For quite a while, I have from time to time been struggling with the concept of %ldquoThe mirror of all that is%rdquo, %ldquoif it bugs you, it%rsquos yours%rdquo etc. As Mystress said at a session last summer (probably while shaking her head at me); %ldquoSome people just don%rsquot want to se themselves reflected!%rdquo

My position is that this might not be the problem. I can understand that when people do overreact on other peoples faults, it often tells us more about the people reacting than about the people exposing the behavior they react against. I can also understand that when people expose an irrationally high self esteem, they would probably feel better somewhere closer to the ground (as my NLP teacher explaining: %ldquoWhy? You can never get enough of self esteem!%rdquo).

Naturally, first and last the question arises; is it just me? Is it just ego? Is it just that I can easily perceive the principle working in others but not in me? And first and last too; my answer is no. Of course that might not be such a big surprise%hellip However, my problem is not irrationally high self esteem, but rather lack of self esteem. My problem is not being reluctant to accept that I have flaws. Rather I always doubt myself, what I am and what I do and I hardly ever consider myself better than anyone else. I am very aware of having a lot of flaws and quite open to the idea that I have a lot more of them. Some of them, I want to get rid of; some of them I understand I will have to live with. Some of them I am not sure weather to consider as flaws at all.

On the other hand, I also know for sure that some flaws I don%rsquot have. And when I don%rsquot like bullies, it is not that I react to the flaws of the people in question. I know that there are worse people out there than them. I also know that I am myself worse in some respect. What I don%rsquot like is these peoples%rsquo obsession with my success and their actions to keep me down. I simply don%rsquot like to be kept down. I simply don%rsquot like to be bullied! It interferes with my planes for my life and with my happiness and the happiness of the people I love.

I am rather sure I am not bullied because I need to learn that I am myself a bully. I am not a bully, at least not intentionally or continuously. I probably share some flaws with the bullies, but I don%rsquot have any problems accepting that. I don%rsquot consider myself better than them. Maybe if the circumstances of my life had been different, I would have ended up a bully myself. This is simply not where the problem is.

To me it is easier to accept the traditional yogic view on karma. We have experiences. The idea is so to say that we should experience them to their full extent. When we don%rsquot manage to do that, we suppress part of our experience. These suppressed experiences are karma. Our lives will than take us into similar situations, until we have released all the suppressed experiences and experienced them in full. So, if I was once bullied and suppressed part of the experience I will get bullied again until I have released the suppressed stuff.

This is how I described this at a bullying message board a few years ago:

%rdquoThe yogic view of
the mind is rather close to the western psychologist view. There is
the conscious mind. There is also the subconscious mind. And in yoga
you also have the unconscious mind. Our programming for life %ndash our
karma %ndash is stored in the unconscious mind and maybe partly also in
the subconscious mind. The experiences we have from this life and
which we have not dealt with properly are also stored in the
subconscious mind. When we do not perceive all that has to be
perceived in life %ndash for instance if we cannot copy with a traumatic
experience %ndash the experience is stored in the subconscious mind. What
happens is that a kind of blockage is created in the brain. The
effect of this is that when our thoughts are getting close to the
touchy subject they are going in a circle, a loop, that avoid us
from experiencing the emotions that are stored in the blockage.

Yoga is psychotherapy and as such it aims at removing these
blockages. When this happens, the energy locked up by the blockage
is released so that you have more energy to your disposal. Then the
part of the brain that was blocked is also set free to use, so your
brain capacity increases as well. But you also have to deal with the
impressions that have been looked in and that you did not manage to
deal with before. And this could be a rather tough experience. It
might be that you have a memory coming up with images, sounds,
smells etc and the strong feelings that made you suppress the
experience in the first place. But it might also be that you
experience something entirely different and maybe very strange.
Because the stored impressions do not need to have the same meaning
when they come up that they had when they were stored. You may not
even recognise when or what suppressed experience that has come up.%rdquo

As I wrote in another post just the other day, I have got the information that the rough experiences of more or less psychopathic bullies in my life are created by my expectations. I was also shown where these expectations where situated in my body; on both sides of my torso, as far away from the center as possible, and also on the outer sides of my legs.

Another idea of the lesson on %ldquoMirror of all that is%rdquo is based on the NLP idea that we create our life experiences %ndash not our lives %ndash by choosing a few parts of all the sensory information and base our conclusions and our perception of our lives on these. I don%rsquot dispute the truth of this as such. However, I strongly suspect that we actually also live in different realities and not only interpret the same reality in different ways. Frankly, I believe that the world in which each one of us live is all the time, several times every second, reconstructed on bases of every persons expectations.

Hi Vyana

I dont think you´ll get this cleared up by trying to rationalize it Eckard Tolle speaks in "the power of now" about being present vs. creating psychological time (drama). He states that when you find the root cause of your inner conflicts (resisting what is, and being taken over by the painbody, the past etc.) You bring focus back to your inner presence.. and the 1.000.000 different strategies for avoiding being present does not matter so much.

I could imagine reading this book (maybe again *s*) would clarify these issues alot for you.

Enjoy Vyana
Blessings

: For quite a while, I have from time to time been struggling with the concept of %ldquoThe mirror of all that is%rdquo, %ldquoif it bugs you, it%rsquos yours%rdquo etc. As Mystress said at a session last summer (probably while shaking her head at me); %ldquoSome people just don%rsquot want to se themselves reflected!%rdquo

: My position is that this might not be the problem. I can understand that when people do overreact on other peoples faults, it often tells us more about the people reacting than about the people exposing the behavior they react against. I can also understand that when people expose an irrationally high self esteem, they would probably feel better somewhere closer to the ground (as my NLP teacher explaining: %ldquoWhy? You can never get enough of self esteem!%rdquo).

: Naturally, first and last the question arises; is it just me? Is it just ego? Is it just that I can easily perceive the principle working in others but not in me? And first and last too; my answer is no. Of course that might not be such a big surprise%hellip However, my problem is not irrationally high self esteem, but rather lack of self esteem. My problem is not being reluctant to accept that I have flaws. Rather I always doubt myself, what I am and what I do and I hardly ever consider myself better than anyone else. I am very aware of having a lot of flaws and quite open to the idea that I have a lot more of them. Some of them, I want to get rid of; some of them I understand I will have to live with. Some of them I am not sure weather to consider as flaws at all.

: On the other hand, I also know for sure that some flaws I don%rsquot have. And when I don%rsquot like bullies, it is not that I react to the flaws of the people in question. I know that there are worse people out there than them. I also know that I am myself worse in some respect. What I don%rsquot like is these peoples%rsquo obsession with my success and their actions to keep me down. I simply don%rsquot like to be kept down. I simply don%rsquot like to be bullied! It interferes with my planes for my life and with my happiness and the happiness of the people I love.

: I am rather sure I am not bullied because I need to learn that I am myself a bully. I am not a bully, at least not intentionally or continuously. I probably share some flaws with the bullies, but I don%rsquot have any problems accepting that. I don%rsquot consider myself better than them. Maybe if the circumstances of my life had been different, I would have ended up a bully myself. This is simply not where the problem is.

: To me it is easier to accept the traditional yogic view on karma. We have experiences. The idea is so to say that we should experience them to their full extent. When we don%rsquot manage to do that, we suppress part of our experience. These suppressed experiences are karma. Our lives will than take us into similar situations, until we have released all the suppressed experiences and experienced them in full. So, if I was once bullied and suppressed part of the experience I will get bullied again until I have released the suppressed stuff.

: This is how I described this at a bullying message board a few years ago:

: %rdquoThe yogic view of
: the mind is rather close to the western psychologist view. There is
: the conscious mind. There is also the subconscious mind. And in yoga
: you also have the unconscious mind. Our programming for life %ndash our
: karma %ndash is stored in the unconscious mind and maybe partly also in
: the subconscious mind. The experiences we have from this life and
: which we have not dealt with properly are also stored in the
: subconscious mind. When we do not perceive all that has to be
: perceived in life %ndash for instance if we cannot copy with a traumatic
: experience %ndash the experience is stored in the subconscious mind. What
: happens is that a kind of blockage is created in the brain. The
: effect of this is that when our thoughts are getting close to the
: touchy subject they are going in a circle, a loop, that avoid us
: from experiencing the emotions that are stored in the blockage.

: Yoga is psychotherapy and as such it aims at removing these
: blockages. When this happens, the energy locked up by the blockage
: is released so that you have more energy to your disposal. Then the
: part of the brain that was blocked is also set free to use, so your
: brain capacity increases as well. But you also have to deal with the
: impressions that have been looked in and that you did not manage to
: deal with before. And this could be a rather tough experience. It
: might be that you have a memory coming up with images, sounds,
: smells etc and the strong feelings that made you suppress the
: experience in the first place. But it might also be that you
: experience something entirely different and maybe very strange.
: Because the stored impressions do not need to have the same meaning
: when they come up that they had when they were stored. You may not
: even recognise when or what suppressed experience that has come up.%rdquo

: As I wrote in another post just the other day, I have got the information that the rough experiences of more or less psychopathic bullies in my life are created by my expectations. I was also shown where these expectations where situated in my body; on both sides of my torso, as far away from the center as possible, and also on the outer sides of my legs.

: Another idea of the lesson on %ldquoMirror of all that is%rdquo is based on the NLP idea that we create our life experiences %ndash not our lives %ndash by choosing a few parts of all the sensory information and base our conclusions and our perception of our lives on these. I don%rsquot dispute the truth of this as such. However, I strongly suspect that we actually also live in different realities and not only interpret the same reality in different ways. Frankly, I believe that the world in which each one of us live is all the time, several times every second, reconstructed on bases of every persons expectations.

Thank you! My problem is not to get into a state of lasting bliss. The problem is getting rid of karma that is stored in my physical body and probably mostly related to my power chakra. To accomplish this I practice sat kriya from kundalini-yoga and aikido. Right now I am in an intense period of releasing karma after participating in a full day event of white tantric yoga. But to get rid of these issues I have found that I also need some kind of understanding of them that works for me, as the mirror metaphor doesn%rsquot. So, although this course is based on the assumption that rationalizing things to get a better understanding of them helps, my aim is not to rationalize these issues; rather I am trying to deal with them. My rational mind is most often silent. But I will try to be aware of any tendency to rationalize. I have read quite a few of Tolles books and listened to his tapes and have been practicing being in the now for years. Last summer I had a period of several weeks when I studied Tolle intensively, but I will take your advice and get back to it and se what might come from it this time. (It is funny although. Just a few weeks ago I tried to do just that, but the tapes didn%rsquot work. The tape recorded just rolled them up and harmed the tapes. I wish there was a simple method to transform the tapes to mp3-files!)

: Hi Vyana

: I dont think you´ll get this cleared up by trying to rationalize it Eckard Tolle speaks in "the power of now" about being present vs. creating psychological time (drama). He states that when you find the root cause of your inner conflicts (resisting what is, and being taken over by the painbody, the past etc.) You bring focus back to your inner presence.. and the 1.000.000 different strategies for avoiding being present does not matter so much.

: I could imagine reading this book (maybe again *s*) would clarify these issues alot for you.

: Enjoy Vyana
: Blessings

What i mean is that whe state of bliss has to expand through the limitations and blockages of the physical and energetic bodies. From a healing perspective energy clearing can only take us some of the way.. the comes a point where the effort to clear, turns into a reinforcing of the blockages.

Sometimes blockages are wierd and has no logic i can understand. I did a 3. eye clearing some weeks back.. and alot of old emotions and karma was cast off. I had worked with these blockages many times.. got them moving but not cleared.. it seemed they where held in place by some false perceptions in my 3. eye, i did not understand the false perceptions.. but it felt the bliss and freedom from having them lifted. It thought the problem was the blockage in my hip, but it was only a symptom. I used to see this experience as useless.. because i thought it was my ego that had to be strong. It did not understand what happened in the shift.. I would re-create what was removed in order for it to make sense and understand.. but will my lower self ever fully understand? It is its dharma not to.. the "darkness" of unconsciousness creates a surface where we can watch infinity.. and merge with it if we wish.

I wonder if the physical vehicle can be fully transformed in 1 lifetime.. dna perfection i mean?? I have started to believe that this is not possible (atleast with my current efforts *s*). But i can accept the current limitations of my body, and be at peace with what is.

If i need to understand all the reasons for this life and the creation of this body.. i will. For now i can surrender, and enjoy the dance in and out of consciousness.. i experience trough the resolving of the karma i carry. I find it odd to be present when there is so much stuff comming up to the surface. The more effort i use to transform myself the more solid i get.. eventually frustrated.. eventually taken over by the past i try to change, and the future i try to control.. eventually stuck.. eventually unconsciouss. I have been down this road so many times.. i know where it ends.

the more i surrender, the more present i am. The stronger the presence of i am.. the "lesser" i get drawn into the unconsciousness of myself and others. From here i can enjoy the presence of life.. even if i am broke and have no girlfriend *ss* With this joy i do not miss anything.. but if it appears i am free to enjoy it.

Maybe this is completely unrelated to your experience Vyana.. but it helped me to put it in words.

Thank you very much.
God bless

"Maybe this is completely unrelated to your experience Vyana.." %ndash Who knows? Most likely your higher self had you put it there for some reason. It might show in time%hellip - %ldquobut it helped me to put it in words.%rdquo %ndash Yes, and I have often found that putting things at this message board helps too.

I suppose I am sill at the healing phase. In my experience, being in a state of bliss feels fine, but I don%rsquot achieve so much when in that state. If I want to get rid of karmic stuff more efficiently I have to accept upcoming unpleasant feelings. I have also found out that I need to use different methods for different kinds of karmic blockages. One important observation, when stuff keeps coming back, is that a blockades is seldom restricted to one part of the body, one chakra etc. Most of those issues need cleansing of related stuff in other chakras too. Therefore, I can remove a blockage in my power chakra time after time, and it just keeps coming back, until I clean of related stuff in several other chakras and body parts too.

The concept of taking on blame (or not) is crucial for me, as I am targeted by bullies %ndash a fate that is sometimes said to be part of the spiritual path. That might be why %ldquoThe mirror of all that is%rdquo does not suit me as a therapeutic tool. Here is another quote from what I published at a bullying message board a few years ago:

%rdquoThe most important statement on my list above is, as I see it, to
make clear that the victim is not to blame. This is very important
as the bullies most often use blame to break down the victim. And
it's very easy to make the victim feel guilt. While the bullies are
very skilled at charming people and make themselves appear as kind,
trustworthy and caring, they are also good at making the victim
appear as ungrateful, mean and unbalanced. There are always a lot of
rumors going on about the victim. Therefore, other people at the
workplace do also perceive the victim as the one to blame. And they
treat the victim in accordance with that.

Now %ndash and this is very important %ndash the victim perceives that he is
not accepted as a member of the team of employees at the workplace.
This perception triggers a very ancient and extremely strong
psychological mechanism in the victim's brain and nervous system. In
some natural tribes there is a ceremony where a tribe member is
excluded from the tribe. Then the tribe member just walks away and
dies. This is actually the same mechanism that is at work in the
victim of bullying. The victim feels he is not wanted. His reaction
is to feel bad and to get sick. To be able to survive and regain
health it is of uttermost importance for the victim that he fully
understands the fact that he is entirely innocent and not to blame.
Actually, he is to be compared with a victim of rape or robbery.

Now %ndash here is a problem. There are a lot of people believing that
when two people do not "get a long"; it's never just one of them who
is to blame. This seams very reasonable, but it is actually
bullshit. When a therapist has this idea he is extremely dangerous
to the victim's health. I once met ha therapist trying to argue
along these lines, suggesting that I could not be entirely good
while the bullies were entirely bad. I answered by giving him a
parallel example; "Pretend that you was walking on a street. Then a
person came running up behind you and hit your head so that you fell
down and broke one arm. When you reported this to the police the
police officer answered: `I don't believe you! It's never one's
fault when two people are fighting.'" This therapist never tried to
argue along these lines again."

:  I don%rsquot dispute the truth of this as such. However, I strongly suspect that we actually also live in different realities and not only interpret the same reality in different ways. Frankly, I believe that the world in which each one of us live is all the time, several times every second, reconstructed on bases of every persons expectations.

Yeah, it is true... and as long as you have issues with bullying, you will attract bullies.

 I used to think of myself as an activist for sexual freedom. I used to get a ton of hate mail to domin8rex. I noticed activism bearing fruits- SM elements showing up in pop culture everywhere from Calvin Klien to the Simpsons cartoon. Snowball had gathered momentum, I decided my work was done.  

  I did not change the website, only my attitude... but the hate mail dried up and stopped. That's how the universe works...

: : The concept of taking on blame (or not)

It is not about blame, it is about responsibility. The position of power is "I attract that which occurs"  .. you were closer to the target with the idea of expectations.

is crucial for me, as I am targeted by bullies %ndash a fate that is sometimes said to be part of the spiritual path. That might be why %ldquoThe mirror of all that is%rdquo does not suit me as a therapeutic tool.

You resist it. You can have enlightenment, or your reasons why not.  

:Here is another quote from what I published at a bullying message board a few years ago:

: %rdquoThe most important statement on my list above is, as I see it, to
: make clear that the victim is not to blame. This is very important
: as the bullies most often use blame to break down the victim. And
: it's very easy to make the victim feel guilt. While the bullies are
: very skilled at charming people and make themselves appear as kind,
: trustworthy and caring, they are also good at making the victim
: appear as ungrateful, mean and unbalanced. There are always a lot of
: rumors going on about the victim. Therefore, other people at the
: workplace do also perceive the victim as the one to blame. And they
: treat the victim in accordance with that.

: Now %ndash and this is very important %ndash the victim perceives that he is
: not accepted as a member of the team of employees at the workplace.
: This perception triggers a very ancient and extremely strong
: psychological mechanism in the victim's brain and nervous system. In
: some natural tribes there is a ceremony where a tribe member is
: excluded from the tribe. Then the tribe member just walks away and
: dies. This is actually the same mechanism that is at work in the
: victim of bullying. The victim feels he is not wanted. His reaction
: is to feel bad and to get sick. To be able to survive and regain
: health it is of uttermost importance for the victim that he fully
: understands the fact that he is entirely innocent and not to blame.
: Actually, he is to be compared with a victim of rape or robbery.

: Now %ndash here is a problem. There are a lot of people believing that
: when two people do not "get a long"; it's never just one of them who
: is to blame. This seams very reasonable, but it is actually
: bullshit. When a therapist has this idea he is extremely dangerous
: to the victim's health. I once met ha therapist trying to argue
: along these lines, suggesting that I could not be entirely good
: while the bullies were entirely bad. I answered by giving him a
: parallel example; "Pretend that you was walking on a street. Then a
: person came running up behind you and hit your head so that you fell
: down and broke one arm. When you reported this to the police the
: police officer answered: `I don't believe you! It's never one's
: fault when two people are fighting.'" This therapist never tried to
: argue along these lines again."

"Methinks, thou doth protest too much.." who are you really trying to persuade, eh?

I always thought you were a "poor me/aloof" but now I realize you are a "poor me/intimidator."  I think I have not encountered that combination before!  I did not consider your ability to use your intellect as a weapon to validate your self pity and victimhood.

 So, you verbally bullied the therapist into abandoning the line that would have served you best, and you are still patting yourself on the back at the victory.

 Your argument is rhetoric. A number of studies have demonstrated that the people most likely to get mugged are the ones whose body language demonstrates fear of attack. I have experiemented with this phenomena quite extensively... Prowling the midnight streets in my leathers, an Asian youth gang crossed the street to avoid me. Quite a change from when strangers on the bus would grab my ass.

 Victims and bullies... the whole concept, only exists on the dimensional level of the power chakra. Move one chakra up, and it is all illusion, we are all Gods co-creating in a consensual universe. All the intellectual power chakra arguments in the world won't change that, one iota.

 You don't want to transcend victimhood, you want to validate it... that is what keeps you stuck.  What a waste of time. Your resistance is slippery too, like the idea that a blockage needs to be handled differently if it is on the sides of your body.  

 I want you to get it, enough of this dancing around pretending there is not an elephant in your living room, or arguing why it is the proper place for an elephant to live...

 You don't believe you ever bully or manipulate people eh? Lets find out.

 Get grounded, and then imagine that the inside of the eggshell, the oval of your aura is mirrored.  This mirror is very specific, to reflect your projections back to you like instant karma. You reject that the external world reflects you, so forget them, look at your own shadow's reflection.  

Anytime you project anything that is not unconditional love and acceptance, it won't reach anyone but right back at ya.  Set it to especially reflect back any manipulative behavior of any kind, in thought, word or deed. Any aloof or underdog status games, of superiority or inferiority, any victimhood, any projection of bully onto another won't get past the edge of your aura, but will reflect instantly back to you. Any thought, word or deed that is motivated by fear.... The mirror will reflect back the behavior so you can get insights.

 This is powerful magic. Be mindful, treat it with respect. Tie a string around your finger, put a post it note on your forehead or draw on your hand ... something to remind you in every moment that you are mirrored, so you can release it if you started getting ill or overstressed. Wear it for a day or two at a time, then take a break for a few days and do it again.

  Additionally, take note of how people respond to you differently, when the shadow mirror bubble causes your projections of how they must behave to validate your childhood belief that life is not fair, to no longer reach them.

 Note to other students... don't try it unless you are past the shadow lessons. Blessings...

Hmmm%hellip I don%rsquot think I only attract that what occurs in my life. I think I create it, or my karmas do, to force me to release them. So, I do in some way accept full responsibility. Therefore I don%rsquot doubt for a second that the exercise you suggest will work. When I experience difficulties in my life I use to ask myself %ldquoWhat am I supposed to learn form this?%rdquo or %ldquoWhat suppressed feelings does this teach me that I have and which I need to get in touch with and set free?%rdquo But a lot of the karmic released I experience take place on the bodily level. And the lessons I have are not so often about how bad I really am. Actually, some pleasant insights have come from this course in self discovery. For instance my belief that I hardly ever attract women turned out to be true only  when it came to the not very attractive women I expected to attract, but not when it came to those I was so convinced I would never be happy enough to attract that I blocked all awareness of the fact that I actually did from my mind. And other upcoming stuff is about feelings or attitudes. Actually it is sometimes as if the whole world conspired to make me understand or accept or deal with something. At the end of a therapeutic session almost three weeks ago a lot of heat emerged in my trout and the uppermost part of my chest (above the collarbone). And from that moment a lot of things started to go slightly wrong or be delayed. Actually I had a one or two week intensive course in frustration and it is not totally over yet.

When I wrote that blame is a crucial issue for me, I meant that I have problems handling blame. The reason for this is that I am targeted by bullies. This is an ongoing event and maybe the main lesson of my life. To understand why this is a problematic area you need some basic information on how bullying in the sense I am talking about works. To define all kind of harassment and aggressive behavior (or even the use of language to make people broaden their perspective and let go of limiting beliefs) as bullying is common, but does not enhance our understanding of the main phenomena. Bullying is a kind of psychological violence, where the bully manipulates people basically to direct blame at a targeted scapegoat, who is typically chosen for being successful at work or popular with people. The bully is traditionally a psychopath, but as the bullying strategy has turned out to be an extremely successful way to climb the ladder of success, it is often copied by others, and today that happens to an extent that makes it one of the main problems of modern society.

I know bullying is a phenomenon of the three lower chakras and that it does not exist in the higher chakras. In the upper chakras, there is only one %ndash nonduality. However, I still live in duality. So, I have to take care of my body and deal with the problems of the world of forms. To survive, I have to protect myself from attacks, and not only physical attacks, as attempted murder, but also psychological attacks as bullying. So I have to deal with bullying practically, as part of my everyday life.

The bullying strategy is basically really simple and consists of two steps. (1) You harass the target to provoke some kind of reaction %ndash anger, grief, laughter, a nervous break down, whatever. (2) You report the targets reaction to the manager, without telling about the context and how you provoked it, and act as if you are really concerned and wanting to help. These two steps are then repeated over and over again for an extended period of time; until the manager is convinced the target is insane. The typical result is that the target is fired and the bully promoted. Bullying is the actual taboo of modern society. You are not allowed to talk about it. And normally, the awareness of it is blocked out from even the targets mind until it is too late to do anything about it. The target is often injured by the totally irrational accusations and other bizarre behaviors from people influenced by the bully%rsquos slander. 5 % of the targets commit suicide. 5 % kill their bullies. Many of the targets get sick with PTSD and the severe cases are known to be extremely difficult to cure. Blaming the target is not a therapy that is usually recommended. On the contrary, many advice against it and there are a lot of terrifying reports regarding the outcome of such therapy on the bullying message boards.

From my own experiences, I would conclude that the targets main problem is that he has already taken on to much blame, and stored it in his body, for it to be healthful for him to deal with more. It is really difficult not to get trapped by the bullies%rsquo projections of blame. Even if you intellectually know they are false, your body reacts to all the blame projected on you by other people. How can you not feel guilty, when you live in a world where everybody believe you are and treat you as such, even if it is all based on lies?

In my case, the bullying kind of never ends. It is very difficult for the bullies to get me fired and it would be very difficult for me to get another job if I left. So, I am basically trapped and have to find some way to deal with it psychologically. The last year or so, the bullies have mainly targeted my wife, probably as an attempt to get at me indirectly. This was written a few years ago, but is basically how I still approach the bullying:

%rdquoBullying is attention training
---
Life is not about what you learn; it's about what you experience.
The life of a human being is designed by his/her higher self (or by
God) to provide an opportunity to experience certain aspects of life
in full and then to let go of them. The bullying experience is one
of those. The bullies are behaving like ants, running around, locked
up by and unable to escape from their own patterns of thinking. You
are just using them as a means for your own spiritual development.
You could consider it a training camp.

It is a difficult task to experience in full and let go of all the
direct and suppressed experiences you have from bullying. But when
you can do that the bullies can no longer harm you; you will proceed
to far above their level when it comes to the bullying situation. %hellip%rdquo

My main task is to release all that blame from my body. While doing that I some days feel extremely guilty, taking on blame for everything. Other days I feel extremely angry with the bullies for their slander and false accusations, with other people for believing them or with myself for taking on all this blame. Other days again, I feel grief for how my life has turned out. Most of the time, I just feel slightly depressed. On the spiritual level, I accept responsibility. But on the duality level I have to deal with slander and false accusations which are generally accepted as truth and hold on to what I know is true, just to keep sane.

So, please Goddess take all my issues related to bullying and blame! They are all yours. Thank you very much!