Hello Everyone, My name is Mike and I am a new FST member. I have been reading many of the postings by everyone and I seem to feel somewhat out of place. I have been very interested in meditation and the developmental possibilities within. I first noticed Mystress's website a few years ago, but I felt I was not ready to pursue this spiritual direction. I must admit I was, and to some degree still have some type of fear inside. I have gone to many sites that offer many different directions, but I was attracted back to Mystress. I really enjoy her writing style, frankness and her honesty. I am in the process of grounding and opening my heart Chakra at least twice a day. My work environment is not conducive to my practise. I have been using various meditations for the last couple of years with no real movement forward.  I seem to have difficulty feeling my internal energies.
I have had an Auric Clearing, Karmic Clearing and DNA activations, that I thought was the right thing to do at the time.
I am open to any guidance that will help me move forward.
Namaste'
Mike

I have scowered the internet, read many books

Hello Mike, and welcome!

You're not alone in having some fear aside.  It's part of being human.  We have instincts to survive dangers, which is healthy. Ego consists mostly of psychological fears and impressions. That's what we're here to work on.

Good luck with the course!
Namaste
Gustaf

Hi Mike,

first of all welcome here!
You say in your posting you "feel somewhat out of place". What exactly feels out of place
and what exactly are you asking guidance for?
It would be easier to answer a question that is more specific (at least for me it would).

love
Iris

Hello Iris & Gustaf, Thank-You both for your welcoming words. "Out of Place" Hmmm. By that I mean I was feeling at the time that by reading many of the posts by members within this group, that I was missing something. I have had, am am still having some difficulties in making contact with my suttle energies. When I was reading the gains by others, I thought that I still have a very long journey. Still asleep. I guess I am asking if there is anything I can do to get more in contact with myself, so I can see and feel progress. I started this journey when I attended studies in Leadership (2003) and the first course was "Know thy Self". I have been searching/seeking ever since. I am just trying to move myself spiritually forward. Hope this explanation helps.
Namaste
Mike

  I too had been wondering why you were feeling out of place. Thank you for explaining it.

   Most of the posts lately have been from more senior students.  The process of FST will expand your awareness, just keep following the lessons and pace yourself.  I do get a lot of students who are already quite experienced in various spiritual and psychological disciplines... but it is ok if you don't.

  The course content will reveal itself according to what you can comprehend (to each according to their need and ability to recieve, but not more than they can handle) and as you may have read, one function of this effect is students nearly ready to graduate, going back over the course again to review are discovering new layers of growing, new meaning that they did not see the first time around.

  The lesson pages may be relatively static, but it is the Shakti energy of the pages, and your inner wisdom that really does the teaching, and so the course adapts to where you are at.  Goddess has it handled.

   Sometimes it is true for me too, I will go  back over a lesson and a single line will spawn a whole new essay! 

  In the beginning, when I got online and started writing. Someone would post a question to a list, and Goddess within me would tell me how to respond, then later I would re-read the post to see what was in there for me; the reward of the work as benefit to my own growing. Some of the lessons came of that work, and still hold new layers for me too.

  Welcome, Mike.   

Hello Mystress, Thanks for giving me some open perspective. I will definitely continue with my patience and persistence in order. I am really looking forward to the expansion of my awareness.
Namaste
Mike

New layers always seem to appear!  I've graduated since quite some time, but discover new things, when I occasionally go through lessions, and also when typing something.. Sometimes when typing something, I look at it and "where did that come from?"  We never seem to stop growing and expanding.

Namaste
Gustaf

Hello Mike,
not much to answer, since Mystress said it all allready 
may be just, that for me the grounding exercise was the strongest gift. If I had to choose only one exercise from the FST, that would be it. It has such a strong transformation power, if you do it regularly, results will be visible very soon.
love, Maria

Hello Iris & Gustaf, Thanks for the direction. I am grounding more each day. I am finding I can complete some sessions in a short time during the work-day, with two slower more methodical relaxing grounding processes in the morning & evening.
Namaste
Mike