"Moving from one gender polarization to the other, eventually leads to the middle path..." Mystress

I remember when I was around 10 years I said to myself that "If you God excist, they show yourself to me".
I was really angry and resented from God.

During the past 1 1/2 years I went from not believing  in any divine intelligene to seeing everything as Goddess.

However, I went from one polarization to the other. I thought everyone was Goddess and knowing it (and still I don't know,
maybe it's all a divine set-up). However, after a few experiences I came to that everyone is Goddess, but not all parts of themselves may now that. They may steal, cheat and lie, even after you see them as Goddess. And then I get angry and stop seing them as
Goddess. But then again, this is also human nature. And human nature is also Goddess. 

Hmm..I stop to see Goddess in everything when I judge.

I myself, when I am in fear, and only seing separation, I don't know myself and everything as Goddess.


The K process feels like that, it takes you from one extreme to another. After a while you experience that you see from a more balanced picture.
It's both.

Are we like a concentration of energies that think one is outside the big concentration of energies, but then we see that one is the big
concentration of energies, and still there are other concentrated energies that think they are separated? Do they cease to exist as
separated when I myself realize that I am the big energy concentration?

Am I Goddess that sometimes forget that I am Goddess?

Is it possible to know that one and everything is Goddess all the time, and still experience life fully and not outside of the body?

Or maybe we must have these two, Separation and Non-duality, to have an experience?



Edward   

We are cleaning our apartments, but we don't clean outside, Nature, plants, trees, etc; and we open the windows to get clean fresh air from outside, not the other way! The best water comes from deep inside of EArth, y isn't it dirty?

Here is Goddess free from ego; i find it's motivating! How clean and fresh will we become, as we get piece by piece, rid of ego?

A funny story about the different aspects of Goddess i remember from a book about Ramakrishna, who must have been sort of an entertainer :

A novice who believed in everything to be Goddess, became aware of shouts and tumult; a huge *elephant* was running amok, it was 'everyone save themselves'.
Not so our novice! "Since this elephant is Goddess", he pondered, "She won't hurt me, so I can stay right where I am". But not so, this guy got some hurting blows, but after all he went off luckily lightly.

"Why could this happen, inspite of my firmest belief in Goddess, how could She hurt me so bad?", he asked the guy who rode the elephant".
Him replied: "You could have also believed me, when crying you out of the way, since you are seeing Goddess in everything".
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Crazy elephant amok runs, Battles of the Nations or genetic Frankenstein experiments happen in a safe sandbox, at least relatively safe compared with what would happen, if a Napoleon or a Wernher von Braun would get access to the high security zone of THE VOID; (which i imagine as the high sensitive navigation center of the whole universe).
That sandbox seems to be the protective function of The Veil: limited access for limited minds; limited but safe, cruelly but fair. Gracious horrid sandbox.

Often we find people complain about others, rulers,  that they are cruel and mean, in short: 'unethical limited pack'. Then, should rather the complaining ones rule? Who is nearer to the inner sanctuary?
Let's just play another round in the sandbox; and another...still too high for dirty love? Still into washing hands in innocence? --This is no recommendation to answer a Napoleon by a Hitler or something like that; only my conviction, that in the sandbox there are even lesser guys than Hitler; but of course we want out of it anyway.

Goddess in highest form is VOID, SELF; to be there requires Self Knowledge. Going from 'Who you think you are', toward 'Who you are', and from 'Who you think you are not' toward 'Who you are not'.
I imagine it like electronic circuitry, one has to know what to do --btw, also a form of Self Knowledge i guess.

Both kinds of perceptions gonna be changed, corrected,  until only the soul is talking purely. Some 'nice' memories gonna get rid of that attribute, some horrid memories will be returned as agreeable. Since we surrender with love, love will return and none of the update will remain hidden and act in our back, as Karma does. The gift of memory transmutes from Karma to un-hidden experience, our key to the VOID.
Now, if eyem not already there(and eye am not), this is at least my actual compass, whatever it may be good for

"Another kind of Goddess, another kind of Love", whose gonna do that song?

Cheers, and bye, must hurry for *Buffy*,
juergen

"Moving from one gender polarization to the other, eventually leads to the middle path..." Mystress
It seemed a bit out of context, but i found this: 
(Fire Serpent Tantra F.A.Q.)
What is Matriarchy?
What is Matriarchy? "Generally speaking, Matriarchy is an attitude that looks upon Diety as an unconditionally loving Mother, as opposed to the judgmental Father God of Patriarchal religion. It celebrates feminine values of compassion, nurturing and emotional expression. Spirit is truly genderless, but thinking of Diety as a Goddess, is a useful way to break out of the conditioning of male-dominated culture.

So we go from the extreme of male Diety over the extreme of female Diety to the genderless Diety.

However male sexuality doesn't seem to have a quality of its own, it's just like the key to a safe. "Wait waite, don't you want a key to the safe? It's of an extra quality so you have to buy it extra and it's one of our special services to offer you the key, so this would be another 150 bucks!"
Woa no no no, thanks my appetite is gone.

I think in a first stage, awakened fems and males are equally like complete safes with a key.
Further they can complement one another in a 2nd stage with the males as keys and women as the safe. This would be a perfect Femdom, where the male looses practically its existance.

But that would exceed FST1 where we actually are; for the time being it seems functional and appropriate to view Diety as genderless(the Soul, Heartvoice), but it can't do harm to peek a little around the corner...

Am I Goddess that sometimes forget that I am Goddess?

  It is hard sometimes to see Goddess in everyone and then see what the God(ego) with in them has made them into.  Yes, everything is Goddess, and you respect individuality and relate to people as the identity they present.

  You don't go up to the giant talking mouse in Disneyland and say "hey you in the mouse costume, what is your real name?"  You say "Hi Mickey!" because that is what is presented as identity.

   It gets easier.  Blessings!