! Its great.. People can't get into me hardly at all, my thoughts are with myself a lot!  I thought about it... and then..

:  HAHAHAHA! It must be my ego!

Well, Goddess does not care what you call Her, so you can call Her Ego, if you like, but it will make our conversations very confusing.
 What you are feeling, is your soul. Your Self. Your Spirit. Your Truth.

:And here I am with Godess giving me one back! Hahahahah! This has been going on for a while now. I'm getting built up again inside, but I didnt know what it was all really about.

You surrendered fear, and Goddess gave back Truth. Sean, the K. path is to clear your body of karma and limiting beliefs of ego, so that your body becomes a temple of your Spirit. So that your higher self/soul can come down and live in your body and you are that. I told you about this, a few weeks ago when you were talking about how good it feels to leave your body and be spirit.

 Enlightenment is not about becoming some cookie cutter ideal of a spiritual person, who wears robes and goes on and on about it all the time... it is becoming more fully, completely, your own unique Self. Spirit in skin, experiencing the passion and beauty of being human. The navigation system is bliss and love. Passion.
 What you fear, comes from the karma programming content we call ego. What you love, comes from the real you, Goddess within you. When your whole being is focused on love, there is no room for fear. There is Grace, and life carries you along in the arms of Love. Then nothing can hurt you, and you walk through walls.

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:  I felt threads connecting me to things fall away that I no longer care about, because they are useless to me, and not worth thinking about. Felt a ton better. I looked at the threads again. Not many now. One to here, the tea room. One to another person that helps me. Thats it. Done. I dont need them anymore. I'm not worried at all about it either. This is correct. Energy redirected to the future, and only where I need it.

Lovely. I'm very proud of you! One thing tho... tomorrow never comes, so giving your energy away to the future is... not so effective as using it in the Now. What I am saying is, when you send out a prayer, imagine it already done. Imagine yourself flying the plane. The past is a memory, the future is a dream. Don't live for the future, live for the beauty of the now.
  Whether you become a pilot in the future, or not is not important, except for how the dream feels, in the now. In the now, you got your wings and you have learned how to fly. Last week I told you, "remember your wings. The wings are the key to freedom".
  You did it, and I am very proud of you. That the metaphor of airplane wings flipped the switch is very kewl.

 You and I have been kind of intertwined, these past few days leading up to when you posted this.  All of you are always as close as my thoughts, but as I have been in retreat sorting out my own stuff I have been getting some very interesting insights about empathy and the behavior patterns of.. "highly sensitive people"... so many I could write a book, but I think it has already been done and I was reading it through you. Thank you.

:   Lesson 3. Good people can turn on what others have turned off. People that I can relate to actually do exist in this existence!

You knew that, already..

:  So this one guy that was doing this to everyone there comes up and says 1 thing about planes and starts telling him about all the horrable things that was done to him or something.

Yeah, it is a little bit inevitable... comes of being a higher vibe person, partly. Not just what you project, but what people unconsciously see in you. The Light that you are is all everyone wants. They do not know how to find it in themselves. They cannot see it because they are too preoccupied with focusing on problems... just as you were. Forgive them, forgive yourself.

:  Lesson 4. I'm not the only one that thinks like I do about this. You can defeat the emotion dumps by flying away in a torpedo bomber to a better land  If your instincts tell you to leave. Leave. Let your guidence flow without thought. They know where you should be.

Listen to your body-mind. Let it guide you.
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:  Thanks for reading all of this. I know it was a lot. But I mean so many things all came together that I've been learning here all at once.

It was lovely. You know, the metaphor for what I saw... when the student is ready, the teacher appears. When the student is ready for the teachers teacher to appear, then they have graduated the teacher. The point of this course is to teach you what you have just demonstrated knowing. The rest, is mindfullness.    

  Blessings!

:  New things are happening..

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:  Sean

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:  Take care..

:  Sean

Hello Mystress,

Thank you so much for that follow up! So many things have opened up for me now that I know about all of that. Wow... Im pretty overwhelmed right now.. I'll come back later on.. Just wanted to say thank you!

Sean