What i%rsquove learned/how life is changed, through the Fire Serpent Tantra online course.

While sitting here trying to begin this essay, i%rsquove found that trying to describe what i%rsquove
learned is a phenomenal task.  I%rsquove learned to see the feminine in the Creator.  The
understanding of male/female in terms of Shiva and Shakti.  Critter busting.  I%rsquove
acquired better visualization skills.  When i%rsquom listening to the internal dialogue(s), i can
play who%rsquos who with some level of accuracy.  I can tap into the power of love.  I can
recognize and hear that still, small heart voice that i%rsquove been so obviously missing most
of my life.  Most importantly though, i think, is that i%rsquove learned to surrender.  I surrender
everything, it seems.  The queasy stomach, the childhood memory, that ambiguous
insecurity critter, the empathy after conversing with people, the money issues, the career
issues, the parent issues, child issues.  I%rsquove learned to be thankful.  I%rsquove learned that as the
layers of the onion peel away, Goddess replaces much of what i%rsquove surrendered with
clarity.

Life is changed very dramatically during this past year.  The FST course has accelerated
my growth exponentially.  I don%rsquot think i%rsquod be anywhere near this state of awareness w/o
it.  I have been so incredibly blind.  This course taught me why i get so frustrated at other
ppl who i call *obtuse*.  (I dreaded figuring that one out, btw)

I%rsquove gone through so many changes...moving constantly.  My perceptions are radically
different from what they were a year ago, mainly because i%rsquove learned so much through
FST.  I think it%rsquos because now i%rsquom *awake* and i%rsquom on a path that has led me (and is still
urging me) to trust my heart voice as well as the shivers up my spine, and act
accordingly.  

Let%rsquos see, what else...*Friends* have peeled away much like the layers of onion that i%rsquom
shedding.  I%rsquove always been a loner, but now it%rsquos even more so.  Understandably though,
since ppl i associate with haven%rsquot done the changing with me.  There are a few in my life,
my tribe i guess, that aren%rsquot close in proximity to me, but are some kind of kindred
spirits.  I guess you could call them the ones left standing.  lol.

I think i could sum up by saying that learning to focus internally; becoming aware of the
divinity within my Self, has been the biggest change brought about by this FST course.  I
imagine there are a lot of ppl who connect with you that are broken.  Going through this
course gave me a view outside the box.  Thank you 1000 times over for creating it.

Peace,
carla

Carla!

Does this mean you're graduating?

X.

: Carla!

: Does this mean you're graduating?

If i've dotted all the t's and crossed all the i's...  : )  Wish me luck!

: X.

carla