Seems like I've entered another new world

The world of emotions


When I sit down, or when I'm walking, feel my feet
and observe my breath, even though it may feel
painful sometimes, I notice that things start happening
more smoothely


It's like Goddess is telling me "Hey, this is beneficial
thing to do"



I see more and more that everything is a reflection.

I see more and more that how I treat myself, how I respect
the body and let it experience emotions, is how I get treated
by the world


Goddesss dancing around Shiva. Shiva is waking up from the
trance. Shiva is waking up from the dream



The world is not up there, it's down here.



It's here. It's this.



Hehe...I've noticed that my hands often automatically goes
in to prayer position.


If everything is Goddess, then the only thing I have to do
is to see her with love and trust. She responds to trust.


I see now that I've escaped my body's emotions all my life


So good it is to hand over thoughts and feelings to Goddess, and
let Anima transmute the emotions


Emotions is that what we are. Sensations. Experience


I am a part of Goddess waking up. My eyes are dry and wet after
a long sleep


Seing uncleary, does it actually work like this? And it gets
better and better. More complex, but still so simple


It's fun to evolve. Evolve along with Goddess.


Never ending story...


Mystress, one day I will visit Canada and you. Maybe already next year. And we will dance
all night 


It will be as Goddess wills. When I surrender everything is
as Goddess wills.




Edward

 I like to get visitors, especially FST grad visitors, they can handle the energy of my house!

  Fun to watch you growing, Edward.  

I just came home from a week in London. I spent grandly of money on lotsa food, wheat beer and clubbing!

I also ate a mushroom, Fly Agaric. Goddess opened my eyes even more, permanently.

Next week I'm leaving for South-East-Asia. Gonna be away for 4 months. My newly arrived external lover will take
care of my dog and my apartment.

It will be fun, I will be in a dive school for two weeks on an island on the eastside of South-Thailand. I will take a
PADI certification course, travel to Cambodia, dive more and chill and relax in my beach hut. Then travel upwards
to Laos, up the Mekong River. Maybe bike alone fra the Laos mountains to China, it's almost flat road trough tiny
villages and guest houses.

Probably there will be internetcafees everywhere, where I will do FST-lessons!

Thank you very much Mystress Angelique.



Edward