Its been a roller coaster ride lately some amazing things and some things that still unground me. For the 3rd time while showering I've experienced a feeling of being Christ on the crucifix. I take it as a metaphor for the heart chakra opening some more but there are some things that still shake me about it...the crucifix experience feels like a ritual I can sense the burn on my back of being whipped and the crown of thorns but I am saved from fully experiencing it there's this fear that the more I allow it the more pain will be felt. It also feels as though I am balancing on a razor thin line between life and death while these sensations occur, falling forward is life falling backward is death. I keep surrendering the fear of continuing and I keep receiving the message that I have all the time I need.

Another thing I've been experiencing a lot over the last 2-3 days is a sense of being able to communicate with others telepathically we play out some  life situations and we are able to see the power struggle between us. There were a few entities that were cleared from my heart by talking to them  some were stubborn saying that I needed to fulfill some task or they wanted to grant me membership to some group one was a native american, with each insight I had it kept trying to associate itself with it. It kept trying to promise more gifts I turned that over to my guardian angels, The entity kept telling me I was a warrior and that pleased my ego for a moment until I realized the trick. Then we throw in time distortion into the mix and it gets really interesting sometimes it feels like I've gone thru a few years worth of thoughts just to look up and see only 5 minutes have passed this k stuff has really been revved up lately...

   
  I find energy is usually high around solstice, with lots of growth happening in the months after.  I dont believe in astrology but the moon and seasons do affect us, and on an archetypal level almost every culture has rituals to acknowledge the longest and shortest days.

   Hope everyone had great holidays!

         Blessings...

Hi Mystress,

I've noticed it in years past but nothing like this time around its been a lot more direct and less cryptic more during my waking hours than previous years which took place usually in dreams or in trance states...there seems to be a lot of dogmatic crap being cleared from me. When I was in my teens I got a cross tattoo on my left arm...now i've been having visions and dreams of a demon tearing my arm to pieces also being asked to accept Satan as part of all that is and actually having brief conversations with the Satan archtype at first fear filled me until I was able to remember to send unconditional love and it came back to me as a warm feeling in my heart of compassion feels beautiful something similar happened when doing the mirror game and having my face morph into an image of Hitler, another was having Van Goghs face come up in the mirror but that ungrounded me so many thoughts came into my head felt like I was going mad. Without this forum to share/vent these thoughts and experiences its easy to see how any one could go mad.

Thank you