Hi. I'm Vickie. Joined recently. Have been reading the K list for a few years now. Have also been following Mystress Angelique's teaching on the K list. I've have learned so much from her over the years. :)Not sure why it took me so long to join the Fire Serpent Tantra but I am here now. I am glad to be here. I'm ready for what ever comes next.

For about the last 6 weeks- since the 3rd week of April I have been experiencing strong energy surges at times and at others bliss at the sound of a bird singing or the color of the leaves as they come out of their winter sleep. The energy lasts for some hours during the day-5-8 appx. I feel a fullness/ pressure in my torso-solar plexus to throat. I have a tougher time concentrating on anything.
I feel restless. I am getting to the point to where I don't react as strongly when it comes on and I at recognize that it is here. When I am in this state I have been more likely to react strongly emotionally to situations. I notice that when i do the grounding exercise the energy flys through me like lightening. I feel like a water pipe that has more water than what the pipe would normally hold. At times I stand back and watch as the world happens all around me and at other times I am joining in what feels like the choas.
Interesting.

I've been reading about some of the experiences others have shared here in the tea room. It feels very warm and inviting. I am grateful to be here. Thank you Mystress for this opportunity.

With surges and Love, , Vickie

Welcome Vickie,

: Hi. I'm Vickie. Joined recently. Have been reading the K list for a few years now. Have also been following Mystress Angelique's teaching on the K list. I've have learned so much from her over the years. :)Not sure why it took me so long to join the Fire Serpent Tantra but I am here now. I am glad to be here. I'm ready for what ever comes next.

 This is a wonderful place to learn and grow!

: For about the last 6 weeks- since the 3rd week of April I have been experiencing strong energy surges at times and at others bliss at the sound of a bird singing or the color of the leaves as they come out of their winter sleep. The energy lasts for some hours during the day-5-8 appx. I feel a fullness/ pressure in my torso-solar plexus to throat. I have a tougher time concentrating on anything.

 Never a dull moment, heh? :-)  K-energy is a lot like the weather...always flowing, peaking and subsiding.  Sometimes the surges surprise me.  Mystress often reminds us of the fine art of surrender.  Become a K-surfer and ride that wave...

: I feel restless. I am getting to the point to where I don't react as strongly when it comes on and I at recognize that it is here. When I am in this state I have been more likely to react strongly emotionally to situations. I notice that when i do the grounding exercise the energy flys through me like lightening. I feel like a water pipe that has more water than what the pipe would normally hold. At times I stand back and watch as the world happens all around me and at other times I am joining in what feels like the choas.
: Interesting.

 It is interesting. Each of us has such unique symptoms, yet we share so much in common also.  I know what you mean about the strong emotional reactions that can occur.  It does help when you get to where you recognize it all as part of the process.

: I've been reading about some of the experiences others have shared here in the tea room. It feels very warm and inviting. I am grateful to be here. Thank you Mystress for this opportunity.

: With surges and Love, , Vickie

 It is a warm and caring place to just "be."  Thanks for the intro!   Shara

Hi Shara! Thank you for the welcome. The energy is calmer for the most part today. Just a very nice quiet feeling. Did lots of work in my dreams last night. I remember just a few things. A person annointed my chakras from the top down. Was doing some work in a room and Mystress peeked in saw that things were going well and she went on. There was also a gathering of women. The part I remember was that we were getting ready for sleep in a dorm like situation. After all the dreaming I woke up feeling very good. Refreshed. Thanks again. I'll be quiet now and observe. ) With Love, Vickie

: Welcome Vickie,

: Hi Shara! Thank you for the welcome. The energy is calmer for the most part today. Just a very nice quiet feeling. Did lots of work in my dreams last night. I remember just a few things. A person annointed my chakras from the top down. Was doing some work in a room and Mystress peeked in saw that things were going well and she went on. There was also a gathering of women. The part I remember was that we were getting ready for sleep in a dorm like situation. After all the dreaming I woke up feeling very good. Refreshed. Thanks again. I'll be quiet now and observe. ) With Love, Vickie

Thats really fun, I read your posts one evening, and following morning has a fantasy that we were in a kind of magical boarding school and I wanted to prepare a bed for you and make it nace to welcome you,,, moring being probably night for you (I am in europe and you in NA?) it was you night and I was just picking in your dream...
Why would you sta quiet? If you have been with Mystress since long, you must have many insights to share... Anyway welcome...

: : Welcome Vickie,

:  

: Hi. I'm Vickie. Joined recently. Have been reading the K list for a few years now. Have also been following Mystress Angelique's teaching on the K list. I've have learned so much from her over the years. :)Not sure why it took me so long to join the Fire Serpent Tantra but I am here now. I am glad to be here. I'm ready for what ever comes next.

I am really glad to have you here.

: For about the last 6 weeks- since the 3rd week of April I have been experiencing strong energy surges at times and at others bliss at the sound of a bird singing or the color of the leaves as they come out of their winter sleep. The energy lasts for some hours during the day-5-8 appx. I feel a fullness/ pressure in my torso-solar plexus to throat. I have a tougher time concentrating on anything.
: I feel restless. I am getting to the point to where I don't react as strongly when it comes on and I at recognize that it is here. When I am in this state I have been more likely to react strongly emotionally to situations. I notice that when i do the grounding exercise the energy flys through me like lightening. I feel like a water pipe that has more water than what the pipe would normally hold. At times I stand back and watch as the world happens all around me and at other times I am joining in what feels like the choas.
: Interesting.

My post to K-list about wanting and duality... the response to Lillian has some explanation for you. The details are the part I had not gotten to writing before I accidentally posted it.

 Solar plexus to throat oversized intensity is processing alchemy. The fires can be blissful. If you focus on what the energy is doing, probably you will notice karma stuff coming in at your power chakra and burning/transmuting on the way up... the energy that comes in becomes multiplied and purified, like wood for a fire and it wants to come out your throat. Ideally, as creative expression. All that restless energy of Doing. Shakti, and if you do not give her an artistic outlet then the energy will go to creating drama in your life as it looks for some other exit.

  Not being able to concentrate is a blessing, as stray thoughts or too much attention to any one subject can have unexpected results. Grrl, you are cooking with gas!

  I am wondering where all this karmic stuff is coming from, as you yourself have seemed pretty clear, to me. Did you make some aggreements to process Karma on behalf of other people, or the planet? Well, that kind of work can be very rewarding, once you have grown the equiptment to handle it. Once you start to give it a creative expression it will change, the fullness at your throat will fade and the heart and power chakra will have a pleasant fullness, like thanksgiving dinner at Goddess banquet.

 What you put out comes back multiplied and the result is a load of Shakti that is pure creative energy. Figure out what She wants you to aim it at, and get things done. Do some spring cleaning, redecorate your house... whatever makes a good release and is blissful in the doing.

: I've been reading about some of the experiences others have shared here in the tea room. It feels very warm and inviting. I am grateful to be here. Thank you Mystress for this opportunity.

: With surges and Love, , Vickie

Blessings!

  This thread surprised me. You ladies found the Mansion. Heh. An interesting development. Actually, Vicky found it and Devi followed her thought. That has happened before, with women of power.

 Not too surprising you might find yourself there, vicky, as I have spoken to you in the past about my plants to manifest it in real life. The Mansion project. Plans set aside for the time being... but in spirit it has existed for a long time, me and my Tribe hang out there in Spirit, and students come to visit and study there sometimes. Many people have written to me of their dreams of visiting it.

 I cannot even say it is my creation. It was a gift of Goddess, a gift of time.

 I first dreamt being there in a Shamanic travelling dream at age 9. I was transported into the mind and body of my future Self, a self realized Master-Mystress with a silent mind, plus naked slaves and devotees running around this enormous building that had been only partly renovated at the time of the dream. I had many such time travel dreams in my childhood, and I have found the physical locations of most of them, in real life... including the Mansion, which turned out to be an empty 400 room hotel on the central coast of BC.  Most of the events in the dreams did not come to be, but the locations were real, and I saw some things that had not been invented yet, like laser light shows projected onto clouds, desktop computers and internet.
  My destiny changed... or perhaps I time travelled into my future self dreaming.

 When people dream of me, sometimes they bring me into surroundings that are familiar to them, and at other times they find me in my Mansion, or on the grounds...The Mansion has many rooms for guests, play and meetings, and is done in a kind of Louis 14th style. Very grand.

  Blessings!

: : Hi Shara! Thank you for the welcome. The energy is calmer for the most part today. Just a very nice quiet feeling. Did lots of work in my dreams last night. I remember just a few things. A person annointed my chakras from the top down. Was doing some work in a room and Mystress peeked in saw that things were going well and she went on. There was also a gathering of women. The part I remember was that we were getting ready for sleep in a dorm like situation. After all the dreaming I woke up feeling very good. Refreshed. Thanks again. I'll be quiet now and observe. ) With Love, Vickie

: Thats really fun, I read your posts one evening, and following morning has a fantasy that we were in a kind of magical boarding school and I wanted to prepare a bed for you and make it nace to welcome you,,, moring being probably night for you (I am in europe and you in NA?) it was you night and I was just picking in your dream...
: Why would you sta quiet? If you have been with Mystress since long, you must have many insights to share... Anyway welcome...

: : : Welcome Vickie,

: :  

 Oh criminy. heheh. I 'm writing this over again. Having a bit of a problem replying to the messages. Ok here I go. )

As for the mansion, I think I spent the night there. I had the feeling that the chakra annointing happened in one of the rooms too. Also the work I did later where you peeked in feels like it was there too. Wonderful!

The advice you gave  about directing the strong energy to something creative was perfect. I have in the past gone out looking for 'causes' in which to direct the energy into. In the recent past I have been directing it to more artistically creative things. I love decorative faux painting and in the winter that's  where i direct the energy when it gets strong. In the spring/ summer am digging and plantingvegetable and flower gardens. Wonderful.

Right now I am quiet. Feels good. Now I am having people call me with crisis situations going on in their lives. So far I feel like i am handling them ok and the people are appreciative. It seems to be helping them. It's mostly talking over the phone. Mystress you mentioned something in the last note about growing the right equipment to handle and process the karma from other people. How do I make sure that I have that equipment?
I don't want to get caught up in all the choas. Have been there before don't feel the need to be there any more. As people call me I just do what feels right to me. It may be sympathizing or encouraging and one time it was just verbally walloping on a guy who was projecting all his crap on me.  It brought him back around and he apologized. It was a very interesting interaction. I have never spoken to someone like that but it felt like what the situation needed. A fascinating interaction.
Have also been asking the four elements for cleansing after interactions with people. So that's my story for now. Thanks for the welcomes and advice. Thanks to Devi for the fresh bed and Mystress for the mansion. ) Thank you. Thank you. Love, Vickie