When I began this spiritual unfolding process, starting on this course with Mystress I felt like Alice entering Wonderland. The Waking the Serpent lesson was jumping into another rabbit hole. There I meet Morpheus as Divine Cow Mother and I happily take the red pill, several times.

Now I%rsquom beginning to understand that I%rsquove always been in Wonderland.

I begin to see that I influence people and things in way that it shapes my reality.

I keep myself grounded all the time, keep on sending energy in to my heart and listening to it. Communicating and surrendering to Goddess non-stop.

People come up to me and tell me how comfortable they feel around me. I ground myself and focus on my heart. At first I thought that all my male colleagues all were closeted gay or turning bisexual, now I understand that it%rsquos the Shakti charge that makes them attracted. Men as women, bosses and owners, come to me, or tell others, how fond they are. Many men come and touch me, and women pet me. Some repeat my behaviour and the things I say. It%rsquos the Shakti charge.

With the understanding that I can influence my world, my reality, also in a negative way, just as effective as positive...This frightens me. I have so much power over my reality.

By my own attitude I can make a negative environment to positive, but also a neutral environment negative, or a negative one to even more negative. It%rsquos up to me.

I have nothing to complain about.
I can not blame people.
I can not victimize myself if things or people don%rsquot work in the way I want to.

I expect people to understand me when I behave negative or dominant (when things apparently is not working), but that only makes them frightened and make them go into victim-mode.

I have to look at my self, and communicate in a way that is constructive and understandable. I behave in the way I want people to behave.

It sounds simple, but it%rsquos overwhelming. I just raise my head, and by the glimpse of looking directly into the eyes...it%rsquos powerful. It%rsquos magic.

It%rsquos so easy to just hide away. The attention is overwhelming. God Goddess take it. Thank you.

So, for me to focus on now, will be to focus on the positive things, and make more of that. Goddess makes that. I just focus on the heart, and people come and offer me advice and guidance. It%rsquos like Goddess possess their bodies. But everything and everyone is Goddess.

I%rsquom starting to feel love for everyone. Perfect as they are, teaching me about myself.

Goddess has it handled. Goddess provides. Now I know what that means. Now I know how little I know.

Everyday is a gift.

I%rsquove always referred myself as a tired old soul in a young mans body. Now I see myself as young spirit with so much to learn.

Edward

it seems you're doing really great work with progress, Edward; i don't think that i'm that quick!
But it gives a lot of encouragement, so thanks for let us know!

In a way it sounded like you have a little fear to get power mad LOLLLLL!!!!!

Maybe a good idea, to surrender real power or power-issues to Goddess too? kind of what i seem try to do...

I imagined you in a situation of (the classic) Paris in the legend with The three Goddesses, don't know if this has a meaning.

was tried to address you 'Alice', but didn't dare...

nice further surfin the big ocean,

ju.

: When I began this spiritual unfolding process, starting on this course with Mystress I felt like Alice entering Wonderland. The Waking the Serpent lesson was jumping into another rabbit hole. There I meet Morpheus as Divine Cow Mother and I happily take the red pill, several times.

: Now I%rsquom beginning to understand that I%rsquove always been in Wonderland.

: I begin to see that I influence people and things in way that it shapes my reality.

: I keep myself grounded all the time, keep on sending energy in to my heart and listening to it. Communicating and surrendering to Goddess non-stop.

: People come up to me and tell me how comfortable they feel around me. I ground myself and focus on my heart. At first I thought that all my male colleagues all were closeted gay or turning bisexual, now I understand that it%rsquos the Shakti charge that makes them attracted. Men as women, bosses and owners, come to me, or tell others, how fond they are. Many men come and touch me, and women pet me. Some repeat my behaviour and the things I say. It%rsquos the Shakti charge.

: With the understanding that I can influence my world, my reality, also in a negative way, just as effective as positive...This frightens me. I have so much power over my reality.

: By my own attitude I can make a negative environment to positive, but also a neutral environment negative, or a negative one to even more negative. It%rsquos up to me.

: I have nothing to complain about.
: I can not blame people.
: I can not victimize myself if things or people don%rsquot work in the way I want to.

: I expect people to understand me when I behave negative or dominant (when things apparently is not working), but that only makes them frightened and make them go into victim-mode.

: I have to look at my self, and communicate in a way that is constructive and understandable. I behave in the way I want people to behave.

: It sounds simple, but it%rsquos overwhelming. I just raise my head, and by the glimpse of looking directly into the eyes...it%rsquos powerful. It%rsquos magic.

: It%rsquos so easy to just hide away. The attention is overwhelming. God Goddess take it. Thank you.

: So, for me to focus on now, will be to focus on the positive things, and make more of that. Goddess makes that. I just focus on the heart, and people come and offer me advice and guidance. It%rsquos like Goddess possess their bodies. But everything and everyone is Goddess.

: I%rsquom starting to feel love for everyone. Perfect as they are, teaching me about myself.

: Goddess has it handled. Goddess provides. Now I know what that means. Now I know how little I know.

: Everyday is a gift.

:
: I%rsquove always referred myself as a tired old soul in a young mans body. Now I see myself as young spirit with so much to learn.

: Edward

Juergen,

I%rsquove seen my %rdquodarker%rdquo power-mad sides when I was younger...but I eventually found out that being feared was not a good way for being respected. I%rsquove been actively working with dissolving those sides, and develop the more skilful communication and empathy sides instead. It is continuous work, one has to develop self-esteem and faith, and at the same time break the ego down so that it does not get inflated.

Are you thinking about %ldquoThe Judgement of Paris%rdquo? I read the story with great interest.

Hehe...you can call me Alice. Or even better, Samantha. The female part of the mind.

Edward/Samantha

: it seems you're doing really great work with progress, Edward; i don't think that i'm that quick!
: But it gives a lot of encouragement, so thanks for let us know!

: In a way it sounded like you have a little fear to get power mad LOLLLLL!!!!!

: Maybe a good idea, to surrender real power or power-issues to Goddess too? kind of what i seem try to do...

: I imagined you in a situation of (the classic) Paris in the legend with The three Goddesses, don't know if this has a meaning.

: was tried to address you 'Alice', but didn't dare...

: nice further surfin the big ocean,

: ju.

Thanks for Your answer, Sam(antha), the dilemma of growth and ego-break is well put by you!

'Are you thinking about %ldquoThe Judgement of Paris%rdquo? I read the story with great interest. '

Exact, but i had forgotten most of it, so i read it too now for example from:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paris_%28mythology%29

but that's not the focus, what i had in mind, is rather the version i had in mind(grin).

three types of power-transfer, in short.

Aphrodite(we even don't need Helen here), het sex, baby making;
in the first lesson(Introduction to Kundalini), Mystress touches it initially, so it isn't our main cause here.

Athene stands for patriarchy, as shown in the Odyssee. Which is on climax and decline now, no growth agenda, too.

Hera stands for matriarchy, as was destroyed prior to the Paris judgement event and which is also a hard to sell success model for a voyage into bliss; Hera's children don't seem to mature, especially boys will always be boys, puer eternus, eventually only opening the door to patriarchy(when gilgamesh finally scorns Innana or Her Priestess); Hera is a temporary stopgap for the kids, Mystress teaches growth.

So what only i wanted to say is, the greek myth gives us nothing positive; it is completely useless the way it is usually scanned for enlightenment, as something 'cultural, meaningful' and what the sermon tells.

In the rest of the lesson, Mystress gives a short but powerful sketch of what to do.
The value of the greek story may give some hints what not to do.

By the way, I made an attempt to direct the energy from the root to the 2nd, bypassing the testes and it seems to work! Much less horny. --- Or getting old, hehehe.

jue.

:
: Juergen,

: I%rsquove seen my %rdquodarker%rdquo power-mad sides when I was younger...but I eventually found out that being feared was not a good way for being respected. I%rsquove been actively working with dissolving those sides, and develop the more skilful communication and empathy sides instead. It is continuous work, one has to develop self-esteem and faith, and at the same time break the ego down so that it does not get inflated.

: Are you thinking about %ldquoThe Judgement of Paris%rdquo? I read the story with great interest.

: Hehe...you can call me Alice. Or even better, Samantha. The female part of the mind.

: Edward/Samantha

: : it seems you're doing really great work with progress, Edward; i don't think that i'm that quick!
: : But it gives a lot of encouragement, so thanks for let us know!

: : In a way it sounded like you have a little fear to get power mad LOLLLLL!!!!!

: : Maybe a good idea, to surrender real power or power-issues to Goddess too? kind of what i seem try to do...

: : I imagined you in a situation of (the classic) Paris in the legend with The three Goddesses, don't know if this has a meaning.

: : was tried to address you 'Alice', but didn't dare...

: : nice further surfin the big ocean,

: : ju.