Ive noticed a pattern within me...
- Fear
- Surrender
- Insight into karma at times with a feeling of complete connectedness with all when releasing it.

Coming down from that at times depresses me but I understand it is attachment.
Trying to be detached so not to feed the ego is difficult with something that feels so beautiful.
The part of this pattern i would like to skip is fear.

i admit to getting caught observing the emotional and karmic stuff on the way out...and at times it scares the shit out of me.

 

  Not sure if you can modify the pattern, Willy.  Sort of a universal pattern. Karma is fear so no surprise that fear arising is the first sign of karma on the way out.

  What you can do is modify how you react or respond to the pattern. "Oh yay opportunity for growing," sort of thing.  Transmute fear to excitement, instead of resisting it.

The dreamer, seeks to run from fear.. but that is as useless as trying to outrun your shadow.

The Litany against Fear, from "Dune":
"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."  ~Frank Herbert.

Recently for me, facing fear comes down to facing conscience as the pretty same thing.
And facing who i am not.

So i ask myself: am i the person who is going to hit the kerb ignorantly?
No i'm not that person and i don't want to be that person(any more).

By letting the fear pass through i face it, observe it, wave it bye bye, and am passing through the kerb world, hehe: transcending the kerb!

juergen