Sometimes I think that I'm crazy because I have a different believe system.  I like to read a lot of about Kundalini, and metaphysical, and self-help stuff.  But I'm wondering if some of what is happening is just my imagination and I might be going crazy and I don't even know it or try to deny it.

Does anybody here share the same feeling?

Yes, I have that feeling at times as well.  But then I realize the odds of the accepted belief systems being 100% correct are slim.  Why did I grow up thinking Christianity was the absolute truth?  Because a Roman emperor decided a millenium and a half ago that it would be the state religion.  One thing led to another, and voila...half of the world is Christian.

Even if he was correct in choosing a spiritual path, so much has happened between then and now...wars, different agendas, additions (and subtractions) from the doctrine...You'd be crazy to blindly accept it all now without careful investigation.

I'm early in this process and not sure where it will lead.  But one thing I am sure of is that regardless of the outcome, it's *healthy* to question and discover things experientally rather than take someone else's word for it.

So am I crazy?  No.  But it is difficult at times to hold different beliefs from the majority.  That's one of the reasons this room is here, to share our feelings with likeminded folks.

: Sometimes I think that I'm crazy because I have a different believe system.  I like to read a lot of about Kundalini, and metaphysical, and self-help stuff.  But I'm wondering if some of what is happening is just my imagination and I might be going crazy and I don't even know it or try to deny it.

: Does anybody here share the same feeling?

I think that you are correct, and it's nice to hear how comforting u r, and as mystress would say, i think that i was not grounded, and that's why i was having those thoughts.  And since I've had it for several brief instances, in one of those down moments, i decided to write it down.

And u r right, it's awesome that we are able to communicate in a place like this, and share our experiences and dreams.  And to find out that there are a lot of people in the world that share our same viewpoints, when we can't find a lot of those people in our immediate families, work, close friends, etc...

What's even better is the sense of humor that I've seen in the posts of a lot of people in this bulletin board.

Blessings,

Sandy

: I think that you are correct, and it's nice to hear how comforting u r, and as mystress would say, i think that i was not grounded, and that's why i was having those thoughts.  And since I've had it for several brief instances, in one of those down moments, i decided to write it down.

: And u r right, it's awesome that we are able to communicate in a place like this, and share our experiences and dreams.  And to find out that there are a lot of people in the world that share our same viewpoints, when we can't find a lot of those people in our immediate families, work, close friends, etc...

: What's even better is the sense of humor that I've seen in the posts of a lot of people in this bulletin board.

: Blessings,

: Sandy

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Dear Sandy
I'm so glad you said that about the grounding.  
When I read your original message I really wanted to respond and I tried.  Three times in fact, but each time I would ground before sending it and...well..sometimes words seem rather dry after. Plus I could then see my empathic, I know it all, in for an essay about All crazy moments, parts of me in action.  By the end of it I just thought bugger this, all I was trying to say was "yeah, I know that feeling, hope your cool". As it turned out Acolyte sent you a lovely reply.

But because of that and your honest answer I'm sending this:

I've got tons of ungrounded messages on here and many a time looked back on them and thought, should of tried grounding before sending that one. But I found grounding differcult, as I do writing coherent messages sometimes.  I can go through excruitiating emotions before finally dragging myself to ground.  Its taken me until the last two weeks to do eight a day and only because I'd vito'ed every other concern! (the most before then was 5 or 6).  

Personally, I'd love to hear any experiences or dreams, grounded or in the process of trying.  Or insights gained from reading. Scilence speaks volumes(normally your own wording) but sometimes, I could do with out the ruler slapping on my head for abit.  To just be able to share how the course is going, as it is, full of the emotions, intellectual musing and firm statements that will ultimately change and pass anyway(normally about two seconds after pressing the submit message button), and that was what Mystress said the tea room was for.  Sharing.  As is.  

(Anyway,anyone still reading at this point?)

Essay almost over but I thought I'd share with you some really ungrounded, crazy moments from when my kundalini first broke:  

1) standing outside a Catherdral dressed in a nuns costume, smoking a ciggie, saying afternoon to everyone.

2) Standing at the bottom of a mall and shouting "Oi" at the top of my voice to a pretend person at the top of the mall, then when everyone turns to look, walking off as though it wasn't me.

3)Sending my bank manager a letter requesting cancellation of all my debts, with lots of love at the end.  (He sent it back saying "no").

Almost finished, but not quite...

I also wanted to say "don't worry about the crazy bits" but I know that your cool anyway.  It's just, I worked with mental health patients and learning differculties for a period of years, with people who were termed by society as 'crazy'. Yet I spent time with people who could laugh in the moment, said what they liked and didn't care what anyone else thought.  I learned alot from people that society called 'patients'.  (ok, hitting someone over the head with an ashtray is abit harsh, but I'd have been challenging if someone decided what I could and couldn't have on the food front....ashtray victim was unhurt).  

The point is, all their choice was taken away, everything, even what they wore.  Pumped full of drugs, while someone continually said they weren't right or crazy.  There are so many people who want to tell another what they are (do it my self sometimes)but I know I'm lucky to have a choice. I also know that crazy isn't always as crazy as it seems and that its better to be abit crazy sometimes than to arrive at the pearly gates looking like you've just been ironed.

Anyway thats it,  

Thanks again for such honest replies.

Lots of Love
Squirrell

ps.Eight groundings and counting...still have a feeling that when I press that button...

: : I think that you are correct, and it's nice to hear how comforting u r, and as mystress would say, i think that i was not grounded, and that's why i was having those thoughts.  And since I've had it for several brief instances, in one of those down moments, i decided to write it down.

: : And u r right, it's awesome that we are able to communicate in a place like this, and share our experiences and dreams.  And to find out that there are a lot of people in the world that share our same viewpoints, when we can't find a lot of those people in our immediate families, work, close friends, etc...

: : What's even better is the sense of humor that I've seen in the posts of a lot of people in this bulletin board.

: : Blessings,

: : Sandy

: ******WARNING**LENGTH OF POSTING - ESSAY STANDARD *******

: Dear Sandy
: I'm so glad you said that about the grounding.  
: When I read your original message I really wanted to respond and I tried.  Three times in fact, but each time I would ground before sending it and...well..sometimes words seem rather dry after. Plus I could then see my empathic, I know it all, in for an essay about All crazy moments, parts of me in action.  By the end of it I just thought bugger this, all I was trying to say was "yeah, I know that feeling, hope your cool". As it turned out Acolyte sent you a lovely reply.

--Hey Squirrel, that's very nice to hear that, that you cared about responding to that e-mail, and sometimes it's the thought what counts. =-)

: But because of that and your honest answer I'm sending this:

: I've got tons of ungrounded messages on here and many a time looked back on them and thought, should of tried grounding before sending that one. But I found grounding differcult, as I do writing coherent messages sometimes.  I can go through excruitiating emotions before finally dragging myself to ground.  Its taken me until the last two weeks to do eight a day and only because I'd vito'ed every other concern! (the most before then was 5 or 6).  

--I'm glad I'm not alone havign trouble getting grounded, and not only when big issues come up, it's during my every day life, but I noticed that since I started this course, I started to be a happier person.

: Personally, I'd love to hear any experiences or dreams, grounded or in the process of trying.  Or insights gained from reading. Scilence speaks volumes(normally your own wording) but sometimes, I could do with out the ruler slapping on my head for abit.  To just be able to share how the course is going, as it is, full of the emotions, intellectual musing and firm statements that will ultimately change and pass anyway(normally about two seconds after pressing the submit message button), and that was what Mystress said the tea room was for.  Sharing.  As is.  

: (Anyway,anyone still reading at this point?)

---I'm sure a lot of us are.

: Essay almost over but I thought I'd share with you some really ungrounded, crazy moments from when my kundalini first broke:  

: 1) standing outside a Catherdral dressed in a nuns costume, smoking a ciggie, saying afternoon to everyone.

: 2) Standing at the bottom of a mall and shouting "Oi" at the top of my voice to a pretend person at the top of the mall, then when everyone turns to look, walking off as though it wasn't me.

U got me laughing on these two, and it makes me wonder, how come when u have a little kid doing this is so funny, but when a "grown-up" does it, it stops being funny for some people, i think that's one of the reasons we start wearing masks and try
to appear to the world something we are not.  and like mystress says that with the kundalini awakening, the ego is  dismantling, and it's a fun process, though a little disturbing sometimes, but goddess wont' send us any more than we can handle.
we can just trust in her
: 3)Sending my bank manager a letter requesting cancellation of all my debts, with lots of love at the end.  (He sent it back saying "no").

--This one is the winner, this one is awesome, if I would have been the bank manager, I would have given u like a 5 dollar credit, as least for originality.
: Almost finished, but not quite...

: I also wanted to say "don't worry about the crazy bits" but I know that your cool anyway.  It's just, I worked with mental health patients and learning differculties for a period of years, with people who were termed by society as 'crazy'. Yet I spent time with people who could laugh in the moment, said what they liked and didn't care what anyone else thought.  I learned alot from people that society called 'patients'.  (ok, hitting someone over the head with an ashtray is abit harsh, but I'd have been challenging if someone decided what I could and couldn't have on the food front....ashtray victim was unhurt).  

: The point is, all their choice was taken away, everything, even what they wore.  Pumped full of drugs, while someone continually said they weren't right or crazy.  There are so many people who want to tell another what they are (do it my self sometimes)but I know I'm lucky to have a choice. I also know that crazy isn't always as crazy as it seems and that its better to be abit crazy sometimes than to arrive at the pearly gates looking like you've just been ironed.
--Yeah, some people think they are sphizophrenic when they start bein psychics, and it's hard to get doctors to understand that thye might not be allucinating, and they might actually be seeing entities
: Anyway thats it,  

: Thanks again for such honest replies.
--i think u r also very honest

: Lots of Love

--Love returned

: Squirrell

: ps.Eight groundings and counting...still have a feeling that when I press that button...

ps2, YEah, I guess i'll get to the eight groundings a day later on, I'm still on five, and feeling great for the most part of the day.

I hear ya--i was actually diagnosed as bipolar so when i started experiencing some of these thing s i thought i might have been losing my mind--but i have really used the net to reach out and see just how many people there are out there that believe in the same stuff that i do and i feel al ot better--it can be lonely sometimes--because sometimes i feel like i  have very little in common with most of the people arounf me who do not look at life the way that i do--but connecting to others like people on here makes me feel better\\

light and love,

shannon

: Sometimes I think that I'm crazy because I have a different believe system.  I like to read a lot of about Kundalini, and metaphysical, and self-help stuff.  But I'm wondering if some of what is happening is just my imagination and I might be going crazy and I don't even know it or try to deny it.

: Does anybody here share the same feeling?

You know, I experience the same thing. I am sure some people think I neglect FST due to my lack of responses to posts here. In truth, I check the board a few times a week, often re-reading posts several times... but I feel "Goddess has it handled" and usually there is naught for me to say. I see perfection in you all, in the beauty of your growing and sharing in this sacred space. Thank you for that.
  Blessings...

: I'm so glad you said that about the grounding.  
: When I read your original message I really wanted to respond and I tried.  Three times in fact, but each time I would ground before sending it and...well..sometimes words seem rather dry after. Plus I could then see my empathic, I know it all, in for an essay about All crazy moments, parts of me in action.  By the end of it I just thought bugger this, all I was trying to say was "yeah, I know that feeling, hope your cool". As it turned out Acolyte sent you a lovely reply.
: Squirrell