It feels  good to peek in here and read the interesting posts...have missed the interaction here.  I thought I might contribute some thoughts on this subject of control-as it caught my attention.  For the past 4 months or so I have felt "cut-off" from the spiritual flow.  No heart voice, no motivation to read or study-even this course, that I find amazing....just drifted off in a kind of fog.  The feeling that this was all some K-cycle felt true to me.  The hardest part of this all was that I did not feel like a soft loving human-I felt vulnerable and defensive....but-thankfully, a larger part of me knew this was a phase that would pass.

  Last night I woke up in the middle of the night and literally felt an incoming energy flow into me-I felt breathless and excited and somehow alive again.  I am not sure, but feel that my little lamp is lit.  Asking myself what this 4 months accomplished, I can only come up with the fact that it loosened my grip or ideas about certain things.  Those ideas gave me a sense of control.  But maybe they also blocked me from new and creative forces.  

  I know I am guided.  The less attached I am to my "ideas"-the more the auto-pilot switch stays on, and things flow with an ease that just feels right.  For now, it's good to be back!
                                           Shara