It's been a crazy time lately. I know I have posted a lot here, but I feel like I need to share.

I've been seeing a guy lately, been partying, having him over for visits, and we've shared some intimacy and not just sexually. It went to the point where I really felt like I became him, even. I even knew which cards he was gonna pick when he was giving himself a reading from the Goddess guidance cards. And I sort of fell into being all that is, and my eyes would look at the cards and inner knowings came of which cards he would get. Not to mention the paralysation that I wrote about earlier.

I get the taste of liquorice root in my mouth when I'm with him lol.

I've been seeing so much stuff lately to. when I looked at him at times I would see lights etc and even some black bits that suddenly left him and just went away.

I also became aware at one point of unconcious communication (or higher self comunication) with another friend of mine. Another day earlier I had her over for a visit and the black part of my eyes were almost covering the rest, and she felt as if she saw right into me, that felt really odd to her. Don't know what it was all about but I was very grounded and present.

I also feel like I'm suddenly falling into trancendant states into the underworld, seeing shadows, shapes etc, where I can do nothing but surrender to whatever is or I get chills.

Read some stuff here that helped me a lot with that aspect of what I experience.

I also saw something one night that appeared as the colour goldenyellow and blue.

And another evening I has some folks over I started seeing something on one of the guy's left side, that was very similar.

And another day I saw some blackness inside of my head too. Other that that I see colours of light appearing in and around me and others, and I sort of see the the particles in the air.

Hmmm.. when I think about it I also see other people's unconcious or higher self right before I get a message from them etc. And I also see this indigo energy sometimes when I close my eyes.

I'm also in a very carefree state. It's almost as I would have taken drugs and yet I've never tried anything during my entire life. I get comments on that these things are similar to acid trips:P

Surrendering this entire thing to Goddess Shakti....

Don't know what this is all sbout but just feel like sharing.