At first I was startled, then shocked.  I'm still shocked.
The realization that the part of me that I have been searching
for all my life, that's left me lonely and alienated from everything was right here all along.  My soul, just a little
tiny spark that connects me with everything.
All Mystress did was show it to me.  A little spark with a lot
of power that was inside a knot, or a steel cage as she described it, inside my solar plexus chakra.  The knot was made up of terrifying memories and experiences that I have had as a kid which are coming up now.  A blind spot inside me.  Memories of being terrified when my dad took out his guns when he was drunk, when he shot himself in the face right in the middle of our living room, hiding in the woods at night while both my parents were drunk out of their minds.  Not feeling safe anywhere, fearing for the physical safety of my  brother and sisters, it's all coming out. I had tried to protect my soul, because my soul is my very life, not knowing that it is about the only thing that can't be hurt.  I have kept it hidden away,
even from my own self.  Sheesh, i'm really going thru it right now.  I'm going to go lay down.
Love to everyone.
Coriel  

: At first I was startled, then shocked.  I'm still shocked.
: The realization that the part of me that I have been searching
: for all my life, that's left me lonely and alienated from everything was right here all along.  My soul, just a little
: tiny spark that connects me with everything.
: All Mystress did was show it to me.  A little spark with a lot
: of power that was inside a knot, or a steel cage as she described it, inside my solar plexus chakra.  The knot was made up of terrifying memories and experiences that I have had as a kid which are coming up now.  A blind spot inside me.  Memories of being terrified when my dad took out his guns when he was drunk, when he shot himself in the face right in the middle of our living room, hiding in the woods at night while both my parents were drunk out of their minds.  Not feeling safe anywhere, fearing for the physical safety of my  brother and sisters, it's all coming out. I had tried to protect my soul, because my soul is my very life, not knowing that it is about the only thing that can't be hurt.  I have kept it hidden away,
: even from my own self.  Sheesh, i'm really going thru it right now.  I'm going to go lay down.
: Love to everyone.
: Coriel  

Hello Coriel, I have been quite busy recently and only today for the first time in weeks take a short moment to come have tea with everyone here and read your port. I felt moved by your post and just wanted to send lots of love and rainbows of tender thoughts. Great you freed your soul from her cage, it is a great bird to fly on and be one wit the whole...
Love
DeviRam

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: Hello Coriel, I have been quite busy recently and only today for the first time in weeks take a short moment to come have tea with everyone here and read your port. I felt moved by your post and just wanted to send lots of love and rainbows of tender thoughts. Great you freed your soul from her cage, it is a great bird to fly on and be one wit the whole...
: Love
: DeviRam

Thank you DeviRam

Hello Coriel,

What liberation that you have started your journey of freeing your soul from its cage...  I'm very happy for you, and that you have the guidance of Mystress.

After not sleeping for ten days, the television became very interactive with me, and at one point there was a singing apple (I kid you not) encased in a roundish shell of hardned brown matter, and I knew that it was representative of my soul, wishing to be set free.  At that time of my life, I felt so disempowered, confused and frightened.

The rate of my bliss has grown exponentially after that period of my life.  The beginning was slow for me, but hope and faith were present, at last.  I hope you find your soul's bliss real soon Coriel.  

Wishing you radiant love and happiness...

: At first I was startled, then shocked.  I'm still shocked.
: The realization that the part of me that I have been searching
: for all my life, that's left me lonely and alienated from everything was right here all along.  My soul, just a little
: tiny spark that connects me with everything.
: All Mystress did was show it to me.  A little spark with a lot
: of power that was inside a knot, or a steel cage as she described it, inside my solar plexus chakra.  The knot was made up of terrifying memories and experiences that I have had as a kid which are coming up now.  A blind spot inside me.  Memories of being terrified when my dad took out his guns when he was drunk, when he shot himself in the face right in the middle of our living room, hiding in the woods at night while both my parents were drunk out of their minds.  Not feeling safe anywhere, fearing for the physical safety of my  brother and sisters, it's all coming out. I had tried to protect my soul, because my soul is my very life, not knowing that it is about the only thing that can't be hurt.  I have kept it hidden away,
: even from my own self.  Sheesh, i'm really going thru it right now.  I'm going to go lay down.
: Love to everyone.
: Coriel  

Coriel:
  That session with you was so beautiful...

  You are not the first FST student to find their soul. I think I will add another lesson to the course on the topic.

to all:
  The soul is a tiny but bright spark of light. Look within yourself to find it. Ask your heart or your Beloved to set your soul free and put it back where it belongs.
  Blessings!

: At first I was startled, then shocked.  I'm still shocked.
: The realization that the part of me that I have been searching
: for all my life, that's left me lonely and alienated from everything was right here all along.  My soul, just a little
: tiny spark that connects me with everything.
: All Mystress did was show it to me.  A little spark with a lot
: of power that was inside a knot, or a steel cage as she described it, inside my solar plexus chakra.  The knot was made up of terrifying memories and experiences that I have had as a kid which are coming up now.  A blind spot inside me.  Memories of being terrified when my dad took out his guns when he was drunk, when he shot himself in the face right in the middle of our living room, hiding in the woods at night while both my parents were drunk out of their minds.  Not feeling safe anywhere, fearing for the physical safety of my  brother and sisters, it's all coming out. I had tried to protect my soul, because my soul is my very life, not knowing that it is about the only thing that can't be hurt.  I have kept it hidden away,
: even from my own self.  Sheesh, i'm really going thru it right now.  I'm going to go lay down.
: Love to everyone.
: Coriel