Hope everyone is well.  I'm going thru trying times but can generally keep to the witness state.  Though when sore subjects come to the surface, my emotional, subjective ego gets to dance all over me.

That still, small voice has come to me in unexpected places and 'when i wasn't looking' ways, Mystress.  Thanks for validating It for me.  After reading your msg re: this, I was able to reflect on some recent instances where that voice speaking to me was The voice.  Very comforting.

The grounding visualization is very hard to do these days!  I either fall asleep before I'm done, or else I realize my thoughts are on a tangent and I didn't finish it!  I do it in bed as well as sitting up, btw.

Anyway - still reading and rereading - so much information here!  More time to focus on this would be wonderful, I *think*, but then I realize that the pace I'm able to maintain is what's best.  

Thinking of you all. Much love to you.

carla

glad you checked in... maybe you should do faster groundings... finish before you fall asleep... heheheheh...

it is great when you know that the voice within has the info you need... i'm glad you are finding that...

warmly,

percyval

: Hope everyone is well.  I'm going thru trying times but can generally keep to the witness state.  Though when sore subjects come to the surface, my emotional, subjective ego gets to dance all over me.>>

Yes, that's how it goes. Get insights from the Witness state and then come back to deal with the karma.. sine wave of the Serpent.

: That still, small voice has come to me in unexpected places and 'when i wasn't looking' ways, Mystress.  Thanks for validating It for me.  After reading your msg re: this, I was able to reflect on some recent instances where that voice speaking to me was The voice.  Very comforting.>>>
 If you ponder your memories, you will think of times even before awakening, when it spoke to you and you *knew* it was right.
It took me a long time to really recognise the heart voice, too.. and still, it often catches me by surprise with it's unexpected comments.  

: The grounding visualization is very hard to do these days!  I either fall asleep before I'm done, or else I realize my thoughts are on a tangent and I didn't finish it!  I do it in bed as well as sitting up, btw.>>>

 Do an entity clearing on yourself. Something is souring the milk coz it doesn't like how you taste when your vibration increases. That is likely why the heart voice is preferring to speak when you are distracted.  
The lesson on clearing entities is #16.. skip ahead to that one and the one before it, then go back and do the other lessons.

  Have fun!

Thanks for the responses - percyval i did try to speed things up; had been going thru each chakra and taking my time with it.  that gets it done.  but sometimes i want to 'enjoy' the meditation, breathe thru the lights, chakras, colors... but still getting distracted.

:   Do an entity clearing on yourself. Something is souring the milk coz it doesn't like how you taste when your vibration increases. That is likely why the heart voice is preferring to speak when you are distracted.  
: The lesson on clearing entities is #16.. skip ahead to that one and the one before it, then go back and do the other lessons.

Thanks Mystress - i went to that lesson and did the audio.  felt pressue on my head - from the sinuses in front up and back.  i didn't feel it release like you thought i might, so i did it again immediately.  the pressure was there but not as strong.  Then laying in my bed last nite - i got distracted again from the grounding meditation, so i started repeating the removal stuff again -- got that huge pressure in my head again (getting it just typing about it now).  can i be so attached to this thing that i can't let it go and not even know it?

:    Have fun!

you too!

carla

: Thanks for the responses - percyval i did try to speed things up; had been going thru each chakra and taking my time with it.

It's nice to do that.. Try meditating sitting up so you are not so likely to fall asleep.

>> that gets it done.  but sometimes i want to 'enjoy' the meditation, breathe thru the lights, chakras, colors... but still getting distracted.>>

Forgive yourself when you get distracted, and just return to your focus. I get distracted often too, I have ADD.. but sometimes the distractions have purpose. Notice what distracts you. Think of it as a game between you and your unconscious. What is it trying to show you with the distractions?

: :   Do an entity clearing on yourself. Something is souring the milk coz it doesn't like how you taste when your vibration increases. That is likely why the heart voice is preferring to speak when you are distracted.  
: : The lesson on clearing entities is #16.. skip ahead to that one and the one before it, then go back and do the other lessons.

: Thanks Mystress - i went to that lesson and did the audio.  felt pressue on my head - from the sinuses in front up and back.  i didn't feel it release like you thought i might, so i did it again immediately.  the pressure was there but not as strong.  Then laying in my bed last nite - i got distracted again from the grounding meditation, so i started repeating the removal stuff again -- got that huge pressure in my head again (getting it just typing about it now).  can i be so attached to this thing that i can't let it go and not even know it? >>>>>>>>>>

 It's definitely an entity if it's responding to your attention like that. Stubborn one, eh? LOL!! Well, we'll kick it out.. it may be simply that you really don't believe it will go.. faith is important.

 Attachments are often unconscious, that's why we have to dig for them sometimes. Peel the onion and recognise our patterns so we can make different choices.  
 I usually like to teach beginners to surrender stuff without looking too closely at it, and trust Goddess will give you back something better. Looking for "reasons" for things can turn into an ego game of telling yourself stories to explain what you don't understand.. which is how mythology was invented.

You can get attached to the stories and they will shape your reality. That's why in the entity clearing you don't listen to the answers to the questions. What you give your attention to, will grow.

 However, sometimes when stubborn things won't move it is because Goddess gave them to you in the first place and you get to unravel them like a jigsaw puzzle.

: :    Have fun!

: you too!

: carla