I feel a lot of love right now.  I've been doing mandala meditation this morning and it seems to have given me a boost in the heart chakra.  I am so in love with myself.  And that includes all of you and everyone else.  Every thing is just as much a part of me.  I guess I should rephrase that as "I am so in love with The Self."

I'm reading that warning about going too fast, about trying to push the river along.  Kundalini can drive a person crazy, especially the person doesn't understand the process, is afraid and fights against it.  (Can anyone see me, sitting in the back row, waving my hand frantically, saying, "Oh . . . oh . . . oh!")  I'm really happy things are being spelled out for me this time.  I have to read books three times before I know what they say.  Six month later I have to read them again.  One things I've learned (re-learned? understood more clearly?) through this course is that it's alright to be daft.  I don't have to fight to control the things that are happening inside my head and in my environment.  I can just surrender it all to God, Goddess or The Great and Holy Whatever is Out There (or in here).  And that Great and Holy Thing will take care of me.

And what is the Divine Beloved?  I know I read an earlier lesson that mentioned it, but I can't remember which one.  I've felt a force that loves me so intensely, and I've felt a tingling in my tallywacker for about a week.  Images Of several women I know keep coming to mind, and today while I was meditating on the heart chakra, it seemed to say, "I am the Divine Beloved.  I can take any form you can imagine."

I don't understand.

Paris

I think I got it now.

: I feel a lot of love right now.  I've been doing mandala meditation this morning and it seems to have given me a boost in the heart chakra.  I am so in love with myself.  And that includes all of you and everyone else.  Every thing is just as much a part of me.  I guess I should rephrase that as "I am so in love with The Self."

: I'm reading that warning about going too fast, about trying to push the river along.  Kundalini can drive a person crazy, especially the person doesn't understand the process, is afraid and fights against it.  (Can anyone see me, sitting in the back row, waving my hand frantically, saying, "Oh . . . oh . . . oh!")  I'm really happy things are being spelled out for me this time.  I have to read books three times before I know what they say.  Six month later I have to read them again.  One things I've learned (re-learned? understood more clearly?) through this course is that it's alright to be daft.  I don't have to fight to control the things that are happening inside my head and in my environment.  I can just surrender it all to God, Goddess or The Great and Holy Whatever is Out There (or in here).  And that Great and Holy Thing will take care of me.

: And what is the Divine Beloved?  I know I read an earlier lesson that mentioned it, but I can't remember which one.  I've felt a force that loves me so intensely, and I've felt a tingling in my tallywacker for about a week.  Images Of several women I know keep coming to mind, and today while I was meditating on the heart chakra, it seemed to say, "I am the Divine Beloved.  I can take any form you can imagine."

: I don't understand.

: Paris