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I have found out that as I'm walking around outside with other people around, I still have this issue with being too close to others, because of sensitivity to other's energy and stuff that I've experienced in the past. I've also gone through a period of post traumatic stress after being abused, that have propably caused my body to be on "defence" mode for quite some time.

I have experienced that when someone is walking towards me (even sometimes with groups of people), I sometimes get this reaction of anxiety, and I instantly feel that I don't want the person to be too close to me, and then the person actually avoids getting to close to me.  As if I do something with my energy to cause it.

If this is me influencing them or projecting, then I want to find a way to avoid that. I know desires are powerful and I don't want to project my desires on others. Is this just an illusion of my belief? Anyway I'm kind of tired or dealing with it..


If anyone has some ideas or thoughts about this, feel free to post...

I know I'm going through some transformations, and I'm letting go of some past beliefs.

I'm surrendering this to Goddess. Do with it as You think best. Thank you very much:)

I can only speak from my experience, and I can relate to what you write. Only thing different was that I seemed to attract people instead, even though I was trying to achieve the opposite.

When I focus fully on my body. From the inside, and care less about what the mind is thinking, everything on the outside seems fall in place. Just feeling the body.

For me the key is to keep my energy/focus inwards.


Edward

 

Interesting! Thanks for your reply:)

I have also experienced the opposite... Only in a different way, I was out with some people and tried to put my energy field back into an arm lenght around my body and what happened was the people around me at the time was getting closer to me as I took in my aura... Don't think I'm going to do stuff like that anymore though:)

Good advice, I try to mostly do that myself, keeping my attention inwards, but sometimes I sort of go out of my body and it gets difficoult to get back again, as I'm taking in stuff when I'm not "there". And I have to do some cleansing to be comfortable in myself again.. I realize that I have to follow my body or else my soul/energy jumps out if there's something going on somewhere that gets me curious... I have to go where I want to be or my energy will go without my body lol!:P

I remember why I created the "ability" to defend myself through other means than the physical. I manifested the ability to defend myself by sending my thoughts and emotions to others. It is a nice ability to have, thank you Goddess for that. But I don't think I need it anymore, and I feel that I have used it where it has not been needed (in stated of post traumatic stress) and I am giving it back to you. I don't need it for I don't need the situation where it is needed. It's yours. Goddess do with it as You think best. Thank you very much.

Twin dragon wrote: Good advice, I try to mostly do that myself, keeping my attention inwards, but sometimes I sort of go out of my body and it gets difficoult to get back again, as I'm taking in stuff when I'm not "there". And I have to do some cleansing to be comfortable in myself again.. I realize that I have to follow my body or else my soul/energy jumps out if there's something going on somewhere that gets me curious... I have to go where I want to be or my energy will go without my body lol!:P

   I get that all the time. As your energy gets refined with surrender it becomes more self cleaning, but it also means there is a bigger influx if you arent present.  Turning inward becomes a more essential discipline.

    Blessings...

I think I have experienced that now... That the more my attention goes from within, the more stuff from outside flows in... Glad that I know this now, I didn't understand it before:)

I also find that grounding gets easier when I do kinesiology balancing, to manifest it, and get the energy to flow... And some affirmations:)

And my throat chakra is starting to open, wee:)

Blessings to you too!