Yesterday during the chat I was able to move a lot of the things haunting my apartment into the light by eating them, drawing them into my heart and shooting them out my crown giving them to Goddess. Only I couldn't get the last one because I was really exhausted and it was the most powerful. It has been inhabiting my sinuses and GI tract for about a month and it has claws and teeth.

I'm not sure if I'm in mortal danger because I can't get this one to go. If its Goddess' will I die now, I won't complain, but I have not been able to clear this one. its sort of stuck half way through my heart with its teeth and claws outside my chest and its ass somewhere in my throat/face area judging by the smell. I'm worried because it has recently been able to cause me physical pain and cause some bleeding. I don't know what to do. I'm exahusted after no sleep and an hour of fighting.

I'm able to mostly keep my crown open, but somehow it is dodging out the side of my head when I try to shoot it out my crown.

Any help is very muc happreciated. This is painful, but I am able to surrender the fear to Goddess pretty well. It seems to be slowly tiring. I keep coming close to nodding off though from lack of sleep.

Anybody got a can of entity remover I can borrow?

  You give too much power away to this. Grab it, pull it out of yourself, stuff it through a white light hole.

 The entity removal is not the only method, you can just pick them off like fleas. Entities are crunchy and taste goood with ketchup.

 Blessings!

: Yesterday during the chat I was able to move a lot of the things haunting my apartment into the light by eating them, drawing them into my heart and shooting them out my crown giving them to Goddess. Only I couldn't get the last one because I was really exhausted and it was the most powerful. It has been inhabiting my sinuses and GI tract for about a month and it has claws and teeth.

: I'm not sure if I'm in mortal danger because I can't get this one to go. If its Goddess' will I die now, I won't complain, but I have not been able to clear this one. its sort of stuck half way through my heart with its teeth and claws outside my chest and its ass somewhere in my throat/face area judging by the smell. I'm worried because it has recently been able to cause me physical pain and cause some bleeding. I don't know what to do. I'm exahusted after no sleep and an hour of fighting.

: I'm able to mostly keep my crown open, but somehow it is dodging out the side of my head when I try to shoot it out my crown.

: Any help is very muc happreciated. This is painful, but I am able to surrender the fear to Goddess pretty well. It seems to be slowly tiring. I keep coming close to nodding off though from lack of sleep.

: Anybody got a can of entity remover I can borrow?

Thank you for the encouragement! At one level it seems that this experience was about my resistance and eventual surrender. I'm a very strong willed person, on one or two levels anyway.

I did the trilite clearing after writing that message and it worked, but only for about 5 peaceful minutes which ended when I felt its breath against my cheek. I was resolved not to feed it any attention. To make a long story short, I eventually asked it what it wanted. "To kill you", to which I asked why. "Because you don't love me anymore." Ah so. Perhaps it was all or mostly my shadow.

Not long after that I was out of fight and gave up my efforts. Enjoyed a bit of herbal relief as well. May as well try to enjoy the process if the thing is going to kill me right? ;-)

I think it took about 10 minutes for the laughter to start. The thought was so loud in my head "Just let it go". No space for ego to reply, no question of the message's truth. I was in such pain because I couldn't just let it go. I couldn't stop laughing for an hour at least! It really started to hurt a little, but it felt sooooo good, so cathartic. So many things I needed to let go, but couldn't until I was well outside my comfy little fenced in yard in the jungle*. I slept for 14 hours. Everything is better today.

* from a really good Osho writing I read yesterday, "Ego - The False Center"
http://deoxy.org/egofalse.htm

Thank you Mystress and others for everything!

Jim

:   You give too much power away to this. Grab it, pull it out of yourself, stuff it through a white light hole.

:   The entity removal is not the only method, you can just pick them off like fleas. Entities are crunchy and taste goood with ketchup.

:   Blessings!  

: : Yesterday during the chat I was able to move a lot of the things haunting my apartment into the light by eating them, drawing them into my heart and shooting them out my crown giving them to Goddess. Only I couldn't get the last one because I was really exhausted and it was the most powerful. It has been inhabiting my sinuses and GI tract for about a month and it has claws and teeth.

: : I'm not sure if I'm in mortal danger because I can't get this one to go. If its Goddess' will I die now, I won't complain, but I have not been able to clear this one. its sort of stuck half way through my heart with its teeth and claws outside my chest and its ass somewhere in my throat/face area judging by the smell. I'm worried because it has recently been able to cause me physical pain and cause some bleeding. I don't know what to do. I'm exahusted after no sleep and an hour of fighting.

: : I'm able to mostly keep my crown open, but somehow it is dodging out the side of my head when I try to shoot it out my crown.

: : Any help is very muc happreciated. This is painful, but I am able to surrender the fear to Goddess pretty well. It seems to be slowly tiring. I keep coming close to nodding off though from lack of sleep.

: : Anybody got a can of entity remover I can borrow?

I keep getting the feeling that this one is a cat I had, my first pet adopted when I was about 3. I remember, though I don't know why I did it, making that cat my familiar and exchanging energy with it on numerous occasions. This thing purrs and I think it's scent is the same as that cat's was. The cat was killed by a dog 22 years ago, when I was 11.

I have tried everything. Trilite, eating, stuffing into a white light hole as well as I could visualize it. Quite some time ago I tried red bloody hate. Several times I tried unconditional love. Telling it to go into the light and to ask Goddess to be reincarnate as a new pet cat for me.

Confused & with much purring near my root chakra.

Jim

: Thank you for the encouragement! At one level it seems that this experience was about my resistance and eventual surrender. I'm a very strong willed person, on one or two levels anyway.

: I did the trilite clearing after writing that message and it worked, but only for about 5 peaceful minutes which ended when I felt its breath against my cheek. I was resolved not to feed it any attention. To make a long story short, I eventually asked it what it wanted. "To kill you", to which I asked why. "Because you don't love me anymore." Ah so. Perhaps it was all or mostly my shadow.

: Not long after that I was out of fight and gave up my efforts. Enjoyed a bit of herbal relief as well. May as well try to enjoy the process if the thing is going to kill me right? ;-)

: I think it took about 10 minutes for the laughter to start. The thought was so loud in my head "Just let it go". No space for ego to reply, no question of the message's truth. I was in such pain because I couldn't just let it go. I couldn't stop laughing for an hour at least! It really started to hurt a little, but it felt sooooo good, so cathartic. So many things I needed to let go, but couldn't until I was well outside my comfy little fenced in yard in the jungle*. I slept for 14 hours. Everything is better today.

: * from a really good Osho writing I read yesterday, "Ego - The False Center"
: http://deoxy.org/egofalse.htm

:
: Thank you Mystress and others for everything!

: Jim

:
: :   You give too much power away to this. Grab it, pull it out of yourself, stuff it through a white light hole.

: :   The entity removal is not the only method, you can just pick them off like fleas. Entities are crunchy and taste goood with ketchup.

: :   Blessings!  

: : : Yesterday during the chat I was able to move a lot of the things haunting my apartment into the light by eating them, drawing them into my heart and shooting them out my crown giving them to Goddess. Only I couldn't get the last one because I was really exhausted and it was the most powerful. It has been inhabiting my sinuses and GI tract for about a month and it has claws and teeth.

: : : I'm not sure if I'm in mortal danger because I can't get this one to go. If its Goddess' will I die now, I won't complain, but I have not been able to clear this one. its sort of stuck half way through my heart with its teeth and claws outside my chest and its ass somewhere in my throat/face area judging by the smell. I'm worried because it has recently been able to cause me physical pain and cause some bleeding. I don't know what to do. I'm exahusted after no sleep and an hour of fighting.

: : : I'm able to mostly keep my crown open, but somehow it is dodging out the side of my head when I try to shoot it out my crown.

: : : Any help is very muc happreciated. This is painful, but I am able to surrender the fear to Goddess pretty well. It seems to be slowly tiring. I keep coming close to nodding off though from lack of sleep.

: : : Anybody got a can of entity remover I can borrow?

  Yeah, I got that it was a kitty when you first mentioned it. Familiar, eh? People do that, not understanding what it means. I didn't, and my ingnorance killed my snake. She was getting what was meant for the Fire Serpent.

 She is still around, despite being sent into the light repeatedly. I don't mind, she is a gentle and loving spirit companion.

  Familiar, like Quan Yun, takes the karma hits for you. Acts as your protector on the astral. Psychic attacks and curses get deflected onto them. They rarely die peacefully of old age.  

 Before she died, but after I had realized my error and released her from that role (she took it as a rejection) I kept getting mental pix of myself with a new baby boa.. which disturbed me because I did not want that, I wanted my Avalon healed and whole again... finally I realized the images were coming from her, not wanting me to be alone, unprotected, and I cried for days... still makes my eyes overflow.

 That kind of love, there is no resisting it.  Take the karmic burden back from your kitty, and release her from the role of your familiar... that will calm things down... but resign yourself to having her around, a permanent pet spirit. A familiar, is not a pet, it is a spiritual companion and protector... and your responsibility toward them doesn't end with their death.

 Blessings...

: I keep getting the feeling that this one is a cat I had, my first pet adopted when I was about 3. I remember, though I don't know why I did it, making that cat my familiar and exchanging energy with it on numerous occasions. This thing purrs and I think it's scent is the same as that cat's was. The cat was killed by a dog 22 years ago, when I was 11.

: I have tried everything. Trilite, eating, stuffing into a white light hole as well as I could visualize it. Quite some time ago I tried red bloody hate. Several times I tried unconditional love. Telling it to go into the light and to ask Goddess to be reincarnate as a new pet cat for me.

: Confused & with much purring near my root chakra.

: Jim

: : Thank you for the encouragement! At one level it seems that this experience was about my resistance and eventual surrender. I'm a very strong willed person, on one or two levels anyway.

: : I did the trilite clearing after writing that message and it worked, but only for about 5 peaceful minutes which ended when I felt its breath against my cheek. I was resolved not to feed it any attention. To make a long story short, I eventually asked it what it wanted. "To kill you", to which I asked why. "Because you don't love me anymore." Ah so. Perhaps it was all or mostly my shadow.

: : Not long after that I was out of fight and gave up my efforts. Enjoyed a bit of herbal relief as well. May as well try to enjoy the process if the thing is going to kill me right? ;-)

: : I think it took about 10 minutes for the laughter to start. The thought was so loud in my head "Just let it go". No space for ego to reply, no question of the message's truth. I was in such pain because I couldn't just let it go. I couldn't stop laughing for an hour at least! It really started to hurt a little, but it felt sooooo good, so cathartic. So many things I needed to let go, but couldn't until I was well outside my comfy little fenced in yard in the jungle*. I slept for 14 hours. Everything is better today.

: : * from a really good Osho writing I read yesterday, "Ego - The False Center"
: : http://deoxy.org/egofalse.htm

: :
: : Thank you Mystress and others for everything!

: : Jim

: :
: : :   You give too much power away to this. Grab it, pull it out of yourself, stuff it through a white light hole.

: : :   The entity removal is not the only method, you can just pick them off like fleas. Entities are crunchy and taste goood with ketchup.

: : :   Blessings!  

: : : : Yesterday during the chat I was able to move a lot of the things haunting my apartment into the light by eating them, drawing them into my heart and shooting them out my crown giving them to Goddess. Only I couldn't get the last one because I was really exhausted and it was the most powerful. It has been inhabiting my sinuses and GI tract for about a month and it has claws and teeth.

: : : : I'm not sure if I'm in mortal danger because I can't get this one to go. If its Goddess' will I die now, I won't complain, but I have not been able to clear this one. its sort of stuck half way through my heart with its teeth and claws outside my chest and its ass somewhere in my throat/face area judging by the smell. I'm worried because it has recently been able to cause me physical pain and cause some bleeding. I don't know what to do. I'm exahusted after no sleep and an hour of fighting.

: : : : I'm able to mostly keep my crown open, but somehow it is dodging out the side of my head when I try to shoot it out my crown.

: : : : Any help is very muc happreciated. This is painful, but I am able to surrender the fear to Goddess pretty well. It seems to be slowly tiring. I keep coming close to nodding off though from lack of sleep.

: : : : Anybody got a can of entity remover I can borrow?

Last night things came to head. I needed to love myself. The instant I did it all turned around. It seems I've hated myself for so long I didn't even realize it anymore. I'm in a different universe now. The cat is resting and quiet now, released from the job I gave him so many years ago.

Thank you for the insight & everything else!

:   Yeah, I got that it was a kitty when you first mentioned it. Familiar, eh? People do that, not understanding what it means. I didn't, and my ingnorance killed my snake. She was getting what was meant for the Fire Serpent.

:   She is still around, despite being sent into the light repeatedly. I don't mind, she is a gentle and loving spirit companion.

:    Familiar, like Quan Yun, takes the karma hits for you. Acts as your protector on the astral. Psychic attacks and curses get deflected onto them. They rarely die peacefully of old age.  

:   Before she died, but after I had realized my error and released her from that role (she took it as a rejection) I kept getting mental pix of myself with a new baby boa.. which disturbed me because I did not want that, I wanted my Avalon healed and whole again... finally I realized the images were coming from her, not wanting me to be alone, unprotected, and I cried for days... still makes my eyes overflow.

:   That kind of love, there is no resisting it.  Take the karmic burden back from your kitty, and release her from the role of your familiar... that will calm things down... but resign yourself to having her around, a permanent pet spirit. A familiar, is not a pet, it is a spiritual companion and protector... and your responsibility toward them doesn't end with their death.

:   Blessings...  

:
: : I keep getting the feeling that this one is a cat I had, my first pet adopted when I was about 3. I remember, though I don't know why I did it, making that cat my familiar and exchanging energy with it on numerous occasions. This thing purrs and I think it's scent is the same as that cat's was. The cat was killed by a dog 22 years ago, when I was 11.

: : I have tried everything. Trilite, eating, stuffing into a white light hole as well as I could visualize it. Quite some time ago I tried red bloody hate. Several times I tried unconditional love. Telling it to go into the light and to ask Goddess to be reincarnate as a new pet cat for me.

: : Confused & with much purring near my root chakra.

: : Jim