In my last post, I reported about an ex-boss who paid me an extraordinary sum of cash for an overnight shift. Well, that went on for over a week, tho he didn't pay me that huge hourly sum, but still paid me well. Then he hired me permanently, which is great because it's a situation where I work hard, but can get more time off.

Thing is, I was working like 14 hours a day, and doing overnights to get this big job out, and I totally fell off my routine. Didn't get much grounding exercises in, ate fast, dumb food. Made a lot of money and immediately hired a carpenter and made major changes in my kitchen to set it up better for beauty, making food and clearing out dead energy spaces (I live in NYC's East Village, in a tenement, where the bathtub is in the kitchen, etc.). But during the five days it took to create this new space, my apartment was a wreck. Junk from the kitchen piled in the main room.

I find I can't think or function very well in that kind of chaos. I've been obsessed lately with throwing out years of stuff, getting rid of clutter and apartment chaos.

Today, the job was completed, and I put everything away neatly, and started back on my grounding exercises. Oddly enough, even though I wasn't doing as many exercises, when I DID do them, the upper light source changed from a thin beam to . . . well it's like I imagined the very top of the universe (though there is no real top) where the darkness pours light into an open vertical tunnel. The light is very thick there (like opaque clouds), but it smooths out into a wide transparent stream and then pours down into the top of my head. Don't know why this suddenly started to happen.

Today, I went to my therapist, a bioenergetic therapist, who works on opening energy channels in my body and voice (we're working a lot with voice). He had me lying down on a mat and doing vocal exercises. As my voice rose in pitch, I felt more energy, but only on my left side. When I finished the exercise, my whole left side was tingling, but my right side was kind of deadened. The he applied pressure to my jaws, and I did more exercises, and this really helped release my voice.

Thing is, I often feel this way doing the grounding exercises, that my left side is more "alive" than my right side, and that my throat and jaws are very tight. Any ideas for unblocking these areas?

Also, on the subway up to the therapist's office, and coming back, I kept getting these spontaneous images of grounding type of light filling my new kitchen completely and really charging it. Wishful thinking?

I'm still amazed at this new job. It just appeared out of nowhere at a very fortunate moment.

And thanks, Mystress, for the beautiful quote from the Olympics. I didn't get to see them.

Barg