Today, I went looking for apartments...and afterwards went to visit my mom and one of my sisters.  My sister told me she wanted me to watch the video that I've put the link to below.  So, I humored her.

http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/jill_bolte_taylor_s_powerful_stroke_of_insight.html

During the video, there was quite a rush of emotion and k as Jill describes some of her experiences...  They are remarkably similar to some of the things that many of us have experienced.  My mom walks into the room, no big deal.  So, I started crying as the energy is pushing through me and Jill is describing her experience of nirvana.

My mom asks why I am crying...she hasn't seen my tears for over a decade or so.  I tried to explain it to her that they are tears of recognition over which i have no control...  She tells me not to tell these things to people because they might think that I am crazy...does your wife think you are stable.  Anyway, this leads into the almost inevitable conversation about 'what religion am i?' and 'are you destroying your mind?'  I try to explain that she will make herself unhappy by forcing me to answer those questions.  Then I try to explain that you can't fit god into small Southern Baptist, Buddhist, Methodist, or Muslim packages.

Anyway...this conversation goes to one of her big fears...which is that her kids will lose their way with some ungodly, unchristian religion.  This conversation has happened again and again and again.  Then she tells me that she loves me regardless of what I believe and walks away.  I know that she will pray sadly and fervently tonight for her son to have a good relationship with god.  She doesn't get it...even after having seen things happen around me that she can't explain.  Then my sister apologizes for offending me w/ the video.

I don't know what I haven't surrendered to cause this recurring manifestation....but Goddess it's yours; please take it into the light as a gift and replace it w/ your light and grace.

Pete
Sunyata Margulies

What a wierd and wonderful world!
Wierdest may seem, to "see the light", and afterwards apologize for it.
Nonetheless perfection: 'nother Daughter approaching operating temperature.

Thanx, great vid!

Juergen

Oh, Pete, my heart goes out to you.   You're doing all you can do ..., setting the table.  If others don't want to come and eat .... 

You're all in the clash of relative and absolute spirituality.  Some people put loyalty to what they see as bigger than they are over loyalty to all of that in play and in the family.  This is Sisyphus's rock. 

Hand over heart, tears in eyes, sending love and clarity of understanding to you and your family, in a manner that Goddess knows best.

Btw, i believe that the ethics principle: "for the good of all and to the harm of none", IS one that Goddess Herself is The First One to stick to.
So don't grieve Yourself; this family encounter with a person outside(JILL WonderWoman) is certainly Her gift in return of your surrender; it's an opportunity to compare 3 wonderful women, an opportunity you generously are sharing with us, so please take in return my compassion.

Just let it work in peace like a sour dough, and make your pounce when it is ready

  A prophet in his own land, la la. 

   It comes up for me too, which is part of why I do not spend much time around my birth family. Not close.

  I think part of it is; family think they know you, and they project that onto you more firmly than strangers, or other folks who did not know you when you wore diapers and ate from a gland.  They have an idea of who you are, they project that,  and expect you to stay the same.

  The investigation for me is, why do I care what they think? I really do not feel the ties of blood, Goddess has been Mother to me since I was 2 years old trying to find my way home.  Why am I so vulnerable to the familial projections?  That is an interesting source of investigations.

  Blessings...


 

Thank you, Goddess.  Thank you guys for the thoughts.

Mystress, those questions are pregnant arrows that seem to fly at the heart of the issue.  I will spend some time w/ them soon.  Thank you.

Pete

Parents tend to believe they own their children and can do with them what they want and the father god may be the first slight ray of sunshine; as long as they pray for you they don't slice you.

The density anomaly of water is a good example how wisdom evolves in an abnormal seeming way:
On cooling, the water sinks at first to the ground for the greater density of cold water; approaching 0 Celsius it becomes lighter again and turns into ice on the surface; thus providing that a sea don't freeze from the ground and the lifeforms overwinter under a protective ice-shield.
So it seems things will have first to go down to the ground(also a Mystress phrase i know it ).

Then there is a latent incest complex next to ancestral cult to which we won't desire to give in. It's maybe a potential blockage from Unity. Particular normal human relationships with parents 'd be ideal

And still, there is real love of parents for their children; this "praying" seems a mixed cocktail: partly it's real love, the other part is judgement. Since your mom is consciously open for love with a certain tolerance, this may be felt by you inconsciously, as a chance for a step further you might initiate.

So if you feel need for action, maybe something "should happen", maybe here is a little ritual you can propose your mom and sista:

Mom, you, sista, and the tv-set with the Jill-vid(or the puter or whatever) all giving "hands", mom facing the screen, you facing sista; at least you can take your ma by her word that she loves you with whatever you like or believe(which she might include in her prayer).
It's not necessary for you all to attend, just present them the idea, maybe the same time and duration.
She won't can suppress it totally...

cheers,
Juergen