Entities.

[Lexx]

Is it possible that we create entities within us, to take away responsibility from things in our life.
To give up responsibility for something and relinquishing control of it. Blocks are one thing but entities seem to act like an intelligent block.
Im feeling out different layers, and to me the ego seems to be alike an entity as well?

So if that is the case is ridding ourselves of an entity, ridding us of something of ours? Therefore it makes it really important to fill the space with light?

[Lexx]

Sorry i keep having questions and questions.

I am working on the grounding ritual at the moment, planning to spend a good deal of time on this lesson before moving on.

This post  sort of describes the beggining of my searching. I have joined many online forums looking for answers but never got any. If someone has something to add that would be appreciated.

When i was 17 i was experiencing lots of 'things'. Hearing voices, seeing lights, seeing small black objects flying through my house. When i came out to Canada a year later i saw a large ball of red light out of the window, moving slowly and silently towards me. It was about 20' in diameter and was just totally silent. I ran out to get up close and personal but hey presto it had ski-dabbled.

One night as i lay in my camper van, i asked the question "Is it all aliens?" And for the answer 'yes' to come as a lightning bolt. Immediately after i asked the question i felt incredibly peaceful, as though i was THE rock in the universe and was invincible. A couple of seconds passed and a lightning flash went off! Well i freaked out (Good one Lexx ) And said, "Go away! Come back when im 30 something...."  Lol.

Ive had experiences since where i would wake up from slumber and feel as though there was a powerfull force/energy trying to enter me, (and i think this is the peacefull feeling) but ive resisted, feeling as though i would die if i let it in.. It is just so powerfull...

So anyways i think there are a lot of mind states i can put myself into, but the grounding should be my master right now...
Ive been searching for answers to this stuff forever. Perhaps someone can offer some advice/guidance.
Thanks.

[Lady C]

Hi Lexx,

I think yes - entities can be of our own creation.  When I read your post I thought of Annie Lennox - "No more I love you's" - she sings of many demons; '...desire, despair - so many monsters'.  And all of the ego.  I'm not sure I would consider them with any intelligence although ego will play those kinds of tricks to get you to give away power.

It seems you feel a separation of 'self' from 'all that is', which could be where your questions stem from.  All is as it should be; ego included.  It is the separation that allows you to 'be' in a world of duality.  Love it, recognize it has been created to protect you and even though it's possibly misguided in some respects, that is it's intent.  White light - yes - it gives strength to all.

I don't know how long ago you were in Canada, but a few years ago, I saw the red of the Aurora Borealis here - I'm in Indiana!  It was incredible.  I can't imagine what it would have looked like there, but maybe...

I've had that force also, wake me into a lucid dream at night.  Scared me so badly.  Once it was accompanied with a doorway of fire until I finally really woke up.  Nothing peaceful about it for me.  Research brought me to night terrors and succubus/incubus ology but I don't know any more than that.

Anyway - the grounding is absolutely the thing to focus on, imo.  You'll be delighted with your ability to discern between the entities, aliens, blocks, what's in your best interest and what's best given to Goddess.  Namaste!  Lady C

[Lexx]

Thanks Lady C

You know its a funny thing. That i can be so many people so many times!

What i mean is, im looking for the 'real' of myself.
Today i spent a great deal of time here in the tea room looking up surrender amongst other things.

I have learnt that much of my surrender is often resistance -- The opposite!
Wow.
I read a post about giving up ones partner.. Really a jewel of a post for me.

I have struggled with trusting a lover. The end result usually being seperation. (in more ways than one lol)
Yes i laugh now, but that precipice of terror and pain is so close too! Im sure i will plunge into it again.....

I have seen a psychic lady, wanting to find answers to all these questions i have posted here too. When i find myself sitting there i no longer care... I just figure that the now is where i want to be, and all my worries are no longer real.
So we do choose our reality. And we just are creatures of habit no? Build a good habit, not a bad one....

I dont know much else right now, other than i want to grow, to find my way home bit by bit... Nothing else matters for me, its all floss just 'for looks'

So thankyou for your reply, i guess i was fishing for attention in some ways, because i find the truth is like a bold heart that beats freely, like a childs heart, and it dosent really have any questions.
The grounding and the learning of Surrender is beautiful and i want to thank Mystress for sharing that! And i will spend a great deal of time bringing that into my everyday life.
Namaste.

Oh that red light,, it was a great big ball of shining red light 20 feet in diameter and very close ! No mistaking. No real emotional response to it either, it was just there in front of the window. I still see flashes of light light up the sky now and again when i fall from grace.
Ie, i was ridding myself of the confines of the mind until i experienced the 'All that Is', and fear took me away -- Flash of light in the sky!
Funny, but essentially not important.