I have this horrible resistance to illness. When I go out, in public, I feel sick because of my K. WIth all of the symmptoms and stuff. I experience all of these weird phenomena that really make me feel like there is something wrong with me. I spent a lot of time with this today, and I feel sick sick sick. It is deep victimness it would seem.

It is odd how the pain is grounding, its like once I feel it it gets grounded.

I keep searching, for one focus that will catharticly lift all of this baggage that I am carrying. Where is the release button for everything? I can't burrow in and snuggle up with myself.

Blessings,
Scott