I ROCK!!!

[Mystress]

  So there is this thing I advise people to use, I call it an ugly mirror bubble. It is mostly for people who are having a hard time getting a handle on their projections, judgements etc.

   I usually warn "handle with care" because spending too much time in an ugly mirror bubble facing your shit can get some people really down, beating yourself up about what you see, that is not the point of shadow work. It is about getting to know, love and accept yourself.

  It is very simple. Mirror the *inside* of your grounding eggshell so that anything you project comes right back at you. With an ugly mirror it is specific to negative projections, (especially for a parent, kids depend on the love you are sending out like it is air) but you can set your intention as you please depending on what you want to see reflected.

   I advised someone to wear one recently, and since they insisted I was projecting I decided to put one on myself for the first time in a few years. 

  Just for good measure I set it to 100%, to reflect back *everything* I was sending out.  It does not stop incoming projections from other people either, it is not a shield or protection.  It just bounces back my own stuff, whatever is there. Getting back what I am giving.

   Within a minute of it going up, a lot of stuff that had been concerning me just blew off.  Made me go hmm.

     Going to bed I decided to skip whatever it is my spiritual self gets up to while I sleep, and left it up.

  Usually being woken unexpectedly will ruin my whole day, I realized recently I actually go into shock.  Do not wake the shaman from the trance.  Garbage truck woke me up this morning about 1/2 hour early, did not bother me.  Got out of bed a little sleepy but no harm done.
  Wow.

   Considered the mirror, decided to leave it up... and all day it just gets better and better.  It feels like the years are peeling off me.  Ugly mirror?  This is a joyous ecstasy mirror and the fountain of youth rolled into one. Damn. Even my crows feet are reduced. Posture is improved, little pains are fading...

    I am getting back what I project???  I FUCKING ROCK!!  Wow it feels good to be around me, huh!!  I had no idea... I do not usually feel my energy in this way and  YUMMY MYSTRESS ME!!
  Getting back all the energy that I usually project or send is showing me that what I share is wow blissful joyous and fun! 

   Not like a reflection of any nasty projections or junk like that at all.  More like a giant leak in my life force has been plugged and the full wow of my healing energy all for me me me oooooooooooo.. damn. 

All day just keeps getting better  The sheer vitality is amazing, delicious and it is whooo rocketship home back to ascension I go... wheee. About bloody time!!!

  I asked Goddess... WTF?
  Where is the leak where all this missing vitality has been getting drained away?

  Got back "you just care about people." Doh.

  Well that is stupid. Getting old for them, ain't the way to do it.  Giving away my life force is just not the way to express caring. Becoming Source for other people was not supposed to be any part of the deal, with the teacher gig. Supposed to be "Goddess has it handled" and redirect them to the inner Guru and DB.   

  I don't even think it is so much about me projecting, so much as... mail order.  People who ask for my love, get it... generosity is part of my ethic, and they asked so it is consensual. 

   Of course, those details do not matter really... it is about who the energy came through, that bounces it back. Vessel takes the hits regardless.   The love will trigger stuff in them and so there is always feedback from a projection even if it is asked for and consensual.  My own energy being muddy while it is processing... or worse if what the love triggers is not something they are ready to let go of. 

   The ugly mirror bubble for me, is like just another layer of my intention to keep my energy turned inward... almost too, like an extra affirmation that what I see is myself reflected.

  It is not like a shielding because it is not actually protecting me from anything, except perhaps the good intentions of my too compassionate and generous heart... and the vagaries of my ADD attention span ROTFMAO. 

  I had a funny thought, what if the bubble makes the Shakti on my websites go flat... it is funny because it is absurd.

  A.) Goddess has it handled.
  B.) The websites are not coded to connect to me real time self, to allow me the luxury of a bad hair day without souring the milk for all the visitors.
  C.) They represent a moment, the snapshot in time, in eternity when they were created. 
  D.) It is a limiting thought really, to think of something as having more Shakti or less. One of those nonsense questions like how many angels can dance on the head of a pin. Simply does not translate to the non-dual infinite.  Shakti is Presence and Presence is in everything, it is really a mind game to measure how much is there because there really *isn't* anything else!!     It is about perceptions, what you can see, or perceive. Not about what is there, Shakti is All that Is. 
.. it is about your receptivity to Presence. 

  I think I'm just going to stay in the bubble for a while, see how it goes. I am having a fabulous vacation without going anywhere at all. I had a funny thought that as long as I have redecorated the inside with the mirror finish,  might as well spraypaint "Goddess has it handled" on the outside of the egg, message for the folks sending in the mail order requests... how the hell did I end up in that line of work?  eeek. Forget it!! 

  maybe even, "Goddess *in you* has it handled"  LOL  just to be clear where the mail gets redirected to...

  I thought I had been very clear about that in my intentions but obviously I have been overindulgent with the people who want me to be source for them. They can all go whistle.  I thought I chucked that game a long time ago.  Paddle your own canoe. Enlightenment is DIY if it is anything worth having.  Teacher, guide, not Source.

   Wheeeeeeeeeeee!!  There is a party in my pants and it is because I am in them.

    Thou art God.  

 

[juergen]

Halleluja! Holy Trinity,

Rocks, Trees, and ...Water 

(high pitched and melodic, spontaneous) hahaha!


Certainly You ROCK

[juergen]

how the hell did I end up in that line of work?  eeek. Forget it!! 

Was guessing about that, while in some efforts to answer Your last extensive post(before or while You were packing for the sailing trip); ample viaticum that post .
Gave me a hard time, wondering is She now Jesus Scapegoat or part of that?

Then by "mere accident" i stumbled over a novel figure, Armand a vampire, by a writer named Anne Rice and i researched it a bit. Well there is more literature i haven't read than i actually did read , and i recollect vaguely i once deciding "Anne Rice forget it", an instinct i confirmed just once again. Having become renowned as a mystic novel writer on vampiric and witchy stuff, she has "returned to faith" and now it's all about "Jesus Christ the Lord"; still and nonetheless she presents herself Dracula Femme Goth Style in some youtube videos; and i bet she hadn't even ever got any mystic ground from where  to "return to faith". VEry easily to see through.

Then i understand the class difference to the league that You are playing;  straying sometimes thru the scam can have its goods though,  at any case

So it's no really big surprise that You ROCK

I believe it makes sense in a nicely orderly way to ascend thru water, over the trees up to the rocks(Himalayas, mountain tops); ..and way back.
Then having some beach bleached towels in reach while swimming, does also constitute sort of rocks...
so far..
juergen

[Mystress]

  Reading my mind again Juergen? Coz I know I was not projecting this time!

  I read "Inverview with the Vampire" when I was 16. 

  I met Ann Rice at a book signing, suggested Dolph Lungren for the lead in the movie version. She did not know him. When I said he played the big Russian in "Rocky" she turned up her nose and went onto the next person.

  Silly woman does not know the difference between the actor and the role. Dolph is a 5x champion kickboxer, has several degrees and speaks a bunch of languages. Not a stupid man and certainly a closer physical and ethnic match than that shrimp Tom Cruise.  Lestat was a giant, the wolf-killer. Besides, he used to date Grace Jones. How cool is that??

   

[Jennifer]

Very, very cool.  That's how.

[juergen]

Oh Hex!

I'm trying to be creative as a recipient of all kind of art, which includes certainly movies; so what i take in is also "my movie" in a certain way. Spinning it  further i arrive at something vague like my ideal movie...

To make it short: Your BIO is that movie!!!

Imagine that scene when You met Anne Rice, containing all bursts of laughter and kriya fits of the whole Universe in a nutshell.

I saw Dolph Lundgren in a movie as the adversary of a corrupt sherrif, where he to take an attractive police woman as a hostage... hot dry air and desert sand all around, and a *happy end* among yoshua trees... cool stuff!

"Reading minds" goes not necessarily with projections or thru spying, i think; i believe it's more like "it just is". The moderator of the female black belts yahoo group posted a picture of the Meyers Pussycat Faster! film,  of Tura Santana swirling that guy after the race, freshly after i had been enthusiastic 'bout that scene(it's so darn authentic) and  had directly conversed about something with him. I believe "the mind reading",  it's an expression of being One.

You are a perfectionist and Ann Rice isn't(as a compensation she's got the stupid arrogance ).

he used to date Grace Jones. How cool is that?? Smiley

I once posted to Gustav, jokingly, he'd make a good marriage broker, now i know where he's got it from