In light of the recent posts, a lot of things have been going on here. This time it's something I'd like to ask about.

The past few weeks I've experienced increasing heat, sometimes a cold heat. This along with a sense of different body parts vibrating, in particular my torso and spine. -Especially- after I ended the earlier post with "I am going to retire".  The relief of finishing that post and surrender so much, set a change in a lot of things.   I feel even more increasingly present in the now (Something that has grown considerably this spring in general), but also an odd sort of sensitivity. It's not the same one I was tormenting myself with before; this one comes very unexpectedly.

And I could really use some input on this one.

The past week I have also had a lot of dry spots in my face, and they seem more insistant than they usually are. I try lotion on them, but they dry up again very quickly. Usually these appear to me when the weather gets really cold or dry. But it's gotten warmer again and they are still around. The spots are all around my eyes, and are somewhat itchy and annoying, and quite noticable.

I was going through different notions with my heart, if it could be the weather, or the occasional kriyas, or something I eat, but can't find something that matches. It lead me to my wife, Kimberly, who had a look at me and instantly had visions of an intense fire that expands from me and around. She says it's connected with the spots in my face and an intense heat that is radiating from me. It was strong enough for her that she said it feels like direct sunlight against her. I could even direct it at or from her. Then she saw anger in the fire, anger and pride, and maybe fear.  And a burning howl, as if it is screaming. She said it looked like a very pissed off ego that doesn't want to go. (Image of a dog among other things)

When I told her about the affirmation to retire, she said it could very well match. My spine, butt, and arms are sometimes sometimes like they are filled with a searing fire, sometimes hot, sometimes cold. But my physical body seems to have a normal temperature. And it can come and go in waves. She says it needs cool, big drops of rain, maybe a cooling breath. I know of cooling techniques, like some pranayamas, but not certain how they would work, and if they would really take care of the issue at hand.

Surprisingly enough, I don't feel angry or tense or irritated most of the time at all. I feel pretty grounded and present.

I would apprechiate any suggestions on how to approach it, will spend some time in silence today and see what comes up for surrender yet again.

Namaste
Gustaf

: strong enough for her that she said it feels like direct sunlight against her. I could even

Wow Gustaf, it all sounds so interesting. Stuff that came to mind for me would be:
- cool your Pitta dosha
- go floating in a pool or lake
- experiment with charring something!
- meditate on someone/thing to gift any excess energy to, like a cold Grandman or somebody?
- honor & bow to the sun in sunrise & sunset
- perform sunrise/sunset eye meditations
- do a sun dance, call on you as Sun ceremony
- ask for the heat & red to trasmute into any other elemental & color (for the practice of it, since you're so charged up you likely can be creative!)

Hmmmm....It's interesting for sure. There's a complement to red energy I've heard of, there's something that brings it back into neutral, like if you were to meditate on blue for instance... Don't remember exactly. As for figuring out the whys/where from/what about? On my end I rarely figure it out whilst I'm in the thick of it - I usually surrender to not knowing, and then later go "OMG!!!" =)

Take good care, Sandra

: : strong enough for her that she said it feels like direct sunlight against her. I could even

: Wow Gustaf, it all sounds so interesting. Stuff that came to mind for me would be:
: - cool your Pitta dosha
: - go floating in a pool or lake
: - experiment with charring something!
: - meditate on someone/thing to gift any excess energy to, like a cold Grandman or somebody?
: - honor & bow to the sun in sunrise & sunset
: - perform sunrise/sunset eye meditations
: - do a sun dance, call on you as Sun ceremony
: - ask for the heat & red to trasmute into any other elemental & color (for the practice of it, since you're so charged up you likely can be creative!)

: Hmmmm....It's interesting for sure. There's a complement to red energy I've heard of, there's something that brings it back into neutral, like if you were to meditate on blue for instance... Don't remember exactly. As for figuring out the whys/where from/what about? On my end I rarely figure it out whilst I'm in the thick of it - I usually surrender to not knowing, and then later go "OMG!!!" =)

: Take good care, Sandra

Dear Sandra,

I am not very involved in Ayurveda, but I've started to, in particular because I've wanted some sort of direction for my dietary habits. Most of my life I was a batchelor who would whip up whatever was nearby. My constitution is mostly Vata-Pitta.

I am not sure wheter I am supposed to change the heat into something, or just let it run its course. I often feel it when I go into the heart space/heart voice.    This morning, I had a vision of a big field where oranges are grown, and my heart was struck with the unconditional love of Goddess. It has the same feeling as the light in my heart, that loves unconditionally no matter how much I yell or kick or beat at it. It keeps on giving the same love regardless.  

This seemed to trigger the howling. The more I go into the love, the more I howl, and being alone, working at home today, I howled and moaned out loud. The deeper I connect, the more intense the pain is.

Yesterday, I was preparing a yoga nidra recording for my yoga students. I had set up with a mic and so forth and started recording it. When I lead yoga nidra, I become very relaxed, very deep, and the words come from very deep inside. At this point the heat and tingle turned into rushes of burning cold instead, the same kind that comes from pranayama, which I have pretty much retired from because I don't need it right now.  But here I was sitting, calmly going through this yoga nidra for the recording and the burning cold was wicked intense. Not painful, just very intense.

When I am in that state, I forget to look for anything. The moment I reach out for the infinite, for the heart voice, there is pain. It wasn't this obvious before. Of course, there was a mass-exodus of the entities that may have hidden it.  But now it is clear, raw and naked. I cradle it in my heart, I hold it gently, and ask Goddess to take care of it.  It feels like a crying child, or a deserted puppy dog. And the flame is always intense, even though it changes form.. It is often a rushing, sparkling and tingling heat, but can also be an intense rushing chill, or a humming vibration that makes my spine feel as if it was a guitar string that was plucked, making the rest of my body follow suit.

I've started to realize where the peace is. But I've also started to realize where the pain is.

Namaste
Gustaf

I've had that experience. Burning is good!
I recall once, I prayed to be ascended again, and a friend started acting strange. Finally she confessed she was getting persistent visions of me burning to death! Imagine her surprise when the info made me dance with joy.

 Even so, I will give you a visualization that is the only maintenance Tummo requires, and most folks never get the symptoms of needing it. For me it shows up as itchy watering allergic eyes. I get it sometimes when I do many initiations and do not clear and disconnect properly afterwards. It is like the tummo cannot burn what someone else is not ready to let go of, and it acts like wet leaves on the fire... smouldering smoky.

 It is a chakra meditation. Starting at the root, spend a few minutes with each chakra, visualizing it as burning white hot like a welders torch.
 It functions like one of those special hot burning fireplace logs you can buy to clean your chimney.

 Burn baby burn!!

: In light of the recent posts, a lot of things have been going on here. This time it's something I'd like to ask about.

: The past few weeks I've experienced increasing heat, sometimes a cold heat. This along with a sense of different body parts vibrating, in particular my torso and spine. -Especially- after I ended the earlier post with "I am going to retire".  The relief of finishing that post and surrender so much, set a change in a lot of things.   I feel even more increasingly present in the now (Something that has grown considerably this spring in general), but also an odd sort of sensitivity. It's not the same one I was tormenting myself with before; this one comes very unexpectedly.

: And I could really use some input on this one.

: The past week I have also had a lot of dry spots in my face, and they seem more insistant than they usually are. I try lotion on them, but they dry up again very quickly. Usually these appear to me when the weather gets really cold or dry. But it's gotten warmer again and they are still around. The spots are all around my eyes, and are somewhat itchy and annoying, and quite noticable.

: I was going through different notions with my heart, if it could be the weather, or the occasional kriyas, or something I eat, but can't find something that matches. It lead me to my wife, Kimberly, who had a look at me and instantly had visions of an intense fire that expands from me and around. She says it's connected with the spots in my face and an intense heat that is radiating from me. It was strong enough for her that she said it feels like direct sunlight against her. I could even direct it at or from her. Then she saw anger in the fire, anger and pride, and maybe fear.  And a burning howl, as if it is screaming. She said it looked like a very pissed off ego that doesn't want to go. (Image of a dog among other things)

: When I told her about the affirmation to retire, she said it could very well match. My spine, butt, and arms are sometimes sometimes like they are filled with a searing fire, sometimes hot, sometimes cold. But my physical body seems to have a normal temperature. And it can come and go in waves. She says it needs cool, big drops of rain, maybe a cooling breath. I know of cooling techniques, like some pranayamas, but not certain how they would work, and if they would really take care of the issue at hand.

: Surprisingly enough, I don't feel angry or tense or irritated most of the time at all. I feel pretty grounded and present.

: I would apprechiate any suggestions on how to approach it, will spend some time in silence today and see what comes up for surrender yet again.

: Namaste
: Gustaf

: I've had that experience. Burning is good!
:  I recall once, I prayed to be ascended again, and a friend started acting strange. Finally she confessed she was getting persistent visions of me burning to death! Imagine her surprise when the info made me dance with joy.

:   Even so, I will give you a visualization that is the only maintenance Tummo requires, and most folks never get the symptoms of needing it. For me it shows up as itchy watering allergic eyes. I get it sometimes when I do many initiations and do not clear and disconnect properly afterwards. It is like the tummo cannot burn what someone else is not ready to let go of, and it acts like wet leaves on the fire... smouldering smoky.

:   It is a chakra meditation. Starting at the root, spend a few minutes with each chakra, visualizing it as burning white hot like a welders torch.
:   It functions like one of those special hot burning fireplace logs you can buy to clean your chimney.

:   Burn baby burn!!

Wow, that would explain the experience I've had with my eyes too. Sometimes I get K rushes and my eyes start to water and my nose itches. It's happenening less than it used to though. Maybe it had to clear out.

I will do the chakra meditation for some time and see what happens.  Thanks!

I could also be dealing with my own issues, but I started to have a problem with itchy and watery eyes for a little longer than a year though.  I'll start doing the chakra clearing meditation.  This is exactly what I needed to hear, because I just woke up with watery eyes and an itchy nose.

=)

Dear family

I am also very happy for this information.. and it would be nice if you made it part of the course.. i know that it is already between the lines, but when there is so many things going it can be hard to draw even the most obvious of conclusions.. and i will work with it as well.. i think it is a must for unconsciouss empaths (semi-consciouss) atleast untill the kundalini has cleared out all the unbalanced thinking and believing. But thank you very much for this info it was excactly what i needed to hear but it raised one more question.. if the irritation is due to the fact that the inner "fire/ice" is out of balance then what to do? cold showers or burning the excess fire away?

And also a big thank you to the rest of you for sharing you experiences.. it is great to know that there are brothers and sisters in arms all over the world.

And Gustaf thank you for sharing the trinity surrender.. i had not put the pieces together like this before.. and i was not fully consciouss that some of my difficulties in surrender was because i could not take the stuff in and move it.. very usefull for me and it has made me a part of the surrendering/clearing process and i like that because if i am too unattached or caught in the left side of my brain.. the stuff that comes up feels so foreign to me, that i do not really bother surrendering it.

Wish you all well

Blessings

Tommy, Denmark

: I could also be dealing with my own issues, but I started to have a problem with itchy and watery eyes for a little longer than a year though.  I'll start doing the chakra clearing meditation.  This is exactly what I needed to hear, because I just woke up with watery eyes and an itchy nose.

: =)