I am dumbfounded! It would seem like being happy and not being fearful is just a choice. I realized, I don't want to be in a place of fear, of strange power games, of ridiculous theories etc. I don't even want those thoughts to enter my mind ever.

It seems very logical. I thought "well making that sort of statement is too much, its too much resistance to expect a place of no fear, strange power games and ridiculous theories." What a limiting thought.

I ask Goddess what I should do more of and the message or emotion is almost difficult for my brain to comprehend the answer she gives. Sort of like she is saying "the problems are self created in some way". Its like a conundrum that I can't explain in a few words.

I am still on the grounding step. Every time I ground I feel some difference but not a huge difference, because I have been doing it for so long, almost a year and a half. My shakti is pretty high octance I think. But that is sort of relative. However I still had a lot of fears, and an ungrounded attitude. I had a lot of the physical symptoms which represented grounded ness but not before long I found that I was ungrounded by some karma, or phenomena and became a little frustrated or a little distracted. As time went forward I felt that I could get back on to my feet faster.

Groundedness I think can be approach by an attitude. Somehow I believed that somehow by some middle path of living, with proper attitude, that it would induce grounding to the earth?

When I decided that I was no longer going to "not not succeed", my body seemed to vibrate and my feet started to tingle even more than they normally do.

I wanted to get this out on paper and hear any insights. Its like "I don't want to live with psychosis, so why do I even go there!?" Maybe because the heart is so powerful?

Scott

: I am dumbfounded! It would seem like being happy and not being fearful is just a choice.

Watching you guys growing is just amazing. It fills me with joy and love.

 Yes, Scott, it is just a choice... and all the God power of your Free Will is that power to choose, and choosing makes it so.

:I realized, I don't want to be in a place of fear, of strange power games, of ridiculous theories etc. I don't even want those thoughts to enter my mind ever.

When the thoughts arise, laugh at yourself, surrender them, and get grounded.

: It seems very logical. I thought "well making that sort of statement is too much, its too much resistance to expect a place of no fear, strange power games and ridiculous theories." What a limiting thought.

: I ask Goddess what I should do more of and the message or emotion is almost difficult for my brain to comprehend the answer she gives. Sort of like she is saying "the problems are self created in some way". Its like a conundrum that I can't explain in a few words.

They are self created, by what you choose to give your attention to. Focus on fear, fear grows. Focus on grounding, peace and joy grows.

: I am still on the grounding step. Every time I ground I feel some difference but not a huge difference, because I have been doing it for so long, almost a year and a half. My shakti is pretty high octance I think. But that is sort of relative. However I still had a lot of fears, and an ungrounded attitude. I had a lot of the physical symptoms which represented grounded ness but not before long I found that I was ungrounded by some karma, or phenomena and became a little frustrated or a little distracted. As time went forward I felt that I could get back on to my feet faster.

Yes. Grounding, all by itself, is a spiritual path. The energy from the Earth triggers karma but it also blows it out your head, especially if you can stay grounded, because being grounded is a natural state of surrender. The more grounded you get, the more you presist in grounding, the more enlightened you become.

 Life events sometimes will make you afraid and ungrounded, but choosing to get grounded again is choosing peace and joy. You have the power.

 Don't be so hard on yourself about fear: recognise that there is a difference between mind-fear and body-fear. The mind is inventive in imagining fears, and this affects the body... but for the body, fear is a signal and part of its system of comunication and self preservation.

 The problem is when the imaginary mind-fears trigger the body's adrenaline, fight or flight preservation systems. Then you get sick from stress.

 When the body is hungry, or thirsty or tired, it will be more easily fearful, and this will affect your mind. This sort of fear is just information, body talk intented to make you move to take care of the body's needs. Sleep, eat, drink and the fear is gone.

 When I am hungry I get quite hyper, and sometimes worried or cranky. When I start to eat, there is a moment when the body recognises it is being fed, and so it shall live another day, and it *relaxes*, it is a very blissful pleasureable sensation. The body rewarding me for taking care of it. I feel all kinds of physical and mental tension leave, and there is happiness!

  Wheras, when I am stressed by my thoughts, it tends to kill my appetite. I am not someone who eats more when I am emotionally stressed.
 My body feels fear and stress, if I do not feed it because if I do not feed it, it will die.  

 Your relationship with the body fears, will change when you realize it is just information.

 For example, I was in a car accident in Oct. I was stopped at a light and when it turned green the woman driving a big van behind me hit the gas as soon as she saw the trucks ahead of me move, and rammed my tiny car! My neck snapped back with whiplash, my body screamed and started shaking and hyperventilating.

 The woman told me to take deep breaths and calm down, and I told her to stop trying to tell me what to do! If my body wanted to shake and hyperventilate to release the shock and pain, then I was going to let it! When I stopped hyperventilating I started crying. Emotional release.

 I was aware and accepting of the shock, hurt, pain and fear in my body, and allowed it to express itself, and I was also aware that it was the body, not "me". The I AM witnessed the body's experience, with compassion, acceptance and unconditional love.

Nervousness comes up when I am driving and someome tailgates me... the body is afraid of more injury, but the mind is identified with the infinite and knows the fear comes up to be released. I surrender it, heal. Release the residual trauma from the body.

: Groundedness I think can be approach by an attitude. Somehow I believed that somehow by some middle path of living, with proper attitude, that it would induce grounding to the earth?

Heh, yeah, an ego trick!

: When I decided that I was no longer going to "not not succeed", my body seemed to vibrate and my feet started to tingle even more than they normally do.

: I wanted to get this out on paper and hear any insights. Its like "I don't want to live with psychosis, so why do I even go there!?" Maybe because the heart is so powerful?

Fears come up, to be released. The ego, resists. The heart does not seek psychosis.

Blessings!

: Scott